FREEDOM TO CHOOSE

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me the freedom to make choices. 

In the last 3 years I have made wonderful choices that have changed my life.

I am looking forward to another wonderful day filled with walking and yoga.  I will be picking up my yin-yang necklace at Solomon's as well as a Jewish menorah.  Then it's off to B. Well Naturally for vitamins.  I have an Apple lesson also.

Thank you, Almighty for guiding me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL TIME AT THE CONDO

I am grateful to the Almighty because I had a wonderful time at the condo.  Thanks to the Almighty, I knew just what to say and what not to say. He was in one of his "decent" moods and offered to pay for wine and the items that I bought at Lavender on the Vine.  We went back to Greenport, to Claudios to have dinner celebrating our anniversary and he paid for that also. I also received a wedding ban as a gift.  Everyone wears them to yoga.  Now me too!!!  Was he feeling guilty???  Who knows???  I don't analyze anymore.

I am looking forward to a wonderful day.  I am up early to walk and then do some yoga. I hope to get a mani/pedi done today also.

Thank you Almighty for a wonderful vacation.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING AUTHENTIC

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to become the authentic me.

We are going to the condo this afternoon until Sunday.  I'm not afraid at all.  I have so many strategies in my pocket, PLUS, I am authentic.  I know exactly who I am and what to do and say and when to be still.

This morning I will walk and take my yoga class.

Thank you Almighty for teaching me who I am.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I AM HEALING

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healing.

I am becoming the authentic person that I was meant to be.  I am practicing intimacy.  As a result of this I am healing.  I am learning how wonderful it is to just be.  It is indeed wonderful to be me.

Yesterday was an awesome day filled with walking, yoga, book clubs and in the evening, dinner with a dear friend.  Martin  and I even picked up my anniversary gift from Solomon's, a jeweler that I love. Marc found me a yin-yang that I immediately purchased and will pick up on Tuesday.

Today is another wonderful day.  I will walk and attend my yoga class.  Today is the yoga book club too. 

I will come home to pack because we will leave for the condo tomorrow and will be back on Sunday.

Thank you, Almighty because I am healing.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day.

I have so many wonderful adventures planned for the "authentic me" today.  I will walk and then practice yoga.  I have a book club to attend.  I will read.  Tonight I'm having dinner with a dear friend.

Yesterday I had lunch at a French bistro with a group of yogi friends.  I discovered a new shopping center and bought socks and ordered shoes.  I even joined the pool.

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me this beautiful day where I am healthy and happy.  I am slowly becoming the "authentic me" the real person that I am.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MOVING ON...................

I am grateful to the Almighty because the month of June is almost over and all that will be left of some events will be memories that will fade.

The wedding will be a memory of the past and will be forgotten.  The questions that people ask will soon stop completely.

The Pet Scan is over and was good.  My periodontal checkup was good.

Life will return to calm and quiet with all of these sad events a distant memory.

Today I will walk, practice yoga and have lunch with friends.

Thank you Almighty for letting me move on.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR KNOWING WHO I AM

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to discover exactly who I am.

That has been a tremendous help to me and given me a lot more freedom to have adventures.

I am grateful for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW STORY

I am grateful to the Almighty because it is time for a new story.

 I attended services and tonight I'm going to a couple's celebration of the 70th anniversary of their Bar/Bat mitzvah.

I even was able to walk despite the drizzly and gloomy afternoon.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the beginning of a new story.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL THAT THE WEEK IS OVER

I am grateful to the Almighty that the week is over and that tonight is the Sabbath.

It has been a very difficult and stress producing week.  There have been good things too.

His checkups went well and hopefully this means that the summer will be a quiet one.  My periodontal checkup was a good one and my bonding didn't break.

I still have not gotten over that horrible wedding.  I guess that it will take time to forget. I would have to be inhuman to think anything positive about it.

I am grateful to the Almighty that the week is over.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY PERIODONTAL CHECKUP

I am grateful to the Almighty because I had a good periodontal checkup.

My bonding didn't break!!

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE LIGHT

I am grateful to the Almighty because even in the darkest days He shows me the light

Thank you, Almighty for the light.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR FAILURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me failure.

Failure has brought great success to my life.  This may not make sense to you but it makes sense to me.  Difficult, abusive parents allowed to to succeed in school.  A failed marriage and difficult children allowed me to have a successful, and wonderful career.  July 31, 2012 allowed me to retire as I figured out strategies to make my life rich.   A man that does nothing with me in retirement allows me to have adventures on my own.

