GRATEFUL FOR JOYFUL DAYS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me joyful days.

Yesterday I walked at The Home Depot.   I actually walked 4 miles all day. I went to pay a shiva call for Rose as Ritchie has passed away.  I had a good session with Judith and I went to Plainview Meditation.  I got to speak to both Margie and Karen too.  I made swordfish for dinner after I had finished the food shopping at Trader Joe's.  Freddy is working on the house.

Today I will walk at The Home Depot. I will get my hair blown out at I.D.  I have a session at Plainview Meditation.  Charles is supposed to come home today.

 Life is good and I'm enjoying every moment.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR SEEING THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to see the joy in my life.

Yesterday Freddy came and began the Spring/Summer work on my house. When he left I sat outside and got some sun and just enjoyed the fact that I am retired and I on this beautiful home.  I decided to take myself out to dinner also.  I read my book too.

I waited so long for this calm and peaceful life to happen.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He made it happen.

Thank you.  I know that you are always here for me.

 

GRATEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING FEAR IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to understand fear in my life.

When my Mother and the Creature were alive I faced fear in my life daily because I NEVER knew what they were going to do or say and I was afraid.  The concept of fear stayed with me even today because it's a part of my being.

I'm trying very hard to comprehend it and rid myself of it. I joined Plainview Meditation for example.  It's a tough road BUT I'm a determined person.

Yesterday I went to Dr. Kurtz and he fixed my bonding.  Today I will speak to Dom and shortly after that Perillo will be here to check the boiler.  Freddy will be here too.

Charles has left with Frank and Dan for the cabin.  He will be back Friday.

I am grateful for the Almighty's help in everything.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR JOY, LOVE AND PEACE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me FREEDOM.  He has given me a life filled with JOY, LOVE AND PEACE.  I AM FREE!!!!

Sometimes I am too stupid and dense to realize this BUT now I get it.  I had a wonderful weekend with Charles and I really have to stop looking at the past and having a pity party.   Yes.....Dana blew me off this weekend!  Yes Hilary is like her grandmother and father!!  

The Almighty has given me good health and a substantial amount of money.  He has given me a man to share the rest of my life with.  He has given me JOY, LOVE, and PEACE.   I AM FREE!

Thank you Almighty.

I am beyond grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR EXPERIENCING LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me Charles and as a result of this I am able to experience life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A PEACEFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a peaceful day.

Charles arrived at 5:30 after I came home from Plainview Meditation and took me out for a wonderful dinner at Hama Sushi.  Dana canceled our plan for today because Madalyn has strep throat so we have declared it a Pajama Day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL THAT THE ALMIGHTY IS LOOKING AFTER ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is looking after me.

Today was Shabbos and also the last day of Shavout and Yizkor. As I said the Yizkor service I saw that I was no longer angry with my parents.  I hoped that they could look down from heaven to see how much I have achieved.  I was proud of, as the Rabbi said, "My Resilience."

It's a rainy Memorial Day weekend.  Charles will arrive after Plainview Meditation....after 5.  I will also walk at The Home Depot.

I hope to call Karen.  I hope to read. I'm not sure whether we are visiting Dana tomorrow as Madalyn has strep.

I am grateful to the Almighty for watching over me.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me so much joy in my life.

Last night, after my Shavout dinner I attended a study session at PJC.  It was spiritual and amazing.  This morning I attended services.   I will be going to The Home Depot to walk and to a session of Meditation at Plainview Meditation.

I will be speaking to Charles later this afternoon.  I love our space arrangement.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me Freddy to keep my home safe and Charles to love.

 Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PEACE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me peace in my life.

It is so joyful to wake up quietly......to go about my morning chores peacefully......to text love messages to Charles.......to have a quiet breakfast with the news on television.....to read the paper......take a shower and brush my teeth.  This was the norm for so many people through their lives.  I'm so glad that the Almighty let me experience this now!

Today I will be cashing a check at Chase and paying bills and mailing them at the post office.  My floor needs to be swiffered  too.  I will read and walk at The Home Depot. I'm getting my hair blown out.  

 Tonight is the beginning of the holiday of Shavout and I will be going to a service and classes at PJC tonight.

Tomorrow is Shavout and the beginning of the Sabbath.  I will be at services both Friday and Saturday.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the peace in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful new life.

Charles' 75th Birthday Trip was a HUGE SUCCESS.  I am beyond grateful to the Almighty for allowing this to happen.  The weather was gorgeous.....really summer like. North Branch Inn was wonderful. Jake made FREE INCLUDED BREAKFAST. The HAPPY HOUR was beyond belief. Dinners were out of this world. We absolutely loved the room and I loved the independence of my shower and the funky bathtub in the room. We went to see WOODSTOCK in BETHEL.  We took the tour in the golf cart and enjoyed the museum. We traveled to ROSCOE and to NARROWSBURG too. Each day brought a wonderful experience in the SUV that we rented.

Charles left early this morning to return the vehicle.  I will start my day remembering the joy of our love on this wonderful birthday trip.

Today it's back to chores but the MEMORIES of our days together will shine through.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY VACATION

I am grateful to the Almighty because Charles and I had a wonderful birthday vacation in North Bridge in the Catskills.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR BEING EXCITED AND HAPPY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me both excited and happy. 

This is a very special long weekend because I am taking my beloved Charles on his BIRTHDAY TRIP to the Catskills.  We are staying at THE NORTH BRANCH INN. We are leaving today.....Thursday May 14th and will be home on Tuesday May 19th.

I'm very happy to be doing this for Charles. I'm also very happy for me as I get to take vacations that are joyful.

Thank you Almighty for my joy and excitement.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING HAPPY

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to become a happy human being.

I am so beyond grateful for all the friends and activities that I have, Yesterday I had my hilts done at ID......I'm blond and green now!!!  I went shopping at Bloomingdale's and bought makeup and a beautiful new MZ Wallace bag.  I'm treating myself to things because......if not now...then when?

