GRATEFUL FOR STRETCHING IN THE MORNING

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am able to stretch in the morning.

I'm able to sleep later and longer and deeper.  

I realized today that I am even able to stretch in the morning to get my body ready for the day.

That is truly a gift.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR HAPPINESS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the happiness in my life.

Each day I read both NEWSDAY and THE NEW YORK TIMES.  Domestic violence is up because of the shelter in place orders due to the Corona Virus.

This would have been been if the creature was still alive.  I would not have been able to survive. Where would I have gone??

I am grateful to the Almighty because that didn't happen to me.  I am safe.

I'm doing chores, errands, reading, walking and talking to friends.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my happiness.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY HEALTH

I am grateful to the Almighty for my good health as I wake up each morning.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL TO BE AWARE OF EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to become aware of every moment of my life.

I am living in the moment and enjoying it.

I am breathing deeply and enjoying that.

Although we are in the midst of the Coronavirus......I know how to survive and I am grateful that the Almighty has given me good health so that I can survive.   I am retrospective at times and think through my life and I proud that I have succeeded despite all the obstacles.  I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE CHANGES IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the changes in my life.

I am able to be introspective because of the shelter in place as a result of the Coronavirus.

I have even changed my routine because I can.  I'm still in my pajamas and it's after 1 in the afternoon.  Things are getting done peacefully and calmly.  This would not be unusual to many people on a Sunday but to me, it is a wonderful gift.

Yesterday I walked with Margie for over an hour.  I wake for 2 1/2 hours all together. I red my book.  I watched Bad Education on HBO.   All done peacefully.

I am grateful to the Almighty for keeping me healthy and reflective during the horrific time.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE TREASURES IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the treasures in my life that He has given to me.

Today is the Sabbath and as I said my prayers this morning, I thought back to last week and the horror of the loss of my Verizon connection to the world. 

I was very aware as I prayed of all the treasures in my life and was grateful to the Almighty for this.......my good health, the calm,  the peace,  the quiet,  the friends,  the family,  the connections that I have made, the career that I had.

Despite all the abuse I was able to survive because of the Almighty's help.

I can now appreciate the treasures of my life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because during the Coronavirus I am being introspective and learning to understand myself.

I am also reflecting on the fact that there was really nothing wrong with me.  I was insulted, demeaned and abused constantly.   However my basic personality is a delightful one and that's why I am liked by so many people.

It's also the reason that I succeeded in everything that I wanted to accomplish.  

My dreams really did come true.

I worked very hard to make that happen with the help of the Almighty.

I am really grateful for all of this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING WHO I AM

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to learn who I really am.

I never really thought about this because I was always trying to come up with strategies to keep myself safe.  As a child I took care of myself.  No one encouraged me to do or be anything and so the goals that I had were put in place solely by me.  I wanted to achieve.  I wanted to be somebody.  No one ever complimented me.  I had no time to think about who I was because everything that I was was demeaned.   Everything that I did was demeaned.

When I married the creature I still had to keep myself safe and secure from his daily tirades to satiate his psychopathic nature.  I was raising children.  I worked.  I did many things to keep him away both physically and emotionally from me.  

There was no time to think about who I am.

However Covid 19 has changed this.  I have the time to delve and think and understand the person that I am.

I really like myself.   Everything that I do gave me joy. Everything that I did in life gave me joy.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He made me the person that I am today.

I am happy inside myself.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY OWN ROUTINE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have my own daily routine.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to be calm, quiet and peaceful.

Thank you Almighty for my health.

My routine is a simple one during this pandemic.......but it's mine.  It's a simple one daily....to get things done and enjoy myself without fear.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING SELF-REFLECTIVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because the Covid 19 Pandemic has given me a chance to be self-reflective.

I've come to many interesting conclusions.

I always had to be doing something.  Why?  It goes back to my mother who would always be on the attack if I wasn't doing anything to belittle me or insult me!!!!!  I had to always be busy around him or he would be on the attack.  That's over now!   They're dead!   I can breathe.

I was always critical of myself.  Why?   It's as though I have my mother or the creature sitting on my shoulder criticizing me.  The Coronavirus has given me the chance to see me and I like what I see.

I could never enjoy an entire day at home.  Why?   I was always on the alert for an attack by my mother or the creature.  I was never at peace.  Now in the process of sheltering down, I have found peace.

I never slept well.  Why?  I was always wired from a day with either my mother or the creature. Now I can sleep.


I am grateful to the Almighty for this time of self-reflection.  I have learned a lot.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP

I am grateful to the Almighty for the good night's sleep that I had last night after the horrendous week that I had.

It looks like a beautiful day outside.

I hope to read my newspapers and my book.

I hope to go to Woodbury Kosher and to Trader Joe's.

I hope to walk with my mask.

