Back at Work

I wasn't as grateful to be back at work as I thought that I would be. Yesterday was a wonderful day and I was so grateful for it. I walked. The Yoga Book Club was wonderful.

Surprisingly, he was pleasant. Possibly, this was because I never take off from work and he was surprised. But, we went out for dinner and actually had some nice conversation and shared a salad and a pasta. He then went with me to my book club after I invited him.

Why can't it be like this all the time? It was so simple. That's why I wasn't as excited to go back to work. I didn't have to escape.

I don't know what will happen today. I'm very grateful for this career for many reasons. But, there is a life outside and I would like to access it.

Excited to Take a Day Off!!!

I am grateful that the day is beautiful and that I took off from work. I walked, had breakfast and read the papers. Now, I'm on the computer listening to beautiful yoga music. My soul is happy with itself.

I'm going to my Yoga Book Club now and am very excited.

Tonight I'm going to the library to discuss, BRAVE NEW WORLD.

I am grateful for this day!!!

Later.......3:20.......returned from the Yoga Book Club. It was wonderful. I will do it again!!!!!

Life is Back and I'm Grateful!!!!!

I was so grateful to be back at work today!!! Routine resumed! Life begins again!! And then I went to yoga and it was wonderful.

I'm taking tomorrow off to attend a Yoga Book Club. I'm excited! A fun activity for me. I'm grateful!!!!!

And then in the evening, my regular book club!!!! I am grateful that my life is back!

I Won and I'm Sad!!!

While it's true that I have made a life for myself and for this I am grateful, I'm very much alone. Living with an enemy is no fun at all. Creating daily strategies to deal with him is sad. Wasting a life with him is also sad.

Yet, I have accomplished a great deal and I am proud of that. I am grateful to the Almighty that he made this happen. I just wish that I had a mate to share it with. Not one that you have to be quiet around because he is jealous of everything I am.

I've Won

I have faith in God, my career, good health, a wonderful dog, great hair, friends!!!!

I won....no matter what he does.

I'm grateful!!!!!

I'm Succeeding and I'm Grateful

It's not easy being around him all week. I'm constantly checking my conversation. God willing, I'll be healthy for a while longer so I won't have to retire because too much time around him is tough. There are too many memories and most are not pleasant. But, I've been careful today and I've been successful.

I took a Gentle Restorative Yoga class this morning. He asked to meet me for breakfast. I didn't want to, but, thought the better of it. I did.

Then I went to the mall to walk because it was raining outside.

I've started to discuss Passover preparations with him which is tough because he is so anti-Judiasm as are those young women. I'm cutting down the shopping list to be healthy.

Tomorrow is Shabbos and Yoga. I'm prepared if he tries to ruin it.

I am succeeding and I'm grateful!!!!

My Intention is Still My Happiness

I am having a very good day and for this I am very grateful. Unfortunately, my bonding has loosened up which will mean another visit to the dentist, but in the larger realm of things, that isn't so bad.

I am still walking 2 hours a day and loving the weather. Today I scheduled a hair color and blowout and it looks great. I'm having dinner with a girlfriend. Last night, I paid for his dinner because I owed him that from Valentine' Day and I refuse to be accused of anything.

He's quiet, but I'm sure has learned NOTHING from how he made me cry. But, I believe in watchful waiting and I will be prepared with silence if it ever happens again, which it will. I'm nothing is not a realist and this time, I'm a prepared realist.