GRATEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING FEAR IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to understand fear in my life.

When my Mother and the Creature were alive I faced fear in my life daily because I NEVER knew what they were going to do or say and I was afraid.  The concept of fear stayed with me even today because it's a part of my being.

I'm trying very hard to comprehend it and rid myself of it. I joined Plainview Meditation for example.  It's a tough road BUT I'm a determined person.

Yesterday I went to Dr. Kurtz and he fixed my bonding.  Today I will speak to Dom and shortly after that Perillo will be here to check the boiler.  Freddy will be here too.

Charles has left with Frank and Dan for the cabin.  He will be back Friday.

I am grateful for the Almighty's help in everything.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR JOY, LOVE AND PEACE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me FREEDOM.  He has given me a life filled with JOY, LOVE AND PEACE.  I AM FREE!!!!

Sometimes I am too stupid and dense to realize this BUT now I get it.  I had a wonderful weekend with Charles and I really have to stop looking at the past and having a pity party.   Yes.....Dana blew me off this weekend!  Yes Hilary is like her grandmother and father!!  

The Almighty has given me good health and a substantial amount of money.  He has given me a man to share the rest of my life with.  He has given me JOY, LOVE, and PEACE.   I AM FREE!

Thank you Almighty.

I am beyond grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR EXPERIENCING LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me Charles and as a result of this I am able to experience life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A PEACEFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a peaceful day.

Charles arrived at 5:30 after I came home from Plainview Meditation and took me out for a wonderful dinner at Hama Sushi.  Dana canceled our plan for today because Madalyn has strep throat so we have declared it a Pajama Day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL THAT THE ALMIGHTY IS LOOKING AFTER ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is looking after me.

Today was Shabbos and also the last day of Shavout and Yizkor. As I said the Yizkor service I saw that I was no longer angry with my parents.  I hoped that they could look down from heaven to see how much I have achieved.  I was proud of, as the Rabbi said, "My Resilience."

It's a rainy Memorial Day weekend.  Charles will arrive after Plainview Meditation....after 5.  I will also walk at The Home Depot.

I hope to call Karen.  I hope to read. I'm not sure whether we are visiting Dana tomorrow as Madalyn has strep.

I am grateful to the Almighty for watching over me.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me so much joy in my life.

Last night, after my Shavout dinner I attended a study session at PJC.  It was spiritual and amazing.  This morning I attended services.   I will be going to The Home Depot to walk and to a session of Meditation at Plainview Meditation.

I will be speaking to Charles later this afternoon.  I love our space arrangement.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me Freddy to keep my home safe and Charles to love.

 Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PEACE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me peace in my life.

It is so joyful to wake up quietly......to go about my morning chores peacefully......to text love messages to Charles.......to have a quiet breakfast with the news on television.....to read the paper......take a shower and brush my teeth.  This was the norm for so many people through their lives.  I'm so glad that the Almighty let me experience this now!

Today I will be cashing a check at Chase and paying bills and mailing them at the post office.  My floor needs to be swiffered  too.  I will read and walk at The Home Depot. I'm getting my hair blown out.  

 Tonight is the beginning of the holiday of Shavout and I will be going to a service and classes at PJC tonight.

Tomorrow is Shavout and the beginning of the Sabbath.  I will be at services both Friday and Saturday.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the peace in my life.

Thank you.