GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life and for the new person that I have transitioned into.

As I approach July 31, I can't help but look back and realize what an amazing day that was for me.  He did not intend for the date (July 31, 2012) to transform me but it certainly did.  Had he known how transforming that day would be he never would have done what he did.

I slowly became the person that I was meant to be.  I am so grateful to the Almighty for this.

I am writing this today because we leave for the condo tomorrow until Sunday night.  This past week has been filled with wonderful things.  I attended the Sisterhood Bingo,  I went to my book club as well as the pool.  I watched Into The Woods too.  

I have so much more time to enjoy my life because I am an authentic person.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PAUSE AND BALANCE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the pause and balance in my life.

It has made me a physically and emotionally healthy person.

Today I will do some errands.  I will walk, practice yoga, read and enjoy my life.  I will go to the pool.

Thank you Almighty for the balance in my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR TRANSITION

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to transition to my new life.

It's a life of calm and quiet.

It's a life of balanced work and play.

It's a life with pauses for transition.

Last night I attended Sisterhood Bingo.  I was happy there and I won a prize.  I sat with Sisterhood friends.

Today I have an afternoon book club to attend as well as walking and yoga.

I might even go to the pool.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to transition to my new life.

Thank you.

Update:   I have truly evolved!!!!  I'm so proud of me!!!  I went to the cleaning store and then to the pool where I read and met people that I know.  I made dinner and will now watch a NETFLIX film.  I should tell you that tonight is the Workman's Challenge at Jones Beach.  How far I have moved since that fateful day in 2012.  I will forgive in order to move on with my own life BUT I will never forget!!!!!

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

ACCEPTANCE OF MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me through yoga the way to accept my life.

I accept my life because I acknowledge all the facts.  Certain things cannot be changed. It is what it is.  I have learned to accept what I can not change and to let it go.

I had a wonderful time at the condo this past weekend because I accepted my life. Wherever I was and whatever I did, if thoughts came to me, I let them go.

I am grateful to the Almighty because I accept my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new and wonderful life.  We were at the condo.  I knew what to say, what not to say, when to say it..........................

Thank you for watching over me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR CLARITY OF MIND

I am grateful to the Almighty because He made it possible for me to practice yoga.

It was from yoga that I learned about clutter.  If you clear your mind of clutter you will have clarity of mind and develop insights.  That is how I live my life.

I also say my mantras each morning and I thank the Almighty for my life.

I have learned so much through yoga that has kept my happy and healthy.

Today we will be leaving for the condo.  It's the authentic person that is going to vacation.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO BE STILL IN THE FACE OF ADVERSITY

I am so grateful to the Almighty for teaching me about being calm, quiet and still.

I opened the door to walk this morning and there is NEWSDAY.  He cancelled it on the wrong day.  Obviously I was not going to leave to go to the condo without knowing the paper was cancelled for tomorrow.

I walked and then practiced yoga.  I did a variety of errands.   

Truth be told, I did not want to go to Montauk.  That was the scene of a major fight when he didn't tip the waiter appropriately and the same waiter chased him out of the restaurant yelling at him.

We will leave tomorrow.  

I will be able to take my evening yoga class.

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me to yoga where I learned the value of stillness.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have learned about the concept of, "TO BE."

We will be going out to the condo for the next six days (Tuesday-Sunday).  I am going to enjoy each moment as I have learned to live in that moment. I have really absorbed the concept, "TO BE."  I therefore expect to have a wonderful time.

I will walk, practice yoga and do some shopping before we head to east.

Thank you Almighty for teaching me to live in the moment.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a strong and healthy woman.

We are in the middle of a heat wave.  I walked from 7AM-9AM before the heat really hit. Soon I will be heading off to practice yoga.  I have already done the laundry and organized the bedroom so that he can clean.

I hope to get to the pool today.

The dog is going to the vet for another ear checkup.

I began a new book for another book discussion.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR ACCEPTANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I understand the idea of accepting your own life.

I now understand that accepting your life means to acknowledge the facts.  As a historian, I understand that very well.  I know that decisions are made with facts and with each situation that I am in,  I evaluate the facts to know what decision to make.

Based on all the facts, I know that I can NEVER buy another condo with him.  I'm fine with that because I am living in the moment in my little condo and enjoying it.