Today I will be speaking to Dom at 10 and then going to Lunch and Learn at PJC.  I will walk at The Home Depot and get a manicure too.  I'm taking myself to dinner because tomorrow I take Charles on his 75th Birthday trip.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has given me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING RESILIENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a BRIGHT and RESILIENT human being.

I have a tendency to believe in dreams that I create BUT I need to come back down to reality.

Today is one of those days.

I need to be resilient so that I don't create false dreams and illusions and then become disappointed.   I need to take care of me and that's exactly what I'm going to do.

That's exactly what I'm going to do.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL MOTHER'S DAY WEEKEND

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful Mother's Day weekend.

Charlie took me to Monte's for a Mother's Day dinner on Saturday night.  Sunday we had brunch at Hilary and Izzy's new co-op.   I brought Remi 2 boxes of Pokemon cards and a Hess truck for Remi and a bottle of wine for Hilary.  We had a delightful time....even gettin to walk in Forest Park.  Then we went to visit Anita and Ray....also VERY BIG FUN!!!!

Charlie bought me a Class at the new cooking establishment called Bud in Smithtown and Anita give me a bottle of wine.

We came home exhausted.   Charlie left this morning and I went to the Verizon Store to explain new things about my phone.  I will walk at The Home Depot and attend a session at Plainview Meditation.

I'm having dinner at Pasteria and playing Mahjong at Rhonnie's.

Thank you Almighty for this incredible Mother's Day weekend.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful new life.

Shabbath dinner with Charles was wonderful.  I made salad and swordfish with carrots.  We start with a cocktail that I make and end with one as dessert.  Charles is so respectful of Shabbat services that I do and candle lighting.

Today I attended services.  I will read and walk at The Home Depot. Charles went to a Commack Library program with Stephen.

Tonight we are having dinner with Ray and Cindy. They live in Plainview and know many restaurants that I don't know.  We're going to Villa Monte. I'm very excited.

Thank you Almighty  for this new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me how to love myself.

It took a long time BUT I finally learned how to do this.

I've gone shopping for me.  I got a manicure and pedicure. I joined Plainview Meditation and am learning how to throw away false pictures.  I am aware that Hilary is a narcissist and I learned how to deal with it. I'm eating healthy and exercising too. I'm very proud of me.

 Today I'm getting my hair blown out and going to Plainview Meditation.  I will walk at The Home Depot.

Charles will be here to spend Mother's Day Weekend with me. We will do the Sabbath together. Tomorrow we will be going out with Ray and Cindy in Plainview. I will finally learn about the Plainview that I never knew.  Hilary is hosting a brunch on Sunday and I bought Remi lots of gifts too.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR QUIET IN THE MORNING

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have quiet  in the morning.  It's a blessing that I NEVER had before.  Waking up in the morning to peacefulness is an absolutely beautiful gift.

Today will be a quit day.  I'm going food shopping.  I will walk at The Home Depot and then do a session at Plainview Meditation.

Margie and I will have dinner tonight at Mario's and I'll speak to Charles at the end of the day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A CALM MORNING

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a calm morning.  I really appreciate calm mornings as this was something that I NEVER had.  I am grateful to the Almighty for the gift of calmness.

Today will be a quiet day.  I'm treating myself to a manicure/pedicure this morning and Plainview meditation later in the afternoon.  I will walk at The Home Depot and I hope to finish my book....The Long Island Reads....Doorman.

Thank you Almighty for the calmness of this morning.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a new day.

I am happy. I am healthy and ready to begin the new day.

Mahjong was fun last night.  I know exactly who my cast of characters are and what to expect so it was really fun playing the game.  The girls left about 10:15.

Today I will be at the Verizon store dealing with technologies many problems. Then I have a dental cleaning as well as a discussion about my bonding.

I hope to walk at The Home Depot as well as clean the kitchen and both bathrooms. I hope to have tofu and veggies for dinner.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He as done for me.

Thank you. 

UPDATE:   I am delighted to report that Dr. Kurtz will redo my bonding. I have a new product to use on my teeth before I retire too!   Big fun!

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEKEND WITH MY HUSBAND

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful weekend with my husband Charles.

Friday night, Shabbos dinner was wonderful. Charles is beyond respectful. Services were quite good too.  Then we left for the apartment.  Charles made dinner Saturday night and we slept late on Sunday......had sex and breakfast and went to the Smithhaven Mall and got everything done.  We went to the new Galiano Wine Bar and Restaurant and then had Japanese food for dinner.

This morning we went to the Sports Book Club and lunch with the guys.

I came home to play Mahjong at my house.  I'm hosting.

Thank you Almighty for this wonderful weekend.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR THE ALMIGHTY'S HELP

 I am beyond grateful to the Almighty for all the help that He has given me.

This was a tough week BUT thanks to the Almighty I made it through the court hearing and the periodontist.  I even made it through to Verizon and got a new phone and free laptop.

I was at services this morning after breakfast with Charles.

I will be heading to the apartment and will be back on Monday!

Thank you Almighty for all your help.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ACCEPTING CHANGE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me to live in the moment and accept change.

Yesterday Charles took me to the periodontist and Dr. Lutnick did a bit of surgery on 2 teeth.  I have to return next Thursday to do a re-check and see if I need a root canal.  I took Charles out to dinner.  He went back to the apartment and I went home to collapse!

Charles will be back tonight for Shabbos dinner.  I need to buy fish.  I need to get my hair blown out and walk at The Home Depot.  I need to attend a session at Plainview Meditation too.

Life in the present is really good and I'm grateful to the Almighty for all of this.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR LOVE IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to find love in my life.

Charles came with me for my court date yesterday.  I was given no points and had to pay a fine.

Today Charles is coming with me to the periodontist as I have to have some surgery.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have love in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE COMFORT IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to feel comfort in my life.

I'm going to court today because of the accident that I had on March 26, 2026.  Charles is going with me.  He is the comfort in my life.

Thank you Almighty for this.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING ALIVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to be alive....to stay alive.....HAPPY AND HEALTHY!

