GRATEFUL FOR WAKING UP HAPPY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to wake up happy without the feeling of PTSD.

I realized yesterday that I put thoughts in my on head when I feel fear and anxiety in my stomach.....thoughts of my parents, brother and the Creature.

However I am in charge of my mind.

My mind is not in charge of me.

I put that to use this morning and VOILA.....I'm good.

I had a wonderful dinner date with Margie last night.

Today I'm getting ready for my weekend away with Charles. I'm very excited.

I will be walking at The Home Depot, going to Plainview Meditation and to Kyra.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done to help me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE WONDERFUL MAN THAT I MARRIED

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me Charles.....a wonderful man......and I'm married to this wonderful man and enjoying my life.

I'm back from St. James.  The show at Celebrate St. James was awesome...it was not only Irish songs BUT songs from the 70's that I could sing along to as well as dancing with Charles.

We did some errands afterwards....library to pick up books for The Sports Book Club.....Sports betting for March Madness and we we t to The Wine Guy because we needed to replenish wine at the apartment.

This morning I was on my way by 12.....to walk at The Home Depot....to continue Passover shopping and get a manicure.

I also continued to set up Pesach in the kitchen.

I'm having dinner with Margie at Marios.  I hope to read when I get home and then speak to Charles before I go to sleep.

Thank you Almighty for this wonderful man.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR AN ADVENTURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because in the middle of Passover preparations......I am going on an adventure!!!  

I will be going to the apartment to attend a St. Patrick's Day Celebration with Charles at Celebrate St. James.

 I will return to Plainview tomorrow and tell you all about it.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this fun day!

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR BEGINNING TO HEAL MY HEART

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to heal my heart and move on.

I understand our marriage a lot better than I did.   Charles and I had an amazing weekend.  We had a beautiful Shabbos dinner at the house.  I went to services on Saturday and made dinner after which we went to PJC to see The Wizard of Oz.  On Sunday Charles went to play horseshoes with the guys from Hollis and I was able to do some chores and walk at The Home Depot.  We met up again and attended the Academy Awards where I won a Trivia contest with Charles' help and as a prize I received a $25 gift certificate to a restaurant.   THIS IS A REAL MARRIAGE.......SOMETHING THAT I NEVER UNDERSTOOD!

Charles went back to St. James today and at 2pm I will have my first Meditation class.

Tonight is Mahjong and we will be playing at Rhonnie's with dinner at  Pasteria.

A new life has begun EVEN at my age.  I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR GETTING RID OF DREAMS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to get rid of dreams that never materialized and to create new dreams for myself.

My life is so much better because of thi and I am so much calmer and happier. Last night Charles and I went to PJC to see The Wizard of Oz.  It was a wonderful evening.  I'm so proud of the man I love.  I'm respected at the synagogue because life changed because I believed in the Almighty.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A RELAXED SABBATH

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful Sabbath.

I made a delicious Sabbath dinner last night.  Charles loved it.....salad...salmon and grilled vegetables.

I went to services this morning and tonight we're going to see The Wizard of Oz at PJC.

Gone are the days when I had to have strategies to be safe when I came home.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have joy in my life.

I picked up Matzah's ashes from Jericho Animal Hospital yesterday.  I cried.......I felt relieved that I could cry thanks to Zoloft and the therapy that I get from Kyra and Judith.  I rejoiced in the wonderful life that Matzah had with me and did not feel guilty about ho he passed.....I blamed Jericho Animal for worshipping money and no explaining to me what was really happening.

I am joy fun because Charles will be spending the weekend at the house with me. Today we will be going to the Syosset Library to see Hamnet and then having Shabbos dinner. I am looking forward to this with joy.

Thank you Almighty for the joy in my life.

 I am grateful.