The fundraiser to Save the St. James Theatre was wonderful. The visit with Paula on Roosevelt Island was beyond awesome.....
Today we are resting...relaxing......I went to services......to walk and have Afternoon Delight with Charles.
I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.
I am grateful to the Almighty for the new and wonderful life that He has given me.
He sent people like Judith and Kyra into my life to move me forward and to help me understand and move forward from the psychological abuse that I suffered at the hands of my family and spouse.
He sent Charles into my life to show me the true meaning of love.
I am so grateful for all of this.
Today I practiced yoga.
I'm getting my hair colored and blown out as tonight I will be with Charles at a fundraiser to raise money for the theatre.
We are getting all dressed up.
I am beyond excited.
Thank you Almighty for all the joy in my life.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joy in my life.
I woke up today happy that it is a beautiful day!
H20 came and turned on my sprinkler system!
Spring is here even though it's cold outside.
Charles and I texted as we do each morning!
I read my meditation books .
Last night was the Sisterhood Book Club.
The discussion was lively and fun!
I'm cleaning bathrooms today and walking too!
Matzah needs to go to the vet for a shot.
Life has so much joy in it!
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day in my life.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy and happy.
The day began with my Stretch Class taught by Leslie. I did some chores and errands too. I called The New York Times and Newsday for vacation holds. I called Plainview Animal because I need to board Matzah for dates in the month of May. I spoke to Charles about Cathy. I read the papers. I cleaned the kitchen and will be going food shopping.
Tonight at 8:15 is the Sisterhood Book Club and then I will speak to Charles.
Thank you Almighty for this new day.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because as Charles and I practiced yoga in Leslie's class she spoke of the value of becoming unattached to something. As a result of the lack of attachment one can enjoy all the joys that this world has to offer
I was so happy to hear this because this is what I'm doing with my daughters after their performance after the Passover Seders. This is what Charles and I do to keep our love fresh. We use space to do this.
After Charles left I spoke to Karen. I cleaned and did laundry. I read the papers and my book.
Tonight I'm taking myself to Pasteria for dinner.
Matzah went to the vet and now has an ear infection.....poor doggie.
Thank you Almighty for this blessed day.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful and peaceful day that I had with Charles.
Today is Sunday. Passover has been put away. Charles took me out to breakfast at The Hicksville Dinner. We went to the mall and I treated myself and my daughters to Mothers Day gifts. We will be at Hilary's next Sunday celebrating. I also looked at Vera Bradley luggage.
Afternoon Delight occurred in the afternoon.
Dinner was at Mario's.
We watched a film on CNN.
What a wonderful way to end a holiday.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a resilient human being.
The Almighty has helped me to experience all the joys in my life.
I had a wonderful Passover with Charles!!!!!
We took the second booster yesterday and I had some side effects.......fatigue.....headache so I did not attend services.
Today is the last day!
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because He helped me to have a beautiful Passover!
The Seders were amazing and wonderful for me!!!
Patty slept over with Charles and that was so much fun! I made dinner and a matzah brie for breakfast for them. This was Charles' second one as he and Matzah had one after yoga on Monday!
Rhonnie visited and gave me her wine too!
I had good checkups at the eye doctor and periodontist.
I walked, read and practiced yoga.
Today Charles is spending the weekend with me. We will be going to get second booster and this weekend we will put Passover away!
Thank you Almighty for this wonderful holiday.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day!!
Yesterday I went to the eye doctor and the checkup was a very good one.
I practiced yoga in the evening in Leslie's class and I was also able to walk outside.
I had a wonderful time with Patty and Charles.
Today and will again practice yoga and walk.
I'm reading my book for the Sisterhood Book Club next week.
I will go food shopping too.
Thank you Almighty for this new day.
I am grateful!
Charles and my new friend Patty slept here last night as she was going to fly to Florida today and Charles was going to drive her to the airport.
I made a delicious salmon dinner and we were up until midnight talking. We got up later and I made matzah brie for breakfast after Charles walked Matzah and took him in the vehicle to get The NY Post.
We chatted at the table until it was time for them to leave.
Gone was the nonsense with my daughters and my brother. I'm loving my new adventures.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I took a Stretch Class with Leslie today and she spoke of LETTING GO!!!
