Saturday, June 30, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-LOVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am beginning to love myself.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Friday, June 29, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING THAT I AM A WORTHY PERSON

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga and to therapy and it is there that I am learning that I am a worthy person.....worthy of all the good in my life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-CARE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am beginning to take care of me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-WORTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because in going to practice yoga, the instructor spoke of developing feelings of self-worth.

This is what I intend to do to develop my self esteem.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR NEW THINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the new things that are happening to me.

My brother is back in my life....................

I was asked to join the Art Tours for the next year at Sisterhood...........................

I enjoy the evening minyan at PJC..............................

My alarm is fixed...............................

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

Monday, June 25, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new life that He has chosen to give to me.

M brother Stephen is back in my life.

I know how to deal with Hilary and Dana.

I have friends that are very supportive.

I am training myself to feel gratitude for my new life if I have a depressed thought.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all this.

Thank you.

Sunday, June 24, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR EACH NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for each and every new day that is peaceful and quiet.

I am grateful for my health.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Saturday, June 23, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING ABOUT STILLNESS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga and it was there that I learned about the positive value of stillness in the middl of chaos.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Friday, June 22, 2018

GRATEFUL THAT MY BROTHER IS BACK

I am grateful to the Almighty because my younger brother is back in my life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Thursday, June 21, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR POSITIVE PERCEPTIONS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the positive perceptions in my life.  I am happy that He taught me through yoga to change a negative perception into a positive one by positive affirmations.

That has helped me to move forward in the new normal that I am living.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

GRATEFUL THAT MY PAIN WILL END

I am grateful to the Almighty because I know that my pain will end and that I will have peace in my life.

He has led me to the evening minyan which is a wonderful end to a day.

He has led me to Plainview Cares to be able to volunteer, join a bereavement group and soon to visit a homebound individual.

Slowly my pain will end and there will be peace in my life thanks to the Almighty.

I am grateful for this.

Thank you.

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABUNDANCE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy and abundance that I feel in my new life.

I am human and therefore a part of me feels sad that he couldn't enjoy any of the things that the world had to offer.............that he couldn't have made this an amazing marriage and recognized me for who I am.  That was not to be because as I found out, he was a psychopath and a sociopath and paranoid and a hoarder.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the abundance that He has given to me.

I called the BOE yesterday and his pension which is retro and his TDA will be arriving at the end of the month.  It's not that he was generous.  I had to do a line item justification for everything that I bought that wasn't food or gas or at a pharmacy. It's just that he was trying to make sure that if he should die before me they would continue to pay out.

However, I will not have to be afraid to pay large bills because of this.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the abundance in my new life.  I am volunteering at the evening minyan at PJC.  I will also volunteer to make friendly visits to those in need.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

Monday, June 18, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR MAKING ROOM FOR NEW FEELINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am finally learning to recognize feelings and to let go of negative feelings to make space for new ones.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Sunday, June 17, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR PLAYTIME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has created playtime in my life.

I have never had playtime. I have always worked or thought up strategies to keep myself safe.

My goal now is to learn to play.  This will take time as it is an entirely new concept and I'm sure that I will be uncomfortable with it.

It will be slow going BUT I have the Almighty by my side to assist me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am ready for this new concept and grateful for it.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR BEING A WORK IN PROGRESS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am a work in progress.

I will get better each day with the help of the Almighty.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Friday, June 15, 2018

GRATEFUL AT FINDING OUT WHO I AM

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to begin the process to see who I really am.

I was abused by my parents and husband.................

It's now time to see who I am.  I know I am that strong and capable woman out in the world that didn't live in her own home.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

Thursday, June 14, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR BEING CONTENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have begun to find contentment in my new life.

I know that the Almighty has made sure that the pension and TDA are in place and will be here at the end of the month.

I do not have to worry about paying bills which was a big fear of mine.

I hope and pray to the Almighty that I will have joy and good health for years to come.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE LEARNED

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me all these teachers in my time of need.

I have certainly learned how to live and to survive from them.

Occasionally I feel joy again and that is a wonderful feeling.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR THE TURN YOUR MIND TECHNIQUE AND OTHER THINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty because my friend Karen taught me the "turn your mind technique" and it helped me fall back asleep each time that I arose.

I am grateful to the Rabbi for speaking with me yesterday.

I am grateful for Michael, my CPA.

I am grateful for Dom, my financial planner.

In short, I am grateful for all the friends in my life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Monday, June 11, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIEND KAREN

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has sent my friend Karen into my life to teach me so many things.

I would never have know the terms psychopath, sociopath, and radical acceptance if it weren't for her.  I would have spent my life trying to figure out what I could have said to make things better.  He was mentally ill and nothing would have helped.  I know that now.  I also know how I was brought up and why I never left.  I know now not to repeat the pattern.

The Almighty sent her to me in order to help me move forward.

It is for this that I am so grateful.

Thank you Almighty.

Sunday, June 10, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR RADICAL ACCEPTANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because my girlfriend taught me about RADICAL ACCEPTANCE and I am going to make this a part of my life.

I have to learn to accept reality and move forward with my own life so that I will heal.

I know that it can be done.

It just takes work.

The Almighty will help me to be up to the challenge.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Saturday, June 9, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR NEW REALIZATIONS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new realizations in my life.

I realized with the Almighty's help, that I am again tying myself up in rubber bands in order to please NOT HIM BUT THEM.

It's time to end that because it only causes me pain.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this realization.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Friday, June 8, 2018

GRATEUL FOR MOVING FORWARD

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am moving forward with my new life.

It's a slow process but it is moving forward.

I am grateful for this.

Thank you.

Thursday, June 7, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR TRUSTING IN THE ALMIGHTY

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that He has done for me.

I trust Him.

I know that He will keep me safe.

I know that what needed to fall away did in order for me to feel safe, calm and secure.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful for your continued love and protection.

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR THE END OF A SITUATION

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has ended the horrific situation that I was in.

It may sound cruel BUT there was no other way that it could have ended.  I know that I did the best possible job that I could do.

Thank you.

I am grateful.

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR NEW THOUGHTS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He in his wisdom is putting new thoughts in my head and I am moving forward with my new life.

I am focusing on the breathe and my being too.

I am finding new things to do also.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

Monday, June 4, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR CHOICES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me the ability to make choices that will help me to have less stress in my life.

I can choose to be peaceful and calm.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

Sunday, June 3, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

It is a life filled with calm and quiet.

It is a life filled with people who are returning to me and new people.

It is a life filled with blessings.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful for this new life.

May I continue to be healthy and happy to be able to enjoy it.

Saturday, June 2, 2018

GRATEFUL FOR LETTING A THOUGHT GO

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have begun to learn how to let thoughts go.

When I have an unpleasant thought, I acknowledge it without any emotion and let it go.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to learn this.

It will help me to heal.

I am grateful.

Friday, June 1, 2018

GRATEFUL THAT I WILL LIVE IN REALITY

I am grateful to the almighty because He has sent me a brother a daughter and a good friend that will help me to live in reality.

Each time I obsess about false dreams and illusions, I will STOP and bring myself back to the real world.

I am grateful that all the puzzle pieces are coming together so that I can live in reality.

I am grateful.