GRATEFUL FOR NEW BEGINNINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to have a new beginning.

It is New Years Eve!!!  The year 2015 will soon be gone and the year 2016 will begin.  I have another change to release myself from the binds.

I choose one thing to release myself from.  I will try to change my negative thoughts to positive ones.  I will also try to release myself (as much as I can) from celebration holidays where there is nothing to celebrate (except dreams and false illusions).

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I have some chores to do.  I also wish to buy something for myself at the jewelry store.  I'm getting my hair blown out for the new year.

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy and happy.  This new year is a new slate, a new chance for me to become the authentic person that I want to be.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LETTING GO

I am grateful to the Almighty because He found yoga and that has helped me to learn so much.

I'm practicing enjoying each moment.  I really enjoyed my mani/pedi yesterday. I asked Hannah for a New Years Eve design that would carry me through the next two weeks.  I enjoy going to that salon.  I walked in the mall yesterday and enjoyed it.  I finished my book and will begin another.  My sugarless diet is going well.

I am letting go of that which doesn't serve me.  I am releasing the binds from that older one and gaining my freedom.

Today I will go back to the studio for classes.  It's been painted.

Thank you Almighty for being there for me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this rainy new day.

Something different!!!!!  I will walk the mall....................

Today I scheduled a mani/pedi that I'm looking forward to.

My sugarless plan is coming along.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY BIRTHDAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because this has been a blessed birthday.

I am a strong and capable woman and I have begun to release myself from the binds as of today.  The older one texted me "happy birthday" with the intent to call me later.  I said that I would be out and without a phone.   No need for phony calls.

He had a gift for me.  However his behavior last Saturday was filled with needling and bantering.  I did not answer.  He took me to a restaurant later in the week and was enraged when I asked him to leave the waitress an extra dollar.  I chose not to receive his cards or gifts telling him that when he is even keeled I would open it.

What did I do for this birthday???  I walked and enjoyed the silence.  I did some chores.  I played with the dog.  I kept to my sugarless diet.  It was a beautiful day and I am proud to say that I felt release from the binds.

Finally at the end of the day I opened the cards and gift.  If you persist on abusing the person what value is the gift?  I moved on.

I feel that I have finally matured.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR STRATEGIES

I am grateful to the Almighty because even when I loose my balance you help me to become grounded again.

This weekend I did indeed loose my balance when the older one screamed at me on the phone after I had just come in from services.  It was a nonsense call where she needed me to take my name and his name off her accounts (something I had told her to do months ago) but she  wanted me to write a letter. When I told her to do it her mouth opened!!!!! 

I was caught off guard and I lost my balance.  I have since decided to make an extra effort to free myself from the binds.  

I will begin again to regain my balance.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR EACH NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for each new day that He has given me.  Each day has a possibility for joy and happiness.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  

A book awaits me.

He wants to take me out for my birthday.

Life is about finding the joy and happiness in small things.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY INDIVIDUAL CHOICES

I am grateful to the Almighty for the choices that He has helped me to move my life forward to a happier place.

I have made choices for myself that have really moved me from a negative to a positive place.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because He introduced me to Hollie who introduced me to yoga.

I took the Christmas Day All Levels yoga class taught by Leslie at the studio.  I enjoyed it so much and even laughed a lot as she re-named the poses with Christmas names.  She spoke of carrying gratitude and joy with you throughout the year.

I came home to finish my walk on this balmy Christmas day.

I had my DD coffee without flavors, no Splenda either. I'm proud of me.  I read The New York Times.

I'm making chicken for me tonight and he is getting salmon. I'm doing a butternut squash without sweeting it..........just a veggie!!!!

I will begin my new book soon.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR NOT BEING STUCK

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga.  It was through yoga that I learned that I was never stuck and could make all the changes necessary to lead a quality life.

This has so changed me.

Yesterday I had a wonderful day filled with walking, yoga and chores.   I even finished my book and will begin another tonight.

However when I arrived home it was different because he was waiting with bait to see if he could catch me into having an argument. He began with his needling and bantering.  He knew that I had nothing to say after he was ready the night before to have a major argument about me wanting to leave an extra dollar to the tip.  I wouldn't fall for the bait.  I spoke in a quiet voice.  I went to take a shower.  It continued.  I was supposed to loose my cool after listening to all his remarks.  I did not.  Instead I planned the day that I would have today.

Today I will walk and then take a Christmas yoga class at my studio.  A new book awaits me and tonight is the Sabbath.

I am not stuck in the old ways.  I accept what I cannot change.

I am making progress with my sugar-free diet.

I am grateful to the Almighty for moving me forward.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR APPRECIATION OF MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga and I learned so much.

I have learned to reply and not react.  I have learned about stillness.  I have learned to be calm. I have learned to let go of that which doesn't serve me so that I can move forward.  I have learned to appreciation my own life and not to have positive expectations about him .

This has helped me with him a great deal.  Each time he tries to get a rise out of me, he is met with yoga principles!!!

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I have chores to do and then I will enjoy the day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL TO LOOK INWARD

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me the ability to be introspective and to be able to look inside myself.