She spoke of applauding what you can do and have done.
She spoke of being proud of yourself.
This is what I am trying to do for myself.
With the Almighty's help I'm getting so much better.
Thank you Almighty!
I am grateful!
We spent time after dinner last night listening to romantic music and kissing.
This morning we had breakfast and practiced yoga.
We came home and I made Charles a matzah brie for lunch Matzah Brie ate a matzah brie too. It was wonderful.
Charles went home and he will be back tomorrow with Patty C. who is sleeping over.
I went to the bank and transferred my CD into a fixed annuity which will give me more money.
I cleaned......I did laundry. I spoke to Karen, Margie and Dana.
I read my book.
I will speak to Charles before I go to sleep tonight.
I am grateful to the Almighty for my wonderful life.
Thank you.
Thank you!
I am grateful to the Almighty for the AMAZING and WONDERFUL first SEDER that I attended at Plainview Jewish Center last night.
It was conducted by our new Cantor.....Judith Merrick!
I learned that I'm no longer a SLAVE.......I'm FREE! I'm FREE to be myself without any explanation!!!
Tonight's the second SEDER. Dana, Seth and Madalyn aren't coming but Hilary, Izzy and Remi are. Charles is coming too as Elizabeth has Covid and canceled her Easter celebration.
I am looking forward to reading today and taking a walk.
I am looking forward to the second Seder. It's a tough holiday to prepare for but once the preparation is done....I love the holiday!
Thank you Almighty for keeping me both healthy and happy so that I can enjoy my holidays.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy and happy and tonight is the beginning of the Passover Holiday.
All my preparations have been done.
I'm very, very proud of me.
Tonight is Shabbat and the first Seder which will be held in Plainview Jewish Center.
I will be attending and enjoying every moment.
I've given up FALSE DREAMS AND ILLUSIONS and loving this moment.
I am breathing deeply.
Thank you Almighty for this day.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day!
I am competing my Passover preparations today!! There is vegetable and fruit shopping to do PLUS a piece of salmon. Last minute things must be done in the kitchen too!
Charles will be coming for the second Seder as Dana and Seth have opted out.
Next week....life will calm down a bit!!
I am grateful to the Almighty for the season of Pesach.
I don't love the work BUT I love the holiday!
Thank you.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I participated in Leslie's stretch class yesterday.
She spoke of packing suitcases. One held all her worries.....the other held strategies for survival. They were heavy. Suddenly she realized that she could leave them at the door and go back inside feeling lighter.
That was perfect for me......Life is to be enjoyed. You must look at all your accomplishments and be grateful to the Almighty for them. You must leave worries and strategies at the doorstep because you can't change people. You must let go of that which doesn't serve you.
I am grateful to the Almighty for this knowledge.
Thank you.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I am de-cluttering my mind with people, ideas and thoughts that no longer serve me.
This is allowing me to have many new adventures.
Today I practiced yoga in Leslie's class. After that I filled up the tank.....drove to St. James.....to Charles' place with Matzah and had a wonderful afternoon as Matzah got used to the sights and sounds of the area that Charles lives in.
I came home to continue my Passover preparation by lining a counter top and cleaning the oven and top of the range. I also cleaned a bathroom.
I also have a St. James Zoom meeting to attend. Charles will be at a Rangers game with Michael.
I will be going out to dinner this week and gaining some weight.
The diet will begin during Passover.
I am grateful to the Almighty for all these new adventures.
Thank you.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga today in Leslie's class and she spoke of Spring and birds and being free as a bird.
I was so grateful that I practiced yoga today as that intention resonated with me.
I am free of my daughters nonsense! I will be able to enjoy my life.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I opened up to Charles about my daughters and really felt better.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I FINALLY AM IN CHARGE OF MYSELF. I'M THE CAPTAIN OF MY OWN BOAT.
Yesterday my brother Stephen called. He is again getting a divorce!!! I did not let anything that he said upset me. I DID NOT get triggered!!!
Yesterday I spoke with my daughters. Nothing that they said bothered me either! I AM INDEED THE CAPTAIN OF MY BOAT!