He has given me so many happy experiences.  Today I will speak to Judith.....I will go to Plainview Meditation.......get my hair blonde out at ID for my court date  tomorrow and walk at The Home Depot. 

Charles will be here tonight to attend court tomorrow.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has given me.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR THE LOVE IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have love in my life.

Charles and I had a wonderful weekend from the moment he arrived for Sabbath dinner to the moment he left just a few minutes ago.  Saturday night we took Freddy out for his birthday and had a wonderful time.  I even "re-met" Bruno.   Sunday we went to Brooklyn to see Michael and I FaceTimed with Remi about Pokemon cards. I'm all paid up with my taxes as Michael paid us a visit and hopefully Michael, Gene and Charles will put together a golf game. I will call Michelle today.  Charles left this morning to take care of his computer and I will clean the house.

I have NEVER been so loved and wanted.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE CHANGES IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for all the changes in my life.

These changes have made my life so much sweeter.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL SABBATH

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful Sabbath.

Last night, Friday night, Charles and I shared a wonderful Sabbath dinner.  This morning I attended services at PJC.  I am taking Freddy and company out to dinner for his 65th birthday.

I am beyond happy to do this.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEK WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He gave me a wonderful week with Charles.

This is what marriage is.  It can be beyond wonderful to have a friend to talk to and walk with all the time.  Each of us has different friends and different lives BUT the respect shown to each other is wonderful.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to experience this. 

I am beyond grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR CHARLES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He placed Charles in my life as my best friend.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR LOVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a life filled with love.

I am grateful to all of my friends who gave me rides when I didn't have a car. I am grateful to Charles for his love.....his help and his being there for me.  MY CAR IS BACK!!!

I went to services at PJC today and in a few minutes I will be leaving for the apartment.....a vacation for me and I'll be back on Thursday.

Thank you Almighty for all that you have done for me.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR FOLLOWING MY HEART

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to follow my heart.

My heart was in love with Charles and my gut told me to marry him.  I have a wonderful life with him and I'm part of his family too.  Today Charles and I will be getting my car back.  I have really missed driving it.  I will miss Aaron BUT life must move on.

My heart told me to love and cherish my grandchildren and that's exactly what I have been doing.

As far as Hilary....she has been found out.  All the puzzle pieces come together and I'm following what my heart dictates.

Thank you Almighty for teaching me to follow my heart.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE JOY IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me so much joy in my life.

Yesterday I attended my first LUNCH and LEARN.  I really enjoyed it and lunch was delicious......salmon....I didn't have to make dinner!!!!   I was able to walk outside because it's like summer out there.  Today it will be 88 degrees!   Last night I attended the Sisterhood Book Club and had a great time.  Rhonnie drove me to both activities.

Today I'm getting my hair colored.  I hope to walk.  Margie is coming over to pick up the cat items that Karen gave me and we are going to Mario's for dinner.

I'm really enjoying my life and I'm beyond grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN TNE PRESENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to live in the present.

I had a wonderful time on my overnight with Charles at the apartment. Aaron dropped me off.   I was able to take NOT ONE BUT TWO WALKS.   I walked around the neighborhood while Charles went to his class.  After the show at CELEBRATE ST. JAMES we walked at Long Beach.  I walked over 5 miles and I'm proud of me.

Charles made a delicious swordfish dinner.  We went to sleep early as Charles dropped me off at the house and went to his doctors appointment.  

Rhonnie will be picking me up for LUNCH AND LEARN and for SISTERHOOD BOOK CLUB this evening.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR AN OVERNIGHT WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have an overnight with Charles.  

It's been very tough without a car although Conti did say that I will have the car the beginning of next week.  It's a beautiful day and I'm taking the limo to the apartment to spend an overnight with Charles.  We have a show to see at Celebrate St. James too. I'm very excited.

I will be back tomorrow morning just in time for Rhonnie to pick me up for Lunch and Learn at PJC.

Yesterday was Yom Hashoah and there was a wonderful presentation t PJC dealing with how Italian Christians helped Italian Jews and others hide during World War 2.  The Italians had a concentration camp very different from the Germans and I learned a lot.

Thank you Almighty for taking care of me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEKEND WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful weekend with Charles.

Sabbath dinner on Friday......services on Saturday.......fun all day Saturday with Charles and Freddy.......dinner at Hama Sushi.

Laughing.....joking....getting chores done on Sunday.

Tuna dinner at home Sunday night.

Woke up Monday ready to face the day......Plainview Meditation and FV Cleaners.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A JOYFUL SABBATH

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has chosen to give me a glorious Sabbath.

Last night Charles arrived for candle lighting and dinner for the Sabbath. Pesach things have been put away and we move on.......

Today Charles drove me to services and picked me up.  It was absolutely wonderful to be back.

Playtime will be followed by dinner at Hama Sushi.

Thank you Almighty for this amazing day.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a new day.

I am very grateful that the Almighty encouraged me to go to Plainview Meditation. I wasn't ready for the experience in 2019, a year after the Creature died. But, I'm ready NOW to throw away that which doesn't serve me and I'm very grateful for this.  It has helped me to move on happily with my own life.  I feel lighter as a result of what I have been learning.  I understand who Hilary is and am able to distance myself from her hurtful and rotten behaviors while keeping Rrmi.  I am able to keep Charles' help so that I can see Madalyn.

i am grateful to the Almighty for all of this.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR WONDERFUL DAYS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have wonderful, healthy and happy days.

Dana and Madalyn came to visit yesterday and the visit was a huge success.

Charles slept over and helped me do lots of things today....Plainview Meditation, Chase Bank where I needed to withdraw money, ShopRite where I needed salmon, Solomon's Jewelers to change my necklace, Angel Tips where I needed to make an appointment. We worked on our calendar too.

Charles went home.....to return tomorrow for Sabbath dinner and spend the weekend.

I hope to walk later as I first must begin the process of putting away Passover.

I am grateful to the Almighty for these wonderful days.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to learn new things and that has allowed me to perceive things so differently.