This is the Winter Solstice.  It's dark outside and quiet.  It's the perfect time to look inside myself and begin to see things in a new perspective.  This is what I'm doing and also evaluating.  What is it that I let go of?  What do I keep?

Last night I took a wonderful Restorative Yoga class.  Today I will walk, practice yoga, get my hair colored and cut and read.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my ability to look inward.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WINTER ACTIVITY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new winter activity that I heard about in yoga.

In these dark days of winter I am going to take an inventory of my life in order to become balanced.  I will begin to see what to let go of and what to keep and why.

Today I will walk, practice yoga, get some chores done and read.

Although I'm not liking it, I'm doing well on my less sugar program.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that I have learned.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW DREAMS

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to find new dreams.

I enjoy every aspect of my new retirement from walking, to yoga, to book clubs, to Sisterhood, to synagogue.

I am grateful that I have created a new approach to speaking with him.  Hard as he tries he cannot find anything to bait me with.  Yesterday was a case in point.  He tried ever hook imaginable and couldn't get to first base.  I do not have a pity party for myself.  I just accept this as a part of my day and move on.

My"less sugar diet" is going well.  It's amazing how much sugar one consumes in a day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new dreams and the new dreams to come.

Thank you.  

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to create a new me.

I did so many wonderful things today, walking, yoga and a bunch of interesting chores.

I am working very hard watching my sugar.  I'm doing good.

He tried to rattle me today but could not get to first base.  I am not going to take the bait. On July 31, 2012, I vowed that I would never banter or needle again and I haven't done so.  It takes great strength to remain calm during this assault but I have done so.

I'm proud of me.

Tonight I will start another book for another book club.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE SABBATH

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is the Sabbath.

I will go to PJC and thank the Almighty for all the good in my life.

I will read and walk and relax.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the life that I have been given.

I am grateful because I know that thoughts just float by.  They are not me.  I can always change a negative thought into a positive one.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I'm beginning my new "sugar-free diet" today. 

Thank you, Almighty for the life that you have given me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY CHECKUP

I m grateful to the Almighty for my checkup.

I am happy and healthy.

I have to make some changes in my life but considering what is in the world around me, I am happy and grateful.

Thank you Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH AND FORTITUDE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have developed a great deal of strength and fortitude.

Yesterday was a case in point.  He awoke yesterday and I could see that he was in a silent yet confrontational mood.  Anything could become an argument.

Nothing did!!!!   I was smart enough to enjoy all the different aspects of my day.  I walked, I practiced yoga during two classes (day and evening).  I did some errands, finished my book and even had time for a manicure.  I watched the last of the Republican debates and my television program.  His plan was a total failure and I had a wonderful day.

Today is my doctor checkup.  I hope and pray that you, Almighty will make it a good one.

Thank you.

I am grateful!!

GRATEFUL FOR FEELING HOPE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have positive feelings of hope about today's checkup.

I have faith that the Almighty will make sure that I get a good report.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR HEARING ABOUT PERSPECTIVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga yesterday.

The instructor spoke about having a positive perspective rather than a negative perspective on life.

It has always been difficult for me to see the positive. I always see the negative.

I am going to make every effort to change my perspective and replace a negative thought with a positive one today.

That should help a great deal because tomorrow I'm off to the doctor for the results of blood work and my annual checkup.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR WHAT DOREEN SENT ME

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me a yoga instructor named Doreen.  Each day she sends an inspirational saying, quote or mini-poster.

Today I was feeling a bit down.  It is hard to spend any amount of time with him as all he does is banter.  It's tough not to respond but if you do that's what he wants.  His aim is always to make me as miserable as he is and he has not succeeded since July 31, 2012.

Anyway today's saying was: TEN PERCENT OF LIFE IS WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU AND NINETY PERCENT IS HOW YOU REACT TO IT.

Immediately I felt better as I immediately decided NOT to react to anything that he says!!!

Thank you Almighty for sending me Doreen.

I am grateful. 

GRATEFUL FOR THE BREATHE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my breathe.

Thank you for making me healthy and happy.  

I pray that my checkup goes well this week.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE WORD CLARITY

I am grateful to the Almighty because when I attended my yoga class yesterday the instructor spoke of the word clarity.

I have been trying to clear my mind of all the clutter.  I am trying to let go of that which doesn't serve me so that I can heal.  In that way I can achieve clarity and have insight into what I really need to accomplish.

I can see that it is working because I take my blood pressure daily now that I have to go for my doctor checkup on Wednesday.  It is much lower than usual.

I believe that I have the Almighty to thank for this.

He sent me to yoga.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR HEARING ABOU MY TRUTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because when I practiced yoga yesterday the instructor spoke about, MY TRUTH.

This led me to think about who I am.  It led me to go inside myself and be intimate with myself and to think about what I need in order to be happy and healthy.

This is a process and I was thrilled to realize that since I retired I have been moving in the right direction!!!!

Today I will walk even though there is a dense fog out there.  I will practice yoga too. I'm getting my hair blown out this afternoon and tonight it's the sixth day of Chanukah and also the Sabbath.

