GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE NOW

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to understand that the past is over, the future isn't here yet and I must begin to enjoy living in the now.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY FINANCES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made sure that I have money to be able to pay all of my bills.

I just wish that I wasn't waiting for the other show to drop.  I imagine that as times passes and with therapy with Judith it will get easier but right now it's really hard.

Thank you Almighty for always being there for me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW MEMORIES

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the different activities that I have and the new memories that I am making.

I can't help but wish that I hadn't married a psychopath.  Then again it traces back to my parents and how they tried to destroy me.

The Almighty was there for me.

I am grateful for the Almighty's protection, love and caring.  

Each new day and each new adventure is a blessing.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because by sending me to yoga, I learned about being in the moment.

I know that it will take time for my mind to catch up with my body.  I am aware of this and will have patience.

I acknowledge the abuse of my parents and the psychopath and the damage that it has done to me.  However, I will emerge from this as a stronger woman.

I will return to being myself.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me to live in the moment.  I will practice enjoying the moment and being calm and quiet to appreciate this.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ORGANIZATION

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me an organized woman and it's this structure that helps me to get through difficult times.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

FAITH IN THE ALMIGHTY

I am grateful that I have faith in the Almighty now and forever.

I know that He walks by my side and will help me stay strong.

I will look back in a year from now and know that I made it through because of His help.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am trying as per His instructions to live in the moment.

Yesterday I did and it was an amazing day filled with shopping, chores, walking, yoga and the pool where I sat with friends that I never would have been allowed to sit with if the psychopath were still alive because I wouldn't know how he would torture them.

I spoke with Lenny too and we made peace.  After Sharon Finkelstein died and he paid a shiva call he realized that when he told Stacey how nice the psychopath was and she set him straight that I was telling the truth.

I hope today will be calm too and I will live in the moment.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIEND KAREN

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me my friend Karen.

Last night instead of waking and thinking about him or my mother, I turned on the television and went back to sleep.

Today I'm going to just think a positive thought if something negative floats in.

I am grateful to the Almighty for these insights.

Thank you.

LAST DAY ON EARTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because each day I read a selection in a book called SIMPLE HAPPINESS by JIM RYAN.

This weeks selection talks about picturing each day as if it were your last day on earth and you will be able to see things in perspective.

I was so happy to read this.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING ALIVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am alive.

I am going to make each day count.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

STRENGTH TO BE THE NEW ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me the strength to begin to become the new me.

It will take time.

I must have patience.

Crying is good to help me to recover from the trauma of the  psychopathic/sociopathic/paranoid  creature.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day.

I hope that it will be peaceful for me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL TO THE ALMIGHTY FOR CHANGE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my ability to accept the changes in my life.

This is not easy.

Getting to the bottom of my traumas starting with that abusive mother that I had which led to my choosing an abusive, psychopathic, sociopathic, paranoid husband will be difficult.

It is my hope that I will be able to recover with the Almighty's help.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT I CRY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I do cry from all the trauma in my entire life.

Life is becoming so much fun now that I really recognize the trauma that was in it all my life.
Yesterday I visited Remi and had a wonderful time with both of my guys.  Then I attended a Sisterhood Board Meeting.  Everyone was happy to see me.  None of this has ever happened to me before.  If he were alive none of this would be happening.

My life is sweet now.

I suffer from the trauma of the past.

I hope with the Almighty's help to one day be healed.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT I AM CRYING

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am finally crying.

All my life I held in my feelings and developed strategies to cope with all the trauma that I was living though.  I never even thought about these parents once I left the house to go to school.

I felt that I had no choice.

As a child there was no one there that gave a damn about me. I existed in order to be abused.  I wanted to succeed, to be able to move away from them,  to meet my true love,  to have a career and children and everything that everyone else had.

When my mother said, "YOU LOOK LIKE THEM AND ACT LIKE THEM AND I WILL BREAK YOU," I thought that she failed.

She didn't.

When I met the psychopath I tied myself up in knots in order to be loved by him.  I again created strategies to deal with him.

Now they are all dead.