Learning that Hilary is a narcissist and has the personality disorder will allow me to backoff of her with no regrets at all.  I feel so unburdened because all the incidents of her life make sense now.  I'm so glad that I made the choices that I did with her and I feel so unburdened by her.

I'm getting company today!!!!  DANA, MADALYN and MY CHARLES will be here today!!!

Thank you Almighty for all the things that you have taught me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR GOING TO PLAINVIEW MEDITATION

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He encouraged me to join Plainview Meditation.

I have learned so much that I used on the Mahjong girls last night. I was extremely pleased with myself.

Charles is home and I will see him tomorrow when Dana and Madalyn come for the day.

I'm missing my car BUT enjoy being driven by Aaron.

I had a session with Judith and corroborated that Hilary has Narcissistic  Personality Disorder.  That took a burden off of me as I don't have to "work" so hard anymore.

I was able to have a session at Plainview Meditation.......go to Trader Joe's and CVS too.

I walked 3 miles and started my new book....Long Island Reads....The Doorman.

Life is good and I'm grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY HEALTH

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me good health.  That is such a blessing.

This morning I became frantic because my phone wasn't working. Jessica fixed it. Freddy came over too.   Charles called and we will be speaking at 5PM as he will be home.

I'm going to Plainview Meditation today and to walk at The Home Depot.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful for your love.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to learn to live in the moment. 

The Seders are over and I have settled down to the Passover Holiday.  I don't have a vehicle....it is in the Cont Body Shop being fixed soAaron from Aaron's Limo has been  driving me where I need to go.

Charles is in Virginia for Easter. He is taking AmTrak home tomorrow morning. He was at the first Seder and Hilary, Izzy and my beloved Remi were at the second.

I've been walking and following my diet. Dana and Madalyn will visit on Wednesday and Charles will join us for dinner.

I haven't cooked yet as I am still eating leftovers from the Seders that Freddy packed for me.

I've cleaned.  I finished a wonderful book for the Sisterhood Book Club called Heart of a Stranger.  I will be reading The Doorman for Long Island reads.

I've been meditating also. 

 I try to be focused on the present.

 I am beyond grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

Thank you!

GRATEFUL FOR JOINING PLAINVIEW MEDITATION

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He encouraged me to join Plainview Meditation and I have really begun to live in the moment.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful new life.

Charles left this morning for Virginia where He will be celebrating Easter with the family.

I went to a wonderful second seder with Hilary, Izzy and my beloved Remi.  Thank you Almighty for encouraging me to go to Plainview Meditation because I asked the Universe to help me make false dreams and memories disappear and He did.  I was then allowed to deal with Hilary and Izzy.

I love little Remi.  He enjoyed the Seder.....my friends enjoyed him and Remi found the Afikoman which allowed us to have dessert.  Remi won a $20 Amazon gift certificate.

It truly was a wonderful evening.

Today Aaron is coming and I'm getting my hair blown out and walking at The Home Depot.

Thank you Almighty for the good in my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A SPIRITUAL SEDER

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent Charles to me.

We went to the first Seder at PJC last night and it was wonderful.  We had a great table with Marcy, Mark and Alyssa and everyone got along.  Charles payed attention and said the prayers and I read the 4 Questions in Yiddish.

I made Charles a matza brie for breakfast this morning and we both remembered our little dog.  Charles will be at home today and I will be at the second Seder with Debbie, Marcy and family and Hilary, Izzy and Remi.

Today I will rest, relax and read....the weather is not good so I won't walk but I will meditate and thank the Almighty for my wonderful new life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR A LIMO SERVICE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has sent Aaron back to me after that horrific car accident.  I am also grateful to the Almighty because I am physically healthy and emotionally happy.   Aaron was the owner of Aaron's Limo the car service that I took for two years after Remi was born and before I met Charles.

My car is being fixed at Conti Collision and now Aaron drives me where I need to go. Yesterday I went to Plainview Meditation and to walk at The Home Depot.

Today I'm setting up the house completely as the first Seder is tonight at Plainview Jewish Center.  Charlie will be going with me.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me joy in my life.

He has sent Charles into my life to help m understand what FALSE DREAMS are and that I should be mindful of them so as not to get hurt.  I am really working on this.

My vehicle is being fixed.  I will be taking car service to Plainview Meditation today as well as to The Home Depot to walk.  I will continue my Passover preparations as tomorrow is the first Seder.

As I do this every day I will become stronger and enjoy life more.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT CHARLES IS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have Charles as my husband.

Charles helped me to learn how to access GEICO and what to say.  I have also accessed Aaron's Limo Service for tomorrow to go to Plainview Meditation and to walk at The Home Depot.  Charles also took me to ID, ANGEL TIPS and to TRADER JOE'S.

I am grateful for all that the Almighty has done for me.

Thank you.

 

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has kept me safe and alive and well.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR "PLEASE MAKE IT DISAPPEAR"

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to Plainview Meditation and I am learning so much that is helping me with my PTSD.

I learned that we come from a sphere with no knowledge at all and as we live....memories develop.   Having PTSD makes it hard to eliminate the memories.   You must remember that your mind is a camera and the pictures in the past are false pictures that need to be eliminated.   You must say:  MAKE IT DISAPPEAR and PLEASE MAKE IT DISAPPEAR....SUP.   I tried that today and it is beginning to work.

I had a wonderful overnight with Charles at the apartment last night.  He made a delicious codfish dinner and then we went to CELEBRATE ST. JAMES to hear a discussion of women's achievements in St. James since this is WOMEN'S HISTORY MONTH.

We got up early.......Charles to play golf and me to walk at The Home Depot and go to the periodontist.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

Thank you.

 

GRATEFUL FOR GOING TO PLAINVIEW MEDITATION

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He encouraged me to re-join Plainview Meditation.

The first time I joined with my friend Margie after the Creature died.....my mind was totally unfocused.  Now I find that I hear what the instructor is saying and I'm absorbing it.  Yesterday she spoke of the mind taking pictures.   In order to remain in the present you must understand the concept MAKE IT DISAPPEAR when your mind strays.  I tried that this morning and IT WORKED.