Did I tell you that I bought 2 pairs of small earrings yesterday as a Chanukah present for myself?

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY GD GIVEN LIGHT

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has created a light within me and has continued even in darkest times to keep it lit.

Thank you.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR YOGA PRINCIPLES

I am so grateful to the Almighty for making sure that I finally began to practice yoga.  It has changed my entire life with him.

I no longer react to anything negative or argumentative that he says to me.  I don't even respond.  I listen and then if it doesn't serve me, I let it go.  That prevents arguments and discussions that I really don't want to have.  It gives me so much more time to enjoy my own life. I am so grateful for this.

Yesterday he wanted to attend, not the book discussion, but to come to the library with me.  He hadn't read the book and I hadn't pushed it.  He read magazines.  I introduced him to my friends casually because he didn't need to know too much.  I'm doing good.

I'm going to walk and practice yoga today hopefully twice because I missed one class when I went for my blood test.  I also have errands to do.  I will invite him to have breakfast with me. 

Thank you Almighty for bringing me to yoga.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy and happy and it is a new day.

The blood test is in the back of my mind.  The checkup is next Wednesday, December 16.  I hope and pray that all goes well.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  Tonight I have another book discussion to attend that I am looking forward to.

Thank you Almighty for this happy day.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

This morning there is a change.  I am going for my blood/urine work for my annual check-up. I hope and pray to the Almighty that I will be fine.  I will write more later.......................

I did go to LAB CORPS and do my bloodworm/urine analysis.  Next Wednesday, December 16th is my checkup.  I hope and pray that I will be fine.

I walked today, practiced yoga and attended a book club discussion.  Tonight is our last class at The Jewish Institute until the Fall of 2016.

Thank you Almighty for this day.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ME

I am grateful to the Almighty for the "new me" that I have become.

I see myself at the Community Synagogue of Rye yesterday.  I visualize how I FINALLY realized that the "old me" is gone and has been gone for a long time.  She ha been replaced by a successful, assertive and in-control woman.  I am so grateful to the Almighty for this.

Each time I visualize this, I have cause to smile.Thank you, Almighty for your continued help.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ME: PART 2

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to grow into a new person.

All these years, I have been carrying the baggage of the "old me" around. However, that person is long gone.

All the things that happened to me in this horrific family are the past.  I have been successful beyond my wildest dreams and I saw that today at that Bat Mitzvah.  I am a successful and accomplished woman with no need to get involved with any of these people. I could sit quietly waiting for them to say something, realizing that there is no history of a positive relationship and thus the silence. I did not have to fill in the silence.   I watched the person that I was fade away as I realized that I have never seen myself as I am.

I was delighted.

Thank you, Almighty for helping me to become the person that I am today.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to become the new me and I am delighted with the person that I am.

I am going to walk and practice yoga today.

I have a hair blow out this afternoon for a synagogue service for a girl on his side of the family.  These people have given me nothing positive over the years and its time for me to return the favor.

I will be posting an entry late tomorrow to let you know how things went. I'm sure I will be fine because I am the new me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR INTERNALIZING IDEALOGY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have finally learned to internalize all the principles of yoga and to use them.  This is what He wanted for me.

Yesterday I had a wonderful day culminating in dinner and a book club with Sisterhood friends. Rather than a Q & A with those who love to gossip about my life I replied in vague terms. The Q & A was soon dropped. I enjoyed the evening very much.  I did the same with him when he tried to discuss the disintegration of The Triad. I responded but did not react.  I did the same with the older one when I was empathetic but not really caring about her co-op search.

As a result I was in control of my life and enjoyed my day.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  I need to do some shopping.

Tonight I have an Apple lesson and dinner out.

Thank you Almighty for helping me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW ADVENTURES

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the new adventures that are coming my way.

Last night I practiced yoga at my Restorative Yoga Class and then I attended a Sisterhood Meeting where the discussion was about The BIG APPLE leading to the Catskill Mountains.

Today I discovered that my friend Rabbi Jay had invited me to his grandson's bris next Tuesday.

I'm off to walk, practice yoga and go to Weight Watchers.  Tonight I will have dinner with friends and go to the Sisterhood Book Club.

I am grateful to you Almighty for all this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR AN AMAZING YOGA CLASS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I participated in an amazing yoga class today.  I learned to put into words all that I had been feeling for so long!!!!!

** I LEARNED TO LOOK INSIDE MYSELF.  WHAT DO I 
     NEED?

** I LEARNED THAT I WAS OPEN AND DID NOT HAVE 
     TO BIND MYSELF.

** I LEARNED TO LET THOSE WHO ARE SLEEPING DO
     JUST THAT.  THEY ARE NOT OPEN TO CHANGE.

Thank you Almighty for encouraging me to go to yoga.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABILITY TO MAKE CHOICES

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to make choices that have changed my life and made my retirement very enjoyable.  He has helped me to make changes in my perception of people and events and has helped to make my life so much richer.

Today I will walk and practice yoga.  This afternoon I have a scheduled mani/pedi.  Tonight is a Sisterhood meeting.

Thank you Almighty for helping me make choices that created this wonderful new life.

I am grateful.