GRATEFUL FOR FINDING LOVE INSIDE ME

 I am grateful to the Almighty because I have found the capacity to love inside of me.

After all of my abusive experiences, I wasn't sure that it was there.........but it is.......it's waiting and ready to love again!  I can feel it.

I had a wonderful day with Charles yesterday.  I drove to St. James and beyond having passed the Millennium Diner and driving to Riverhead and of course I doubled back!!!!

We went to the beach and stayed there all day.  I adore the beach and yesterday there were waves in the sound because of the new moon this week.  We are sending the day together on Tuesday but this time in Plainview because he has his annual doctor checkup and he's in Huntington Station which is very close by. 

Today I'm going to walk, clean the house and I need to go to ShopRite.

I'm meeting the girls at Pasteria at 5:45 for dinner and then we will play MahJong.

I am grateful to the Almighty for allowing me to feel love again.  It's been hidden for so long.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW ADVENTURES

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the new adventures in my life.

Thank goodness that the flu like symptoms are over that I had as a result of the flu and shingles shot because I have a date with Charles today and I'm happy.  He's calling at 8:15AM to tell me what we are doing.  I know we are going to the beach and I'm so happy!!!!

Yesterday was so nutty.  I actually took a 3 hour nap and I was in such pain and now IT'S GONE!!! The pharmacist did say "flu like symptoms" and I did take two shots.

However I did start reading Lovecraft Country.  My yoga studio is opening and I'm taking a class on Friday just to begin!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for my wonderful new life.

Thank you!

GRATEFUL FOR THE SMILE ON MY FACE

 I m grateful to the Almighty for the very big smile on my face.

I am healthy. I am happy.  What more could I ask for.

Yesterday was an amazing day filled with chores and I did them all.  My hair was colored and cut. The bills were mailed.  The jewelry was cleaned.  The wine was purchased. The glasses were adjusted.  The truck was filled up.  I was able to walk until it started to rain.  I texted with Charles all day and we spoke in the evening.  I even started my new book Lovecraft Country .......a book written by Mark Ruff where there is an HBO seres that both Charles and I are watching.

Today is the Sabbath.  We are to be getting major thunderstorms all day.  I will be going to services and resting my poor little arms today.  I took both the flu and shingles shot yesterday!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life and the smile on my face.

Thank you. 

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty for each wonderful new day in my life.

Today I'm getting my hair colored and blown out.

I have a boyfriend!!!

I can't stop smiling and blushing.

Life is good.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joy in my life.

Yesterdays Driveway Dining Party at my home was a huge success!!!

I spoke to Charles and he sent me a picture of his activities with friends at Long Beach yesterday.

Today it's rainy and cloudy......a good day for chores.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy in my life.

Thank you.

UPDATE!

I was able to walk for 2 hours and 5 minutes yesterday as the sun came out.  I was able to do all of my food shopping, the post office, the cleaning store and therapy with both Judith and Kyra and pick up my medication.

I treated myself to dinner from Pasteria and spoke to Charles last night too!

I am so grateful to the Almighty for the joy in my life.

Thank you!!

GRATEFUL FOR FRIENDS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me friends.

Today I am hosting a Lunch in the Driveway and as usual I am very happy.

I'm off to walk early and I'm still smiling about Charles.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for my wonderful new life.

I am healthy. I am happy.  I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

I am stronger than I ever was before.  I say this because Hilary, like her mentor before her, is trying to satiate herself by upsetting me. THIS IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!

Yesterday, I walked, read and cleaned the entire house. I texted and spoke to Charles and we made plans for today.

I went out to dinner with my MahJong buddies and I actually won a game!!!!!!

Today I will be driving out east to meet up with Charles in Commack.

I'm very excited.........more later!!

Later................I had a wonderful time with Charles.  I drove to Commack and met him there, got ins Subaru and we drove to St. James.  He showed me his apartment and then we packed lunch and went to Long Beach where he practices yoga on the beach. (He dis take me to a beach where I couldn't get down the staircase...so we left.)  We spent the day there talking, sunning and swimming and it was beyond wonderful!!! We really like each other.  I'm seeing Charles again next Tuesday.

I came home smiling because we are so similar.......even our lives are similar.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because I am alive and healthy on this beautiful new day.

This morning I will walk.  I will clean my house.  I will read the papers and start my book.

Tonight I'm having dinner with the MahJong ladies and playing.

Charles is calling to finite plans for tomorrow.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this new day.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL THAT THE ALMIGHTY IS IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for remaining in my life.

Through good times and bad times the Almighty is there for me.

People cannot be trusted.  The Almighty is there for me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR NEW ADVENTURES IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for all the new adventures in my life.

Today I walked a totally new route and I walked for 2 hours and 25 minutes. Wow!!!

Today I'm going to take Jericho Turnpike and go to Commack Road, pull into a parking lot with a closed Macy's sign and go home. This is in preparation for my date with Charles on Tuesday when I will meet him there so he only has to drive halfway.

More Later!