Failure has been the key to my greatest successes.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR SURVIVAL SKILLS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me survival skills.

I survived that horrible wedding.  I even survived the Italian meat and cheese and the fact that I was NOT allowed to order dessert because no one else wanted it.  I will NEVER forget this and although I won't become angry things will change.  Dinners will be at home and NEVER again in restaurants.  The Bank of Bertisch is closed............................................

I was glad that I didn't stay out east because it allowed me to resume my daily routines. Walking, yoga, reading and Apple lessons were back.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I will read.  He is going to a dinner for Cancer Survivors and I am going to the movies, dinner out and yoga.

It's time to move on.

Thank you, Almighty for my survival skills.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR EMBRACING CHANGE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have begun to embrace change.

The wedding yesterday was a horror.   There are no other words to describe it.  The worst thing was to find Italian meat next to cheese and to discover that at the restaurant people were ordering mussels, clams and clam chowder that we were paying for.

It is time for change.  It is time to eliminate holidays in general as well as constantly giving money for everything.  That in itself will be a big change for them.

This time I will do it. 

 I am grateful to the Almighty for my resolve.  This has finally pushed me over the edge.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because He made it possible for me to practice yoga and I learned so many things that I could take with me into my own life.

Today is the wedding.  As a result of yoga, I will be able to look at the day with calmness and quiet.  I will be able to accept that which I cannot change.  I will live in the moment.  I will be strong and practice stillness. I have done the best that I could do.  I have let go of that which doesn't serve me as far as they go and I have healed.

Tomorrow I will again be enjoying my retired life.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING ABOUT MISERY

I am grateful to the Almighty because when I attended a yoga class, we discussed seeing misery in perspective.

Tomorrow is the wedding of my older daughter.  I will see this as ONLY one day.  Therefore I will see MISERY for only one day.  There will be moments of CLARITY and JOY as I BREATHE.

Then it will be over and I will have seen MISERY in PERSPECTIVE.

Thank you, Almighty!!

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW RETIRED LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new retired life that He has given me.

This new life allows me to experience joy.

I am working on accepting that which I cannot change.  This weekend I have the wedding of the older one.   I worked very hard to try and bring them up to be decent human beings.  Obviously it did not happen.  As my mother used to say, "You do the best that you can do.  You can't kill yourself over the results.  You have to accept fate."

That is why I am working hard to separate myself from The Triad and have my own life.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this new life.

I love my new activities.  Walking, yoga, book clubs and yesterday a wonderful Memory Workshop.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I am getting my hair colored and cut for the wedding.  

I am really enjoying my new life.  I am celebrating my successes and accomplishments and trying to let go of failures.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR CLARITY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have begun to clean up the clutter in my life.

This has given me clarity and allowed me to have insights into the authentic person that I am.

I have learned to put myself "first" in all that I do.

Thank you, Almighty for the gift of clarity.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE SAMENESS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because his pet scan was fine.

My life will remain the same.

I am enjoying it all and I am so grateful to the Almighty because it will continue.

Thank you!!!

GRATEFUL FOR GETTINGRID OF CLUTTER

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is the day that I begin to rid myself of clutter.

I will begin to accept that which I can not change.

This morning I will walk.  It's beautiful outside.  I will attend 2 yoga classes.  I will go to my Chabad class and have dinner in a restaurant!!!   I have not cooked all week because of a variety of activities.  Last night was a book discussion and I took myself to to eat.  Tonight is my Oral History class.

Life is good thanks to the Almighty helping me to create it.

I will not think of that up and coming wedding nor of the results of his pet scan.

I am thankful to Him for a new beginning.  I will feel it more and more after I rid myself of clutter.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL THAT LIFE MOVES ON.........................

I am grateful to the Almighty because I can see that life is moving on.

Last night, I went to a retirement party at CCA in an Italian piazza place in Wantagh.  I could see how far I have come and how much I have changed.  I was so proud of my new life.

Today he is going for a pet scan.  I hope that it is a good one for a very selfish reason.  I really love my new life and I don't want anything to interfere.  I also know that he will try and upset me afterwards no matter what.  I am truly grounded in reality and proud of me.

I am going to walk now and then attend my yoga class.

I will be going for a manicure/pedicure this afternoon for that wedding on Sunday.