I will be going for another session today at 1PM.  Then I'm laving for an overnight at the apartment where Charles has an activity planned.

I will be back tomorrow to go to Dr. Ludwig....my periodontist.

Thank you Almighty for my new adventure.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a new day.

I am healthy and happy and awaiting this new day. Spring is in the air!!

My Passover preparations are coming along nicely.

I'm very happy with the help that the Almighty has given me.

Yesterday I went to Hama Sushi with the girls and then played MahJong.

Today I'm going to continue to get ready for Passover by shopping.  I'll also do some cleaning.  I'm going to Meditation and I will walk at The Home Depot.

Cleaning out the kitchen for Pesach means there is no food in the house so I'm going shopping too.

Thank you Almighty for all the good in my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE CHANGES IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He helped me to make changes in my life.

So much has changed since I was with the Creature.  My entire house has been redone.

I took a chance on FaceBook because of my daughters.......met a wonderful man.....approved of by Karen.   I took a chance in falling in love deeply with Charles......got engaged....got married on December 16, 2024 and have been beyond happily married for over 15 months.

I took a chance planning a vacation to Greenport this past weekend.  The HarborFront Inn was wonderful......the dinners at Noah's and Ellen's were wonderful as was the Greenport Brewery and the winery.

Tonight I'm played MahJong with the girls.  Even that has changed from when the Creature lived.

I am grateful to the Almighty because through these changes, the Almighty was always  there to support me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL VACATION WITH CHARLES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful weekend with Charles.

I drove out to to St. James and we drove to Greenport to start a beginning Spring Vacation at the Harbor Front Inn.

I love this man.

Thank you Almighty for this wonderful man.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING ALIVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I woke up today alive and healthy and ready to begin a new day.

Yesterday I began my classes at Plainview Meditation!  What a joyful experience this was.

Today I'm driving to the apartment and Charles and I are going to The Harbor Front Inn in Greenport to spend the weekend!!!

It's the first day of Spring. The sun is shining.

I'm so happy.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

 

GRATEFUL FOR WAKING UP HAPPY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to wake up happy without the feeling of PTSD.

I realized yesterday that I put thoughts in my on head when I feel fear and anxiety in my stomach.....thoughts of my parents, brother and the Creature.

However I am in charge of my mind.

My mind is not in charge of me.

I put that to use this morning and VOILA.....I'm good.

I had a wonderful dinner date with Margie last night.

Today I'm getting ready for my weekend away with Charles. I'm very excited.

I will be walking at The Home Depot, going to Plainview Meditation and to Kyra.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done to help me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE WONDERFUL MAN THAT I MARRIED

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me Charles.....a wonderful man......and I'm married to this wonderful man and enjoying my life.

I'm back from St. James.  The show at Celebrate St. James was awesome...it was not only Irish songs BUT songs from the 70's that I could sing along to as well as dancing with Charles.

We did some errands afterwards....library to pick up books for The Sports Book Club.....Sports betting for March Madness and we we t to The Wine Guy because we needed to replenish wine at the apartment.

This morning I was on my way by 12.....to walk at The Home Depot....to continue Passover shopping and get a manicure.

I also continued to set up Pesach in the kitchen.

I'm having dinner with Margie at Marios.  I hope to read when I get home and then speak to Charles before I go to sleep.

Thank you Almighty for this wonderful man.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR AN ADVENTURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because in the middle of Passover preparations......I am going on an adventure!!!  

I will be going to the apartment to attend a St. Patrick's Day Celebration with Charles at Celebrate St. James.

 I will return to Plainview tomorrow and tell you all about it.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this fun day!

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR BEGINNING TO HEAL MY HEART

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to heal my heart and move on.

I understand our marriage a lot better than I did.   Charles and I had an amazing weekend.  We had a beautiful Shabbos dinner at the house.  I went to services on Saturday and made dinner after which we went to PJC to see The Wizard of Oz.  On Sunday Charles went to play horseshoes with the guys from Hollis and I was able to do some chores and walk at The Home Depot.  We met up again and attended the Academy Awards where I won a Trivia contest with Charles' help and as a prize I received a $25 gift certificate to a restaurant.   THIS IS A REAL MARRIAGE.......SOMETHING THAT I NEVER UNDERSTOOD!

Charles went back to St. James today and at 2pm I will have my first Meditation class.

Tonight is Mahjong and we will be playing at Rhonnie's with dinner at  Pasteria.

A new life has begun EVEN at my age.  I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR GETTING RID OF DREAMS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to get rid of dreams that never materialized and to create new dreams for myself.

My life is so much better because of thi and I am so much calmer and happier. Last night Charles and I went to PJC to see The Wizard of Oz.  It was a wonderful evening.  I'm so proud of the man I love.  I'm respected at the synagogue because life changed because I believed in the Almighty.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A RELAXED SABBATH

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful Sabbath.

I made a delicious Sabbath dinner last night.  Charles loved it.....salad...salmon and grilled vegetables.

I went to services this morning and tonight we're going to see The Wizard of Oz at PJC.

Gone are the days when I had to have strategies to be safe when I came home.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have joy in my life.

I picked up Matzah's ashes from Jericho Animal Hospital yesterday.  I cried.......I felt relieved that I could cry thanks to Zoloft and the therapy that I get from Kyra and Judith.  I rejoiced in the wonderful life that Matzah had with me and did not feel guilty about ho he passed.....I blamed Jericho Animal for worshipping money and no explaining to me what was really happening.

I am joy fun because Charles will be spending the weekend at the house with me. Today we will be going to the Syosset Library to see Hamnet and then having Shabbos dinner. I am looking forward to this with joy.

Thank you Almighty for the joy in my life.

 I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to experience love in my life.

Charles loves me deeply and calls me his best friend.   I feel love from my children and grandchildren.  Remi FaceTimed me yesterday to explain how he made a windmill in AfterCare.  I spoke to Madalyn as well as Dana.  I speak to Hilary too.  I have an entire new family with Charles and I am grateful for this.