I drove to Smithtown......beyond Commack and turned around and went back to Commack to the closed Macy's parking lot.  I texted Charles and called Karen and was delighted with myself.

I went home and got lost taking Route 231 by mistake. I now know when there is a fork in the road to go to the left.

I arrived home safely and had a lovely salmon dinner on the deck. Charles called.  We are getting together Tuesday.....tomorrow we will finite the plans.

I watched Lovecraft Country too and finished my book!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for being in my life. 

Thank you!!!

GRATEFUL FOR A QUIET SHABBOS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because I will be going to services at PJC and it will b a quiet Shabbos.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ALMIGHTY LOOKING AFTER ME

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He is looking after me.

He sent me Charles.

We had a wonderful time yesterday. 

We went to Sunken Meadow Park and walked the boardwalk twice!!!  Then we went to a part of the beach called Callahan's Beach and had an amazingly wonderful day.  We really get along.  He picked me up at 8:30 and I didn't get home until 5:30 and then we texted and talked and became Facebook friends.  He also wants me to learn to drive more of Jericho Turnpike.  He showed me how and I will practice this weekend!!!

We are seeing each other next Wednesday!!!

I am beyond happy.  I laughed all day and smiled and had a great time.

Today I will walk and have my hair blown out at ID and do some chores before Sabbath.

I will also read.

Thank you Almighty for all that you have done for me.

I am happy and grateful!!!

PS....... I did hear from Charles throughout the day........texts and a phone call too!!

            Dana and I went on a Zoom Meeting in a Buddism discussion group and I joined!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful new life that I have.

Yesterday I had a wonderful time at Debbie's house for our weekly Wednesday Driveway get together. I picked up Doris at the nail place because she isn't driving any longer and took her to Debbie's.  I then walked another hour making it 3 hours total that I walked.

I came home to dinner on the deck and a Zoom Ritual meeting.

Karen is home from the hospital and I've spoken with her.

This morning is my date with Charles......................

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE JOY IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for al the joy that is in my life.

I NEVER knew that life could be this wonderful.

Chores are getting done happily. For example yesterday I went to ShopRite and did the weekly shopping.  

Last night Charles called me and we had an amazing conversation.  He sent me pictures of his family and today he is going fishing.

This morning I sent Charles pictures of my family.

Today I will be at Rhonnie's house for another of our Wednesday luncheons and tomorrow I have another date with Charles. He is picking me up at the house and we are going to Sunkin' Meadow Park.

Life is so good.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for all the blessings in my life.

Last night the girls and I went out to dinner at Pasteria.  It was such fun.  We played MahJong at Debbie's. Suddenly after 4 games there was a major thunderstorm with lightening too. We ran into her house and then to to the car laughing and joking all the way.  I never had so much fun!!!!

Today I'm walking, reading, going to ShopRite and just enjoying my day!!

Thank you Almighty.

You have blessed me and I am truly grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A CALM LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for the calm that I am feeling each and every day.

Yesterday it rained so I cleaned the house.......I read the newspapers......I read my book.....I watched a new television show.

I have peace and quiet in my own home which is wonderful.

Today I will walk.......read.....do the wash.......and perhaps go to Amazing Savings.

I'm meeting my MahJong group for dinner tonight and then off to play.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my calm life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR HOPE AND RESILENCE

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He saw fit to bless me with a sense of HOPE and a mind filled with RESILIENCE.

It has helped me through the years and allowed me to enjoy life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE SABBATH

 I am grateful to the Almighty for He has created the Sabbath.

I've always loved the Sabbath but it was never a safe time for me when my abusers were alive.

Now it is.

I can be calm.  I can reflect on my week and all he wonderful things that I did. I can walk. I can breathe.

I went back to services at PJC a few weeks ago and found that the synagogue created a place where one can pray and be socially distant.

I am grateful for this.

Thank you Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR ADVENTURES

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He is sending me all these new adventures.

Charles had told me to have paper and a pen with me when he called because he had a story for me. I thought about this all day. Last night he called and we were on the phone for 1 1/2 hours.  He had a dream about me.  As I listened to him speak, I realized that he had a life and that made me very happy. 

Today Karen is coming over to hang out.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LAUGHING

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me a wonderful new life and I have learned to laugh.

Yesterday we had the Wednesday Driveway Luncheon at Doris's house.  What fun it was.....laughing and joking.  Rhonnie drove.  I brought my bottle of wine and placed it in the Grandma bag that Seth and Dana had given me for Mother's Day.  Debbie gave me a beautiful plant. She had given one to Doris and I admired it and she gave me one too!!

Today I'm off to Dr. Kurtz for my permanent inlay.  Yesterday I was able to walk outside...today I'm not sure because it looks like thunderstorms.

More later.........

I'm home now and I have a permanent inlay!!!!  I went to Hicks and bought a few new plants. I spoke with Dana too. I wrote my Positives of the Pandemic article. I received a text from Charles telling me he will call me tonight and asking me the time.  We will chat at 8.  He did say that he wants me to have pen and paper ready for a story that he will tell me.

This did make me smile.  I will let you know tomorrow what exactly occurred.

