GRATEFUL FOR AN AMAZING DAY

I went to evening services last night and had a wonderful, spiritual time. I was really happy and was singing the last bars of Bristol Stomp on the way home.  He was outside with the dog and I thought that he wanted the doggie to go for a ride around the block which is why he was outside. Nope!  That wasn't it.  He wanted to scream about the fact that I went to services.

I never raised my voice.  I did not get angry.  He doesn't matter anymore, so why get upset??  I was so pleased with myself.  And yes, we did go out to dinner.  I was proud that I made nothing of it.  I know that's the way he is and I have built another life.

ANYWAY, THIS MORNING HE APOLOGIZED!   I COULD HAVE MADE AN ISSUE AND DISCUSSED IT, BUT I CHOSE NOT TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!!

I went on to have an amazing day filled with walking, yoga at the studio and a manicure/pedicure.  I have an entire life without him and I was so proud.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.  May this be only the beginning of a HEALTHY AND INCREDIBLE YEAR!  AMEN!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE RABBI'S SERMON

I have absolutely no idea why the Rabbi decided to speak about how a person confronted with a stressful situation should let the anger go.  The person should earn from that experience and move forward.  I really listened because that is what I try to do.

I was grateful to the Almighty for being able to hear this sermon.  I vow to count my blessings and not mention the triad.

GRATITUDE: LAST NIGHT WAS AN EXAMPLE OF HOW FAR I HAVE COME

I gave him Thursdays to plan an activity for us because I didn't want him in the Jewish Adult Institute causing difficulty on Mondays.  As is usual for him, last week was a success because it was the first one.
This week was different.  I came home and he spent a great deal of time needling me about Hilary.  Did she call me?  Did she text me?  I answered as I usually do, that, to quote Hilary without any anger because I don't care, " it's all about you." Therefore, she calls him daily as she used to call me walking to or from the train.  It's no longer than that.  He persisted and I went about my business.   I never engaged in direct feelings.
At night I wondered why he kept bringing this up.  And suddenly I had it figured out. He did this with Phil and Jeff.  He reminded them of arguments with their wives, arguments that were long gone.  However, he tried to bring back their rage.  This is what he was doing with me and the girls.  I hadn't fallen for it.

This morning I texted Hilary.  She texted me back.  When he speaks to her, he will realize that we spoke because I mentioned the film that we saw last night.  

This will upset him. He was foiled again.

How far I have come.

I am so grateful to the Almighty for this.

GRATEFUL FOR REALITY

I hope that this New Year will be a good one for me.  I certainly prayed a lot.  I hope that the Almighty heard me and has forgiven me for my sins these last few years since the younger one married Kingsley.

I really enjoyed YOM KIPPUR.  As a matter of fact, I was surprised when it was over.   I learned a lot since July.  I kept my cool these last 2 days when he didn't want to give me my bank account numbers so that I new what to deposit in which account.  Then he arrived at services at 10 and left at 12:30 and my only comment was that I wasn't the "religious police".  I did very well.

I am grateful for understanding the reality of my life and also for really hearing what the Rabbi said in his sermon.  You have to be grateful for what you have and not envy others.

I'm going to work on this. I am grateful for my health, my spirituality, my joy and my energy.  My the Almighty shine on me this year.

Amen!

GRATEFUL FOR THE SPIRITUALITY OF YOM KIPPUR

I was grateful for the beauty of Yom Kippur and the easy fast that I had because I did not have the anxiety of the triad.

May I and all my family be sealed in the Book Of Life, Almighty.  May I remember how to deal with them so they won't hurt me.

Thank you!!!!!

I REVIEWED THE YEAR AND I'M GRATEFUL

It is almost Kol Nidre and as I review the year, I am grateful to the Almighty that I have survived. As a result of what happened to me, I am stronger, am more in control and ready and happy to move on independently with my own life.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.  Without the help of the Almighty, I might have folded, but He made me strong.  I survived what he did to my friends.  I survived all his bantering about my being responsible for his doctor and being loyal to my friends.  I survived what happened in July.  I survived what those girls did to me.

Thanks to the Almighty, I survived it all and I'm different and better.  I rid myself of them for the holidays and am able to really enjoy going to synagogue and the rest of the holiday.  I'm free to be me.  I call the shots for me.   I'm free and it's wonderful.

I am so grateful!!!!!

GRATITUDE BECAUSE THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON

I am so grateful to the Almighty for the things that have happened to me in the last 4 years especially the last 2 months.  These things have made me the INDEPENDENT PERSON that I have become.

AS a result of this, I am able to RETIRE and enjoy my own life.  If NOT NOW, THEN WHEN???

I am grateful that I have my health and my faith in the Almighty!!!

I am excited to retire!!!!!