Today Freddy is coming over to fix my garage door.......i feel the love there too.  I'm meeting up with Neil Clark today at Plainview Meditation to join again.

Thank you Almighty for all the love in my life.

I am grateful.

 

GRATEFUL FOR THE CALM AND QUIET IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have peace, quiet and calmness in my life.

I am healthy.  I am happy.

Yesterday I did all of my food shopping for the week and even started the Passover shopping.  I paid for the two Seders.  Charles and I will be at the first one and Hilary, Izzy and Remi at the second one.  I walked at The Home Depot too and made dinner.....watched the news and read my book.   These are quiet and wonderful things.

Today I hope to walk at The Home Depot after my mani/pedicure.  I am setting up for Passover.

Thank you Almighty for my calm life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have woken up happy and healthy to another Spring like day.

 I really enjoyed dinner at Golden Temple and Mahjong last night.  Today I hope to walk.......do chores and read.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this new day.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL MORNING

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful morning.

Charles and I had dinner last night in Mineola at a place called St. James with Anita and Ray.  Charlie slept over and this morning both of us drove to Sunken Meadow to walk.  It was a beautiful Spring day and I walked almost 4 miles.  I actually saw the beach and the snow together and then saw dee.  I took a picture of everything!!! It was wonderful.

I drove back to Plainview and picked up the novel HAMNET at the Syosset Library because Friday the library is showing the film and Charles and I will see it.

I threaded bills from years ago at Staples, mailed bills and went to ShopRite for some basic food.

Charles was able to bring up my bridge table that I use for Passover.  We are re-cycling more of Matzah's things as Charles brought down the re-cycle bins but he will always be in our hearts

Soon I will be off to The Golden Temple for dinner with the girls and MahJong.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this morning and this day.

Thank you.

 

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEKEND

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me an amazing weekend.

Charles and I went into Manhattan using Aaron's Limo Service.  We stayed at the Sonesta on Lexington and 37th Street.   Hilary threw a 50th birthday party at a German Beer Garden and we were invited.

It was a memorable party with lots of people from all different stages of her life. Thanks to the Almighty I lived through every imaginable crisis and came out whole.  I'm an accomplished woman and beyond proud of me.  I introduced to Charles to many people who had been affected by the Creature.

The hotel was so much fun what with it's rooftop dining and bar.

We took a limo home and will have dinner with Anita and Ray.  

I am grateful to the Almighty for watching over me all my life and bringing me to this moment.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ACHIEVING MY GOALS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to achieve my life's goals.

Instead of being upset that they didn't work out exactly as I thought they would I will appreciate that the Almighty allowed them to happen and I will breathe quietly.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to realize this wonderful news.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MYSELF

 I am beyond grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to achieve the goals I set for myself.

It is time for me to begin to love myself and enjoy.

Today I am going to get my hair colored and blown out.

I might take myself out for dinner......I'm not sure.

I miss Matzah terribly BUT I know that I will meet him one day again in Heaven.

Thank you Almighty for all you have done for me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MEETING LIFE'S GOALS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to achieve my life's goals.

I am happy and healthy and have begun to appreciate my life and it's achievements.

Today I'm going to clean.......walk at The Home Depot and pack for our trip....Charlie's and mine......to Manhattan and the Shelbourne Sonesta for Hilary's 50th birthday party.

Thank you Almighty for all that you have done for me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING MYSELF

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have fun BUT more than that I AM MYSELF.

Charles and I did a number of fun things this past weekend and I enjoyed each one. PJC had a service called NY NY with a dinner that was lovely.  Services were wonderful on Sturdy. We went to a Mexican restaurant in Smithtown and the food was delicious. We went to a Women's Basketball game in Stonybrook too.

Last night was Purim at PJC.  We went as a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich and won a prize.  We won a Carvel Gift Card.

Today is a day filled with chores, walking and I have to begin packing. Next weekend we will be in Manhattan stying at The Sonrsta Hotel to celebrate Hilary's 50th birthday.

Thank you Almighty for the joy in my life BUT most of all thank you for allowing me to be myself.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a new day.

I am happy and healthy thanks to the Almighty and ready to begin a new day.

The Shabbat Festival last night was wonderful and I shared it with Charles.

I'm heading to services and then off to St. James with Charles for the weekend.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has given me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ALMIGHTY'S PROTECTION

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has protected me throughout my entire life.

Yesterday was a busy day filled with chores and errands BUT with the assistance of the Almighty, I was able to accomplish everything that I needed to do.  I even had an appointment with Michael and Kyra.

I picked up my Matzah charm from Solomon's.  I will remember that little dog all my life and hope to see him in the hereafter.

Today is the beginning of the Sabbath.  My hair will be blown out by Louis.  I will walk at The Home Depot and enjoy the day.

Charles will be coming and we will be going to PJC for dinner and an interesting program to bring in the Sabbath.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR WAKING UP IN MY OWN BED

 I am grateful to the Almighty because I woke up in my own bed this morning.

I beyond love Charles BUT it felt good to wake up in my own home and begin my routine again.

It's been a hard week starting with acknowledging the death of the Creature, then mourning Matzah would has gone to doggie heaven and then the Blizzard of '26.

I'm back today. I'm going to walk.......get a manicure and do all the things that I love to do......plus Relax!!!

Thank you Almighty for always being there for me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR CHARLES IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me Charles.

We were together in the apartment for the entire BLIZZARD OF 2026.  It was absolutely wonderful.

I'm home now in Plainview.

Charles will be with me on Friday as we will go to Plainview Jewish Center for a dinner and a New York New York Experience.

Thank you Almighty for my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEK WITH REMI

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to be Grandma to Remi.

Charles and I had him from Wednesday to Friday for Mid-Winter Break and he was wonderful.  We took him to the apartment and everything worked out.

I am grateful to the Almighty for putting this little boy in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR HAVING MATZAH IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because H has placed Matzah in my life.