I'm living in the moment right now!!!  I'm going to walk in the HEART AND SOLE RACE.
More later..........................

I walked the entire race!!!!  It took a bit more than an hour and then I had to walk another hour to complete my two hours.  I'm proud of me!!!!!  I came home to read the papers and to pack for the condo.  We are going again on Tuesday-Sunday.  I'm also setting up a wash to do on Monday.

Soon I will be going to the pool.

The pool was so much fun!!!!  I met Sisterhood friends there and was able to go into the pool and finish my book.  When my friends left, I invited him to come.  I made tuna sushi and soon will start my new book.

I am grateful for my life.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR ACCEPTANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I understand what it means to accept ones life.

I practiced yoga yesterday and learned the true meaning of the term "ACCEPTANCE."  A person had to acknowledge the facts in a situation and then understand that it is what it is.  It doesn't mean that you are weak.  It means that you understand the facts and can make appropriate decisions for yourself.

I attended services today and went to kiddish with my friends.  I hope to be able to walk today in between thunder storms.

I am grateful to the Almighty for His helping me to understand the true definition of acceptance.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty for letting me to listen to Hollie who told me to try yoga.  It has truly changed my life.

I tried a new class last night called Restorative Yoga and Meditation.  The instructor read a poem about a person who was never satisfied with the present moment. The person "wanted" Summer when it was Spring, Fall when it was Summer, wanted to be 30 when they were 20 and so on.................   That resonated with me because I have learned the joy of the moment.  I am so grateful for this.

I have learned, through yoga, to see misery in perspective.  I had a wonderful week because I never allowed his comments to become my entire day.

Today I will walk,  and practice yoga in two classes.  I have an appointment to have my hair colored and blown out.

Tonight is the beginning of the Sabbath and I will be home!!!

I'm excited.

Thank you, Almighty for yoga.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE RELEASE OF THE BINDS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has sent me to yoga and it was there that I learned to release the binds that were making me depressed and angry.

I have learned how to enjoy my freedom.  Yesterday I walked.  I practiced yoga.  I took the doggie to the vet because he has an ear infection.  I took an Apple lesson. I'm reading a wonderful book...........life is amazing.

I take what he says in stride, always expecting it and not really caring anymore.  I'm not the teacher anymore trying to help him have a quality life.  He has his condo issue and I have, "do whatever you want." He himself has said, "If I make the decision, then who can I blame?" This is not my issue.

I don't rush to call the girls.  One doesn't call and I don't either.  The other texts and I text back. I'm offering no condo invitations this summer.  Remember what they did when they came? I'm proud of me.

Today I will walk.  I will practice yoga.  I have a new class set up for tonight in Meditation and Restorative Yoga too.  I am getting a mani/pedi this afternoon.  I turned down a dinner date with him to take the new class.  I'm proud of me.

I do it all with dignity, calmness and grace.

Thank you Almighty for releasing me from the binds.

I am grateful.

GRATEUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful new life that I have.

I have gotten rid of the clutter and achieved clarity.  This really does give me insight into what I need to do to achieve a good life.  I am proud of myself each time that I practice stillness with him.  I am proud of myself when I am quiet.  

I am proud of myself when nothing stupid deters me from my original goal.

Today is a very cloudy day but I'm going to try and walk.  I will also practice yoga at the studio.  I have an Apple lesson to attend where I hope to do some work with I-Tunes and I-Photo.  The doggie has to go to the vet to have his ear checked.

Did I tell you that I went to a wonderful discussion of Animal Farm at my book club yesterday?

He spends his days playing "the condo game" and looking for a reaction from me and that isn't happening. Control over me has disappeared.

I'm so happy about that.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE CHANGE IN ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to change for the better.  As a result of this I am really enjoying life.

This morning I walked and when I returned I told him that I wanted to get the truck washed and the credit card to use.  He proceeded to yell and scream and threaten me.  I had no idea why this was.  I checked the shopping list using as a ruse that I wanted to make sure some things were on the list.  

I did NOT answer him but left to practice yoga.

I was very proud of myself.  This was the month where almost three years ago to the day, I answered him and he responded by calling the police and I was sent to NCMC.  

His power is gone.

He is a handyman.

I have changed.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ABUNDANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am content with the abundance in my life.