This evening I will again go out for dinner.  I am gaining weight because they told me at Weight Watchers that if I loose any more they won't weigh me.  I'm going for Japanese food!!!

Tonight is a book discussion too.

Thank you, Almighty for my new life.

I am moving on.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy in my life.   I must learn to see misery in perspective and to accept what I cannot change.

I really did not feel well when I went to yoga yesterday morning.  I knew that this was the result of putting too much weight on the misery in my life.  I feel guilty because the older one is marrying a Muslim.  However, I realized that I brought her up with religion and that the Almighty will punish her.  She is no longer my responsibility.

I had a wonderful time at the Hazan's party.  I brought him and when he introduced himself to people I realized how far my life had come and I was grateful.  I didn't even bother to introduce him because it wasn't worth it.  I had a wonderful time.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.

I have a retirement party to attend tonight that I will enjoy.

Thank you, Almighty for my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR EVERY BREATHE THAT I TAKE

I am grateful to the Almighty for every breathe that I take.

I will not do anything to destroy my life.  This is a promise that I am making to myself.

I cannot change him and won't bother.  The older one pulled a scam and is marrying a Muslim. I did the best that I could in bringing her up in a Jewish way.  This is between the Almighty and her.

I am grateful to Him for every breathe that I take and will do nothing to shorten my time on earth.  I will enjoy each moment given to me.

Today I will walk, practice yoga, go to Weight Watchers.

This evening I will attend a fundraiser at PJC celebrating the Chazan's 40th anniversary.

I am grateful to the Almighty that I get to do these things.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR SHABBOS

I am grateful to the Almighty because today was the Sabbath and it was a beautiful as well as spiritual day.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY SUCCESS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to be successful in life as a productive member of society.

I survived against all the odds.  I had parents that demeaned me and  husband that berated me.  I survived and was successful against all the odds.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING GROUNDED IN REALITY

I usually just write one post a day but what happened today deserves another!!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have learned from Him to be grounded in reality.

This morning I took a yoga class and the teacher worked with our feet because she said that in doing yoga poses as in life one needs to be grounded.  In life one needs to be grounded in reality.

I created dreams filled with hope for so many years.   He had an amazing run controlling me.  That is so over because I am grounded in reality and stillness and quiet.

The plan today was a film at Cinema Arts and dinner out.  That was his choice.  That became my Apple lesson and gray sole on the deck.  All of this is an attempt to get a rise out of me.  It's just not happening.

Why?

I am grounded in reality.  I am fluid and flexible.  I accept what I can't change.  I am comfortable with stillness.

I have become a yogi.

Thank you, Almighty for this.

I am grateful!!!!

(The update to the dinner that I made was that he regretted having dinner at home and told me that he is not good at making decisions.  Foiled again!!  One has to laugh.

GRATEFUL FOR STILLNESS AND QUIET

I am grateful to the Almighty because He taught me about stillness and quiet.

I used it as part of a survival strategy these last 3 years.  Yesterday in yoga, I learned its true value.  Stillness and quiet allow me to look inside myself, to be intimate with myself and to see the authentic me.

As I result of stillness and quiet I have had so many new and wonderful adventures because stillness and quiet have also given me the gift of time.  I don't have to be bothered with conversations that were set up solely to make me upset and get a rise out of me so that he can enjoy himself.  Stillness and quiet allow me to say only what needs to be said.  

This gives me time to experience life.  Yesterday was structured with walking, a yoga class in the daytime and evening before my amazing Oral Torah class at Chabad followed by dinner at an Italian restaurant with my closest friend..................ME!

I am grateful to the Almighty for teaching me about stillness and quiet.

Thank you!!!

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to find a new retired life.

I am enjoying all of my new activities.

Today I will walk.  I will be taking not one but two yoga classes because tonight I will be taking my course on the oral history of the Torah.

Thank you so much for helping me discover this new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have had a wonderful day.

It is FREEZING outside!!!   I walked in the rain for an hour this morning.   Then I went to yoga.  I attended a Title Swap at the Syosset library and tonight I have invited him to go to a Summer Author Visit at the Syosset library where Jennifer Cody Epstein is speaking.

It has been a wonderful day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you!!!!

GRATITUDE FOR STRUGGLE AND STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me the ability to face the struggles in my life and to grow stronger as a result of it.

Thank you!!!!