I have had the love of this little dog for 15 years and now it's his time to cross The Rainbow Bridge.

I will always love him and miss him.

Thank you Almighty for giving him to me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL SHABBOS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful Shabbos with Charles.

I went to services at PJC......due to the snow, I haven't been there in weeks!

Last night we went to a wonderful Valentine's Day Dance at Monroe's in Westbury.

Today will be a quiet day as tomorrow we have to put Matzah to sleep.

I have cried my eyes out about this.  It's for the best though.

Thank you Almighty for giving me Matzah.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR TAKING OUR MARRIAGE VOWS AGAIN

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed Charles and I to celebrate our first year of  marriage by taking our vows again at the Town Hall of Oyster Bay.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR TODAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me FEBRUARY 12....the day that THE CREATURE DIED and I was free to have a life.

So much has happened in the past eight years that I am so grateful for. I'm free.  I'm safe and secure.  I became a Grandma twice.  I'm married to a wonderful man.  I thank the Almighty because I am healthy and happy.

It's hard also because today I have to pick up Matzah from boarding and Monday I will be putting him to sleep.

However, I will live in today's moment nd celebrate my freedom.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR DAYS AT THE APARTMENT

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have 4 days at the apartment to think about Matzah and to mourn his up and coming death.

It's tough but I have managed to recognize that the quality of his life is over and that it's time to let him go.

It was a quiet time at the apartment what with the horrible weather.  Charlie caught a cold.  We talked, hugged, and watched television.

I am home now and soon will be going food shopping.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to let go of Matzah.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL........THIS TOO SHALL PASS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because when I read my meditation books this morning, the Almighty wanted me to see two things:

LOVE YOURSELF!!!!

THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!!

I will miss Matzah terribly BUT putting him down is the right thing to do.

He has no quality of life and I will be setting him free.

Thank you Almighty for helping me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR HAVING MATZAH IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He put Matzah in my life.

Matzah has been with m for 15 years.  We both are best friends and have wonderful memories of each other.  It is his time to cross The Rainbow Bridge soon.  I will miss him but will cherish our time together.

Thank you Almighty for putting Matzah in my life.

I am grateful.

 

GRATEFUL FOR HAVING MATZAH IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed Matzah to be in my life.

Matzah is going to be 15.  He has severe dementia and poops and pees without any understanding in the house.  He doesn't play or wag his tail.  He can't walk without assistance.  It is time to let him go to doggie heaven.

I am grateful to the Almighty for allowing him to live as long as he did.....healthy and happy.

He is in pain now with arthritis.   

He has to be carried in and out of the veterinarian.

I will be putting him to sleep on Monday February 16 at 3:30 with Charles.

I will truly miss him.

He is my best friend.

Thank you Almighty for sending Matzah into my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING RESILIENT

 I am grateful to th Almighty because He has made me a very resilient person.

I must do something really difficult today.......talk to the veterinarian about putting Matzah down.  He has dementia and is not in control of urine or bowl.  It's a tough situation.....I will miss him dearly.

More Later:

GRATEFUL FOR A QUIET NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for the QUIET NEW DAY that HE has chosen to give me. 

I will be going to Dr. Ludwig for a cleaning and a checkup.

I'll be cleaning....reading....and relaxing in my home.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the PEACE AND QUIET in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEKEND WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful weekend with Charles.

We went to a Japanese restaurant in Commack because it was Restaurant Week on Long Island.   We watched the film Blue Moon and went to the Sports Book Club to discuss a book about Jimmy Breslin.

We talked.  We slept together.

I love this man!

Thank you Almighty for a wonderful weekend.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING AT HOME

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to stay at home in my nice warm house with Charles.

The frigid temperatures continue.  

Last night Charles and I had a wonderful Sabbath dinner......and a restful sleep.

I DID NOT attend services this morning as it was TOO COLD.

I will say my prayers at home.

I am safe and secure with my love at my house.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR COLD WEATHER

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made this a VERY COLD WINTER.

However it allows me to enjoy my home.

I have fully redone each room so that I can enjoy being in them.

He has sent Charles to me....as a date....a boyfriend...a partner...a fiance.....a husband to help me to enjoy my life.

Tonight is the beginning of the Sabbath which I will thoroughly enjoy with Charles.  Tomorrow Charles is taking me and Matzah to the apartment in his car since another storm is expected.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR PEACE IN LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to experience peace in my new life.

I enjoy my life.   I enjoy my chores.  Most of all I enjoy my quiet home on a cold January day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent a wonderful man into my life to love.....marry.....and to have as a best friend.

The Snowstorm is over......Charles left for the apartment and I am here reviewing the wonderful days that I had with him since last Friday.

He will be back for Shabbos dinner on Friday.

Thank you Almighty for taking care of me.

I am grateful!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ANOTHER SNOW DAY WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me another SNOW DAY with Charles.

Today I'm taking Charles to get a massage while I get a manicure.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me!

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A SNOW DAY WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful today because the Almighty has allowed me to have a SNOW DAY with CHARLES.

Thank you.

I am grateful!

GRATEFUL FOR A MEGA SNOWSTORM

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has created a MEGA SNOW STORM and Charlie is here with me enjoying it.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW SHABBOS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a "New Shabbos."

last night Charles and I attended a Tu Bishvat Seder at PJC.  It was a lovely experience for me.

Today I attended services and came home to Charles' arms.  No longer do I have to walk at The Home Depot in sub-freezing temperatures.

We are eagerly awaiting tomorrow's blizzard.  Everyone canceled getting together at the apartment for Championship Sunday due to the weather forecast.....Charles will be with  me for the duration of the storm!

Tonight we are going to Mario's for dinner and tomorrow will be waking up to the storm in each others arms.

I am so grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because I left for the apartment to be with Charles on Wednesday......and I had a wonderful time!

We had lunch with Rich and Betty in Port Jefferson at Pasta Pasta.  Thursday we walked at the Smithtown Mall and had dinner at La Tratoria.

