I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to learn who I really am.
I never really thought about this because I was always trying to come up with strategies to keep myself safe. As a child I took care of myself. No one encouraged me to do or be anything and so the goals that I had were put in place solely by me. I wanted to achieve. I wanted to be somebody. No one ever complimented me. I had no time to think about who I was because everything that I was was demeaned. Everything that I did was demeaned.
When I married the creature I still had to keep myself safe and secure from his daily tirades to satiate his psychopathic nature. I was raising children. I worked. I did many things to keep him away both physically and emotionally from me.
There was no time to think about who I am.
However Covid 19 has changed this. I have the time to delve and think and understand the person that I am.
I really like myself. Everything that I do gave me joy. Everything that I did in life gave me joy.
I am grateful to the Almighty for this.
Thank you.
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