We are home from the condo.  I had a wonderful time.  I knew exactly how to behave and what to expect and therefore there were no disappointments.

I was a little surprised that on all three nights he planned activities.  We went to Sag Harbor to have dinner at Harlow's and see Mambo Loco.  We went to the opening of an art exhibit in Southhampton and had dinner at CowFish.  We went to a oat farm too.  He even went to the beach with me.

I did not expect change.  I lived in the moment and it was wonderful.

Thank you Almighty for this feeling of content that I feel.

I am grateful for the abundance in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because I had a wonderful time at the condo........A REAL VACATION FOR ME!!!!

I have released myself from the binds that have held me and I am FREE.

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me to yoga to learn this.

Thank you!!!!

GRATITUDE FOR VACATIONS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I will be going to the condo today and will be there until Monday.

My intention is to feel well balanced in mind, body and spirit and to enjoy every moment.  I am continuing to heal and to clear, delete and cancel that which doesn't serve me.

Thank you, Almighty for always being there for me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR CONTINUING TO HEAL

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am continuing to heal.  I hope that the Almighty will always be with me to help me heal.

Yesterday I did so many fun things.  There was walking.  There were two yoga classes. There were chores, errands, paying bills and reading.  I took an evening Restorative Yoga Class that I had taken when the healing process began.  I was grateful for how far I have come.

The funniest thing was that I was at PJC for services last night because it was the anniversary of my mother's death.  Someone brought a dog to services and the Rabbi posted the picture on Facebook. There I was at services.   Today my friend Rabbi Jay from yoga heads to Israel for a month.

Today I will walk and again do yoga. I will change sheets and do laundry. Matzah sees the vet today for his annual checkup.  Yesterday he was groomed.  Tonight I will take another yoga class.

Tomorrow we leave for the Hamptons until Monday.

I am not afraid to go because I am not the same person that I was.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to heal.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH AND INSIGHTS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the insights that I had yesterday.

I realized why it was so important to me to have people think well of me.  I spent my entire childhood trying to get my mother to like me and that feeling of inadequacy never disappeared!!!

I am thankful that I finally had the strength to let my older daughter know that I was busy the two weeks that she gave me as to when she could come to the condo.  Wasn't I not a Hamptons person?  Wasn't she careful to make sure that we were never in town when she visited?  If we didn't have an extra room for her and her new husband how could she come?  I thought about this and realized that she didn't have to come.  With her husbands inappropriate clothing, his unshaven face and his desire to order the most expensive items on the menu, his lack of Judiasm etc, it didn't pay for him to come.  Her attitude has always been poor and I needed a vacation.

Today it's cloudy, but I'm going to walk and do some yoga.  The dog goes to be groomed.  I also need to get to the library.

Thank you, Almighty for my insights.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ABUNDANCE

I am grateful for the abundance in my life.

We were at the condo from Thursday until yesterday.  I watched all the people who live there full-time and realized that there was a great deal of abundance in my life that I take for granted and I should be grateful for.

We had a wonderful time.  We went to the Quogue Wildlife Refuge and saw the turtles.  We took the dog to the beach.  I went in the pool.  We went to The Patio for dinner on July 4th and saw the fireworks.

We are home today.  I will be walking shortly and going to yoga, and later in the day to my book club.

Tonight is the anniversary of my mother's death and I will be saying Yizkor at PJC.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the abundance in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR ANOTHER CONDO VACATION

I am grateful to the Almighty because we are going to the condo again.

We will be leaving this afternoon (Thursday) and will return on Sunday.  I am grateful to the Almighty because I have internalized exactly what to say and do so that I can truly relax.

This morning I will walk and will practice yoga at my studio.  I have to go to Fresh Produce and finish packing.

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am happy and healthy and secure so that I am able to go.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE FREEDOM OF CHOICE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me about freedom and trained me to make appropriate choices.

I am definitely NOT the same person that I was three years ago.  I have learned and internalized strategies to deal with him and I don't miss a heartbeat as I change directions.  It never destroys my day.

That has allowed me to become AUTHENTIC and to develop INSIGHTS.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

I hope to walk this morning even though we had a major thunderstorm a few hours ago.  Then it's off to yoga and Weight Watchers.

Tonight I am having dinner with Sisterhood friends and going to a book discussion.

Thank you Almighty for my amazing life.

I am grateful.