I am able to cry in sorrow and in mourning for the trauma of my life.  Each time that I cry it feels like a cleansing and I am grateful to the Almighty that I am finally facing what the three of them did to me.

I accept the fact that I am suffering from trauma and that I will heal with the help of the Almighty.

Thank you.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT I AM IN RECOVERY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have begun the recovery process.

I do get frustrated.

I know it is a slow process.  It took years for the trauma of my life to accumulate.

I will accept and move forward and take it day by day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING ABOUT RECOVERY

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me Judith my therapist.

It was from her that I learned that I was suffering from trauma and am in recovery.

I am a strong and capable woman.

I know that with the Almighty's help I will move forward from this dark place and become myself. 

I survived for so many years.

I am capable.

I can become whole again with the Almighty's help.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING ABOUT MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have been going to therapy and Judith is helping me learn all about myself.

I have been suffering from PTSD all these years and am now in recovery.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR GOING TO THERAPY

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me to PLAINVIEW CARES who sent me to ALANA who sent me to JUDITH my therapist.

I have learned so much about myself and my life in the last eleven weeks.

I am not a person in grief.  That is why I found it difficult to mourn the psychopath/sociopath/hoarder.

I am in RECOVERY FROM TRAMA.

That makes so much sense because it encompasses my entire life.  I felt so relieved to know this that I slept through the entire night.

Thank you Almighty for sending me to therapy.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY DETERMINATION

I am grateful to the Almighty for the determination that He has given me.

I will move forward.  I will recover.  I will have a life.

I will smile again.   I will be me.

I will not give up parts of myself for anyone.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is in my life and He helps me to keep going and improving and moving forward day by day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He made me the person that I am today.

I hope that the Almighty keeps me healthy and allows me to grow.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR REALIZING THAT HE IS OVER

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me Dom Noya who said to me yesterday, "HE IS GONE?  WHY ARE YOU TAKING HIM WITH YOU?

That really resonated with me and I am happy to tell you that it's over.

I need to move forward and enjoy my own life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am trying to live in the moment.

I have a great deal of anxiety and sadness but I am trying to live in the moment and not to give myself more tension.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am learning to live in the moment.....

I am learning slowly to have a new perspective on life. 

Today I woke up content.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ALMIGHTY TEACHING ME ABOUT PATIENCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me the meaning of patience and my goal is to have more patience with myself as I move forward in my new life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW ROUTINES

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new routines that I am creating in my life.

It has not been easy.

It has been slow.

However slowly I am reading again.  I am walking again.  I am practicing yoga.  I am getting my nails and hair done too.  I have gone out to dinner with friends.  I am sitting with a little group at the pool.  I hang out with my brother.  I hav attended workshops at the library. I just went to a Current Events event at the library.  I am part of the evening minyan on some nights.  I attend services on the Sabbath.

I have volunteered at Plainview Cares to visit a homebound adult.  I have stuffed envelopes. I am on the list for a bereavement group.

I am on the board of my Sisterhood and will attend my first meeting on July 17th.  I'm going to be involved in the art tours.

I visit my girls, my grandson and son in law and boyfriend by using Plainview cab.

I am in therapy and learning a lot.

I take myself out for dinner too.

It's a new normal BUT it's a quiet and peaceful and stable life.

Did I have a different dream?

Of course!!!

However this is my new reality and it will keep me safe.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR GETTING RID OF FALSE HOPE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me bury the concept of false hopes.

I always knew that there was something wrong with him.  I just didn't know the words psychopathic and sociopathic and so I was always explain things to him to try and teach him.

Obviously it didn't work.  I am healing slowly from this. 

As far as the girls I have learned not to have false hopes with them.  I am learning who thy are and not to recreate them into people that I wish that I had.  It is working and it is giving me more time for me.  I admit that I feel guilty because I was brought up not to think of myself but that too was wrong.

Life has quieted down since I live in reality and I am grateful for this.

Thank you Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW ROUTINES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to begin to create new routines in my life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR FRIENDS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the friends in my life.

Thank you.

I am grateful.

STRENGTH AND FORTITUDE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a person with strength and fortitude.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR FRIENDS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the many friends, family and caring people that I have in my life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.