I'm back in Plainview now.  Charles will join me at 5:00 to go to a Tu Bishvat Seder at PJC.  He will go back to the apartment tomorrow night before the blizzard.  He is hosting Championship Sunday.

I am grateful to the Almighty because at this stage of my life I'm having such fun.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR AN OVERNIGHT WITH CHARLES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to leave TODAY for the apartment and to come back on FRIDAY.

After an exhausting day of cleaning and chores I will be driving to the apartment with Matzah who had a wonderful bath and checkup.  We will be going out to lunch with Charles' friends in Port Jefferson.  We will be taking his vehicle to the car shop rot be fixed on Thursday and go to the movies.  Friday we will be back at the house for the TU Bishvat Seder at PJC.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the fun days with a man that loves me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LETTING GO

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to let go of that which doesn't serve me and to heal.

I read in one of my meditation books yesterday that the abuse is gone....it's just your imagination thinking about it.  That made a great deal of sense and I'm working on it.

Today Matzah goes for his medicinal bath and I'm going to go to Athleta with my gift certificate.  I will also walk at The Home Depot.  I will read.  I will clean a bathroom too.

Life is good.

Let the day begin.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MYSELF

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a new and wonderful life and in the process taught and helped me to love myself .

Dinner last night was delicious. I made a turkey London Broil with seasoned noodles. We made plans for our Summer vacations and spoke to Dave and Roberta about joining us. Remi went to not one....BUT...three birthday parties.

Charlie went to play horseshoes this morning and let me sleep.

Oscar's men came to shovel the snow.

Charlie is taking me shopping before he goes home.

Mahjong was cancelled due to the storm.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has given me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY

 I am beyond grateful to the Almighty for the beautiful Saturday night/Sunday that He has given me.

Saturday night it snowed.  Charles and I went out to dinner at Hama Sushi.  We then headed to Cinema Arts in Huntington where we saw the film....The Testament of Ann Lee with a discussion afterwards.   I haven't been there in years.  When I went with the Creature he would always ask me what the film was about afterwards and I would always say....I don't know.....   It was a pleasure to watch the film with Charles and discuss it afterwards.

We got 5 inches of snow today.  Charlie went to the butcher for me.   He is watching the playoffs and I'm reading.

I'm so in love with a real man.

Tonite I'm making a turkey london broil for dinner.

hank you Almighty for sending Charles to me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL SHABBOS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful Shabbos.

Friday night with Charles was wonderful.

Services were good on Saturday.

We're getting wet snow no but we are headed to dinner and Cinema Arts later.

Thank you Almighty for this amazing Shabbos.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ALMIGHTY IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He is always in my life.

I am enjoying each and every moment of my new life.

Yesterday I got my hair colored and cu and had dinner with Margie.

I did have some scary news and that is that Charles' PSA number went up to 5.

Please Almighty don't let the love of my life get sick and by that I am prostate cancer.  I finally know what it is to love and trust someone.  I love Charles so much!

Please help!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He gave me a wonderful day with Charles.

Charles and I had such fun yesterday.........we watched BBC News........we had incredible sex......I made a delicious dinner and we watched SINNERS on demand.

Charles left this morning but will return tomorrow night for the weekend.  I had my hair colored and cut today......did some chores and am meeting Margie for dinner later.

Life is so good and I'm grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR AN EXCITING DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me an exciting day!!   

Charles is coming to spend the day with me and sleep over.

Big Fun!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LISTENING TO MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me to listen to myself and believe in myself. 

Last night I played MahJong and I won 3 games.  We played at my house.  Matzah has medical issues because he is going to be 15 and Rhonnie questioned me about putting him to sleep.  Was he sad?  Was he hurting?  I told the ladies that I'm working with my vet and that was the end of that.  The Almighty has made me strong.

Today I have chores to do......a book to finish......The Home Depot to walk in ....another pleasant day.

Thank you Almighty for teaching me to listen to myself.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A JOYOUS LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a joyous life.

The weekend was wonderful and NOW Charles and I are beginning to plan our vacations.......that is what we do in January.

Tonight I'm playing Mahjong and I'm hosting.

New memories are being built and I am overjoyed.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MYSELF

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me to be proud of myself and love myself.

Yesterday was Remi's eight birthday party.  It was held in Glendale at the Artistic Stitch Sports Complex.   Charles drove in the rain and it was a glorious day.

Today Charles went to Astoria to hang out with Dan and his sons at The Beer Garden.  I'm here enjoying my life and will probably take myself out for dinner tonight.  Margie cancelled because her cat had a bad night.  We rescheduled for Thursday.

I do hope to walk at The Home Depot after all the chores are done.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful to you.

GRATEFUL FOR A BEAUTIFUL SABBATH

 I am grateful to the Almighty for the beautiful Sabbath that He has given me.

Shabbos dinner with my beloved was wonderful last night.  Services today were lovely.

Today is Remi's 8th birthday party. I'm beyond excited.  We got him Brain Rotes and a skateboard.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MOVING ON

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to move on with my life.

My life is so much easier because of this.

I can't control what other people do.....like Dana...I just have to accept it and move on.

Tonight is the Sabbath and Charles will be here for dinner and the weekend.

Tomorrow I will attend services and go to Remi's 8th birthday party with my beloved husband.

Life is good.

There have been changes but thanks to the Almighty....I am moving on!!

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-ESTEEM

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to raise my self-esteem and I'm proud of me.

I always had self-esteem at work because neither my Mother or the Creature could be there to destroy it.  However they tried to destroy EVERYTHING ELSE and as a result I was very insecure outside of school or work.

This has changed because of Charles' love for me and I'm seeing myself differently...I'm proud of me in many ways.

Thank you Almighty for helping me to raise my self-esteem.  My hope is that you will always be by my side.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR FINDING LOVE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to find love.

He has taught me to love myself.

He sent Madalyn and Remi.

He sent Charles.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the love that He helped me to find.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR AN AMAZING LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me an amazing life with Charles filled with love, caring and joy.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.