GRATEFUL FOR THE CHOICES THAT I AM MAKING

I am grateful to the Almighty for His hand in helping me to make my recent choices.

I am so happy that I signed up to go to both seders at PJC.  I am approaching the holiday with tremendous joy rather than the fear and trepidation that I usually feel.  I never knew what any part of the triad would try to do to upset the seders and I'm so done with that.  

My decision to cancel Mother's Day was brilliant.  Who in their right mind treats people who treat you horribly to dinner???  It doesn't mean that I'm not going out to dinner.  I am.  It doesn't mean that I'm not getting a gift.  I am.  It just means that I am not rewarding those who abuse me.

I had a wonderful time at the Sisterhood Fashion Show last night.   There was much laughing.  I was seen as myself.  How wonderful.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  There are chores to be done too.

I have a Memory Workshop this afternoon.

Thank you Almighty for helping me to make choices.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY HEALTH

I am grateful to the Almighty for my good health. 

I am going to live in the present celebrating my blessings and my joys and let go of my disappointments.  I'm not saying that this is easy but I will work on it.

Today I will practice yoga.  I hope to walk outside as it is beautiful out there.  Tonight is the Sisterhood Fashion Show.  Passover preparations continue.  Last night I attending a wonderful book discussion on Leaving Time, the novel chosen this year for Long Island Reads.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my good health which gives me the energy to have all of these adventures.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life and all the joys that it has.

I love walking and practicing yoga.  I enjoy my book clubs.  I have friends and fun activities.
I even enjoy my chores.  For example, yesterday I cleaned yet another closet.

Today it is raining.  This means a walk at The Home Depot where I know workers by name.  It means practicing yoga with Rabbi Jay as my yoga mate and finding out the time of the Oneg Shabbat on Friday night.

Passover preparations continue with love and joy as I happily await the holiday.  This year I don't live in nervous fear as to what they will do to my holiday.  I text them with nonsense.  I don't ask questions of them because I don't want to know.  This makes me happy.  I know how to maintain quiet with a smile and to let go anything that I decide is not important.

Tonight I will attend a book discussion on theJodi Piccoult novel  Leaving Time. It was chosen this year as the novel for Long Island Reads.  I really enjoyed that book.

I am grateful for my new life.

Thank you Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga.  It is  there that I am beginning to learn to love myself and to treat myself with kindness and compassion.

Everyday I try to recognize something in myself to love and to be proud of.

I am proud of the fact that I have let go of my Passover seders and instead I am going to PJC for both seders.  I am approaching this with such joy.

I was the facilitator of my seders  for many years.  I was an excellent role model but in those girls,  I had no one to work with.  They criticized the food, whether it was what I cooked or what I purchased at Woodbury Kosher.  They refused to follow the service and made a joke of it. They told me they were ashamed of how I set up the house and would leave as soon as they could.  This year I had had enough and I chose to tell them that I was going to a community seder instead.  Once one of them refused to come and went to another seder and told me that it was so much better than mine.

Little did I know that PJC would have two seders.

I approach the holiday with the joy that it deserves.

I set the table yesterday with joy.  I brought up Passover items from the basement.  I am so happy during this season and calm for the first time.  I did the best that I could.  I can't kill myself for them and I won't develop depression over who they are.

This is the last Jewish holiday where I have to disinvite them.

I am proud of me.

I am learning to love myself.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-LOVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have learned to love myself.

No one can take that away from me.   I am proud of myself and all of my accomplishments.  I am content with the retired life that I have created for myself.

I have learned to let the sleeping person sleep so that I do not have to have negative conversations.

I had a choice to make the Passover holiday sweeter and I have done just that.  I swell with pride for me.

I approach life in a positive way.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR ACKNOWLEDGING FEAR OF CHANGE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me aware of what I have been feeling.

I have changed many things this week.  Both seders will be different and so will Mother's Day.

I am proud that I made these changes.

However, now I need to have the courage to face the changes that I have made.

These changes will help me to be a more authentic person.  I love myself and each step that I take will help me accept these changes.

The Almighty will help me.

I am grateful.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY CHOICES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to make good choices this week.  These are choices that are making me smile.

I chose to attend both seders at PJC this year.  No longer will I be upset or nervous watching and waiting to see what they will do to destroy my holiday.

I took away Mother's Day.  I said that we should get together the week after.  No one treats me like a mother so why am I celebrating that day?  That day I will celebrate my survival.

I am so happy to be in charge of me and not to be used.  I am happy to be responding quietly and not reacting.

Yesterday I had my hair colored and blown out.  It looks amazing.  We went to LuluLemon for my Mother's Day gift and out to dinner.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I will do some chores also.  My book is almost at the end.....time to star another.

Tonight is the Sabbath and I will thank the Almighty for an amazing week.

I am grateful.