GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a strong and intelligent person.

I truly enjoyed the seders and the yom tov this past weekend.   I could see that he did not as he tried to intimidate and argue constantly.  Obviously his efforts failed and honestly, I was overjoyed to see that I finally had the upper hand as the triad was broken.  The seders were amazing and yom tov went off without a hitch.  I enjoyed every moment of it.

Today I will walk.  I will practice yoga and do some chores.

I will enjoy each and every moment that I am alive.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL YON TOV

I am grateful to the Almighty because the beginning days of Passover have been wonderful.

I did not go to services as I told the Rabbi last night at the end of the second seder.  I volunteered to be of assistance to him if he needed it and he seemed to be very appreciative. I might even have lunch with Elyse, his wife, after the holiday and the shiva for his father.

I was able to walk for two hours this morning as I had done last week.  I finished all my chores and my book and was able to relax outside on a lounge chair which was wonderful.  He has not been happy at all at the way the holidays turned out.

I'm going to mediate this afternoon too.

Thank you Almighty for this holiday.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL SECOND SEDER

I am grateful to the Almighty because I experienced a wonderful second seder at PJC last night.

I sat with many synagogue friends and enjoyed conversation with them.  The seder progressed beautifully.  There were no surprises.  Everyone participated with joy.  I read aloud and answered questions.  I even said the Four Questions in Yiddish which brought me back to the time of my grandmother, Bubbie Hudel,  when I recited the Four Questions in Yiddish at our seder for her.  It was so different from what I experienced with the triad and I was so grateful for this.  Because I am now attending community seders I have taken away all their power. This can't sit well with them.

However, it is my time now.

I told the Rabbi that I would not be in services today and I was sleeping late and taking some needed r&r.  He said that if he were me he would do the same thing.  I will see him Friday at the conclusion of Passover and Saturday for Yizkor.

I am grateful that I am no longer stuck.  I have created space by making choices that are healthy for me.  I approached the seders with an open heart and I am happy.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY CHOICES

I am so grateful to the Almighty for the new path that he has chosen for me.  I am grateful for the choices that He has helped me to make.

Last night the PJC seder was wonderful.  I sat with friends who enjoyed being there and the conversations were natural and normal.  No one did me a favor by being there.  No one walked out or threatened what time to come.  No one negotiated time.  No one refused to drink the wine.  No one refused to eat the food. Everyone participated in the reading of the Hagaddah.

I enjoyed the joyful friendship of the Rabbi, Cantor, and all the participants.

I am happy with my choice and so glad to be going to the second seder at PJC.

I have freed myself from the binds.  I have made a choice to let go of that which doesn't serve me and I am so grateful.

Thank you Almighty for being there for me.

GRATEFUL FOR NOT BEING STUCK

I am grateful to the Almighty because I no longer feel stuck.  I have space with which to change. I can make positive choices for myself and take myself into the light.

Tonight is the first seder at PJC.  I am thrilled to be going.  I am taking myself into the light.  I did feel a bit sad at the way things with the girls worked out.  However I acknowledged the facts.  It is what it is.  It cannot be changed.  They accepted this and didn't say a word.  I guess that they didn't want to come to a seder either.  It was just an obligation.  Now they are released from the binds also.

Today I will practice yoga.  I will walk.  I will read.  I'm getting my hair blown out.

I am grateful to the Almighty for taking me down a new path.  I am going slow and enjoying it very much.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR SEEING HOW FAR I HAVE COME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have looked at my new life's path and I can see how far I have come.

The Almighty was always by my side through those beginning days with my parents.  He was with me through the rocky road of this "marriage."  He was with me through the years where I tried to bring up children for God and country.

He has helped to me succeed despite all the obstacles that were put in my way.  I have no guilt because I know that I did the best that a human being could do.  It's amazing that considering the parents and husband that I had that I succeeded so well.  However, the Almighty was always there beside me.  I was never alone.  As far as the children, I taught them everything they should know and their fate is in the Almighty's hands.

There is time now for me.

He has guided my steps in this new path called "retirement."   I am going slowly but I can see how far I have come and my heart swells with pride.

I am happy.

I am healthy.

I have the Almighty to thank for this.

I am grateful.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR GOING DOWN A NEW PATH

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am going down a new path slowly and ever so happily.

I am not stuck in the old routines.  I have the freedom to release myself from the binds.

I am looking forward to the Passover holiday with tremendous joy.  It's the first time in my life that I will go to seders that are conducted in a nonjudgmental way and I can enjoy them.  No one can upset me.

Yesterday, I walked and practiced yoga.  I purchased a new pair of sneakers.  I took the dog to be groomed for the holiday.  I texted friends.

My new path is a good one filled with new joys and adventures.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.