GRATEFUL FOR HAPPINESS

 I am grateful to the Almighty because He has sent me people and adventures that have made me very, very happy.

 It's not even 5:00AM but I woke up with a smile on my face.

How happy I am that the Almighty sent me Charles, a man who wants to be my friend......a man who wants to do things with me.......a man who talks to me.......a bright guy!!!!

How happy I am to have friends, activities and adventures.  Today we are going to Doris's house for another Lunch In the Driveway!!!!

I never knew that I could be this blessed.

I never knew that I could be respected for being myself.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

 I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful new life that He has given me.

Last night I had dinner with my MahJong buddies at Greek XPress and then we played MahJong at Debbie's house.

Today I've got a date with Charles....... I have very strange feelings about this.  I'm excited and happy yet I'm so critical of myself and I know this comes from all the criticism that I experienced as a child.  I'm glad that I thought this through as I realized that it was nonsense.

More later................

I went to ID to get my hair blown out and then spent forever trying to figure out what to wear. Lunch was at XPress at 1.

It was a wonderful date.  Charles arrived before I did.  He's 6 foot 2 inches tall and I think that he's awfully cute.  He wants what I want.......a deep friendship.  He said that he would text me in a few day and then texted me that he got home safely.

I'm very happy and grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to practice yoga and it was there that I learned how important it is to live in the moment.

Saturday was a wonderful day at Grandma's Country Club.  It was there that I learned how to live in the moment, in the present because the present is a gift and my gifts are Remi and Madalyn.

Today Matzah is going to the veterinarian for a shot and a bath.  I'm going food shopping and I'm getting my nails done.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

 

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY OF THE SABBATH

 I am grateful to the Almighty because today is the Sabbath.

I will be going to services at Plainview Jewish Center.

My entire little family is coming to Arlene's Little Country Club today........

I am so grateful for this.

Thank you Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

 I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy and happy and He has given me a new day.

Yesterday was a wonderful day.   Dr. Kurtz replaced my temporary inlay and next Thursday I will be getting the permanent one.  I picked up DD coffee and had breakfast.  I was able to walk for two hours. I went to PJC to hand in dues and to the post office.  I made dinner and had it on the deck with Matzah who I had given a bath.  I read my new book.

Today it's raining which means that I will try to walk at The Home Depot with a mask of course. I'm getting my hair blown out also.

I'm still speaking to the 3 men that I met on the FaceBook dating site.  It's a lot of fun.  I feel like a pre-adolescent doing this but I am so enjoying it.

Thank you Almighty for this new day.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ADVENTURES IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the new adventures in my life.

Yesterday I hosted a Luncheon In The Driveway at my house.  I love doing that. Debbie and Doris came.  It was so much fun and in the middle of that I received a text from Charles setting up next Tuesday's lunch date.  I the evening I spoke to both Richard and Mark.  None of this is serious but since I never really experienced adolescence the normal way, I'm having fun now!!!!

The town came to get rid of the tree that fell down.  Remi FaceTimed me at that moment and I was delighted to show this to him!!!

Today I'm off to the dentist because my temporary inlay fell out.

I might stop at Hicks on the way home.

I might speak to Judith if her power goes back on.

Life is good.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful, calm, and quiet new day.

The storm is over!!!!!!

Trees are down all over town as I saw when I went out to dinner with friends last night but I was safe and I am thankful to the Almighty for this.

A fellow named Charles called me from the FaceBook dating site.  We were on the phone fo two hours last night and he will call me to arrange a lunch date next week.

Today Matzah is going to the veterinarian for a shot and a bath.

It's my turn to host a luncheon in the driveway.

Life is good and I'm grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY STRENGTH AND RESILENCE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my strength and resilience.

Today we are getting a Tropical storm with 70 mile an hour winds and rain.  There could even be tornadoes!!!!

Yesterday I brought all the light furniture and the plants from the deck into the house.  I went food shopping and mailed bills at the post office.

I am ready for the storm!!!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY DAILY WALK

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to be happy and healthy.

I try to take a walk daily either in the morning or evening for two hours.

My days are calm and quiet so that when I walk, I am able to appreciate nature.  This morning I heard the birds singing and watched the bunnies chasing each other. In another life, I had to have strategies for survival to keep me safe so that my mind could never focus on nature.

This morning I also watched gardeners as well as a tree pruning company prune a tree.  I had never seen things like this when I walked and I realized that I was walking later because I didn't have to escape from the house early so as not to hear the creature make his phone call.

So much in life has changed and I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR REST

I am grateful to the Almighty because I can finally rest if I choose to.

I slept until 10:30 and didn't have breakfast until close to 12:00.

I am spending the day just goofing off.

This is resting both my mind and body.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR GOING BACK TO SERVICES

I am grateful to the Almighty because I went back to services today at PJC.

The synagogue had opened in July BUT I wanted to see how things played out because two of the "regulars" had died of Covid 19.

I was happy to see the all CDC guidelines were followed.

I was so grateful to be back.

Thank you Almighty.