I am grateful to the Almighty because He is teaching me to listen to my body and show it compassion and let it rest when it needs to.
I could never rest or relax when my abuser was alive. I had to keep myself safe. There always had to be strategies to do just that. I had to leave the house early and that was as early at 7am to walk either outside or at The Home Depot. People wondered why I retired and was up so early.
Today I woke up tired and I stretched and laid in bed. I decided NOT to take a morning yoga class because I didn't want to get up so early. Originally I felt guilty because Ive always gotten up early and run out. Was there something wrong with me? It wasn't that. It's my body relaxing. Then I felt sad that it took so long for this to happen but grateful that it did.
I'm eating breakfast. I'm reading the papers. I'm paying a bill and meeting fiends for lunch. I will meditate at the center at 3 and have dinner with a friend.
It's a new life but a good one.
I'm grateful to the Almighty for this.
Thank you.
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