I took Matzah for a long awaited grooming! I walked at The Home Depot too! I did my food shopping. I have a respite until Monday when I begin my Passover preparation again! I am reading Wish You Were Here by Jodi Picoult and it's really good!
Michael called and my taxes are in place!
I am grateful to the Almighty for all the good in my life now that I'M THE CAPTAIN IF MY BOAT!
I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga yesterday in Hollie's class.
It was there that I learned that change is constant and that it flows like the wind. It was there that I learned that I AM THE CAPTAIN OF MY OWN BOAT.
That is going to become my mantra as I am in charge of me and the decisions that I make are for me.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I now have a mantra to express my own feelings.
Passover preparations will not be continued today. I have done all that I can do before next week. Today is food shopping as Charles will be with me tomorrow. He's going to help me on Saturday to bring up Passover appliances.
Matzah is finally going for a grooming.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful for everything that you have done for me.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I am finally learning what He has been trying to teach me......to live in the moment.
My daughters are giving me a very difficult time about the Seders. It's time for me to move forward and enjoy each of my moments. If not now....then when?
Today I will continue with my Passover preparation. As Charles says.....I really do love this holiday!
I am so grateful Almighty.
Thank you!
I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day.
Charles left yesterday after book club and I spoke with him after Volleyball and dinner with the girls and MahJong!!
Wet text G'morning every morning.
Today I will practice yoga and do some errands. I will walk in the early part of the afternoon because it's going to rain this evening and tomorrow.
I am continuing to prepare for the Passover holiday and doing a very good job of it. I will be covering the dining room table to be able to put my Passover appliances etc on them over the weekend. Charles will help me. I will clear out some shelves from the refrigerator and cover them in Reynolds Wrap.
I will be speaking with Judith too.
I am grateful to the Almighty for this new day.
Thank you!
I am grateful to the Almighty for a beautiful new day!
Charles and I will be having breakfast and then attending the Spirts Book Club on Zoom.
He will be going home today and I will be cleaning and setting up the house for Passover.
I am grateful to the Almighty that I am healthy and able to do this.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made today a rainy day and it has allowed me to spend PAJAMA DAY with Charles.
We stayed in bed later as I hung on to Freddy.
We read the papers and made more plans.
We made an appointment for a second booster shot.
We are going to catch up on television programs and have AFTERNOON DELIGHT.
Life is so good and I am so grateful that my life has changed on a rainy day.
Thank you Almighty.
I am grateful.
I enjoyed going to services very much.....it's such a pleasure to come home to Charles with a cookie.
We went to St. Hedwig's for an Easter Festival and I hope to win a prize!
We got to walk at Ally Pond Park where we grew up.
We had dinner with Patty C at Anthony's and is was wonderful.
Thank you Almighty for these moments.
I am grateful.
I am grateful to the Almighty because I had insight this week into who I am and why it started.
As a result, I can now live the rest of my life being proud of me and all that I have accomplished.
It is interesting that when you have parents that psychological abuse you.....if you are to survive you develop strategies to keep you alive and well. You do this subconsciously!
This is what I did all my life and it ended this week. I lived in a hopeful world of fantasy hoping that people like my parents, brother, husband and even my daughters would love and appreciate me because of who I was and what I did for them. I didn't live in really but in a hopeful and dreamlike start.
That is over.....not in anger but just because I know why I did this.
After seeing WHERE THE BOYS ARE when I was an early adolescent.......I created the dream and so I thought that the Almighty sent me Charles as George Hamilton in my dream. Charles is a wonderful man with human flaws. He truly loves me. I took it a step further to see that my parents, brother, husband and daughters use me and abuse me. I wait until they realize their mistake.
This will never happen.
For the remainder of my life which the Almighty willing will be a long and healthy one, I will concentrate on being in the moment and enjoying the moment and enjoying the man who really loves me.
Thank you for this insight Almighty.
I am grateful.
Yesterday after completing my chores.....shopping...cleaning and seeing Kyra......I drove out to Commack to meet Charles and attend a wonderful chili class on InstaPot!!!!
The weather was absolutely terrible but I made it there and back......so proud of me!
Today Charles will be here between 4-5 to begin our wonderful weekend.
I am grateful to the Almighty for the balance that He has given me.
Thank you.