I am grateful to the Almighty that I had a good night's sleep and that I'm healthy.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL ABOUT NEEDS AND WANTS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am beginning to understand my needs and wants and not ONLY that BUT my needs and wants can happen.

My abuser is dead so today I was able to sleep until 11AM in peace and quiet with Matzah.  It had been a most difficult week with Verizon, the storm, the end of Passover and going food shopping.  I was exhausted.

If the creature was alive I would have had strategies to be safe and never could have slept.

My body has quieted down.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A BEAUTIFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful day.

Pesach is over and I am going food shopping today.   All my technology is back so I don't feel so alone and I am grateful for that.

I'm grateful for the friends and neighbors that were so helpful.

I'm hoping to walk also.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT I SURVIVED

I am grateful to the Almighty because I survived a horrible storm on Monday that took down my computer until Thursday.

I was very sad.

The Almighty was with me and the computer is fixed.

I really need that to connect with the world.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEIG PROUD OF MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am finally learning to be proud of my accomplishments at home.

I was always proud of myself at work or at school.  My abusers couldn't touch those places.  However I am finally learning to be proud of the things that I do at home.

I prepared Passover beautifully.  I sang at two Seders that I created.

I am structured and organized during this horrific Pandemic.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR FINDING ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because in the middle of this horrific Coronavirus I have found myself.

I'm proud of me.

I sat down at my Sabbath table for dinner last night and was very proud of myself.

With the help of the Almighty I had created a home for me.

I have my health.

Like the Israelites I'm FREE!!!!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ALL MY BLESSINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty for every single blessing that He has given me.

Last night I conducted the second Seder.  It was truly a joy to do this.

I have my health, my family, my friends, my home and so much more.......

Almighty I am truly grateful to you for all this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for living and being healthy so that I am able to see a new day.

It is going to pour today.

A day in the house....of rest.....reading and relaxation!!!!

And a second Seder tonight........

I am grateful to the Almighty for this new day.

Thank you!!

Later-   I was able to walk today from 4:30-5:30 when the weather cleared.  I just finished the second of the two Seders.  Thank you Almighty for helping me to do an amazing job!!  I am beyond grateful!

GRATEFUL FOR MY LITTLE SEDER

I am grateful to the Almighty because last night I succeeded beyond my wildest expectations in having a little Seder for me and Matzah.

Tonight I hope and pray that I will be able to do the same thing.

I walked with my friend Margie.

I am grateful for being healthy.

I am grateful because I spoke to my daughters and the grandkids.  I spoke to Remi who was in the park with two balls....a green one and a blue one. I showed him cars as I walked.  I got to see Madalyn.

I am grateful to the Almighty because even though Covid 19 has confused and scared me.....a Seder was done and I hope to do that tonight.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my little Seder.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty for making me a strong woman.

We are all sheltering in solitude because of the Coronavirus and today will be no different except for the fact that tonight i the first Seder and I will be doing it alone as Arlene using the tape that Cantor Wolk made me many years ago.

I'm proud of myself because I put the entire house together for Pesach and will be performing the Pesach mitzvahs.

You have made me a strong woman and I am grateful.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day.

I am healthy, calm, quiet and peaceful.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A BEAUTIFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is a beautiful day.

I am preparing for Pesach which begins on Wednesday night with the first Seder.

I will walk and will also clean the house.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful day.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR STRUCTURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a structured person.

It is that structure that is getting me through Covid 19.

There are things to do and I need to get them done for the Passover holiday coming up.  Each day I create a list in my mind of things to do so I can move through the day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful for this.

GRATEFUL FOR MY INNER STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty for my inner strength.

It defines who I am.

I also allow others to be themselves.  

That's why I have a good relationship with my sons-in-law.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT MY HOUSE IS NOW MY HOME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has seen fit to turn this house in my home.

I did a great deal of construction last year with His help to accomplish this.

The Almighty sent me Freddy to help create a home for me.

As I walk through the various rooms,  I remember Book Discussions, Mah Jong games and friends coming over just to "hang out."

I am grateful to the Almighty for His guidance in helping me to make this house my home.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR APPRECIATING A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to practice yoga at Absolute Yoga which I hope to do again when this horrific Corona Virus is gone.

I learned to be in the moment and appreciate it.

Today I will go to the post office and the liquor store.

I will walk with my friend Margie as I have been doing.

I will read my book and the newspapers.

I will appreciate this beautiful new day and be thankful that I am healthy.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A BEAUTIFUL NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day.

I am healthy and I pray to you Almighty that I continue to be so amidst this horrific COVID19.

Each day I plan little things to do around the house and I try to walk when the weather is good. Yesterday I was able to walk and I was grateful.  Today the sun is shinning and I hope to walk also.  You must walk in solitude because of the virus.

Today I will also bring up the rest of the Passover items.

I am grateful to You Almighty because I am healthy.

May it continue to be so.

Thank you.