GRATEFUL FOR INTENTIONS #9-16

I am grateful to the Almighty for my strength, intelligence and fortitude.

This is going to be a very difficult week.  I am going out to the condo with him.  It's a very small place.   The memories there are not good ones.  The memories with him are definitely not good one culminating in July 31, 2012.

I am going to have to use everything that I have learned in yoga to keep myself safe.

This is why this is titled, Intentions 9-16.  There is one for each day.

June 30 (Sunday)-  I will smile as I practice stillness.

July 1   (Monday)-  I will be calm and quiet.

July 2   (Tuesday)-  I will be peaceful.

July 3   (Wednesday)-  I will focus on breathe.

July 4   (Thursday)-  I will focus on the fact that I am almost free.

July 5   (Friday)-  I will focus on listening before I speak.

July 6   (Saturday)-  I will focus on pride because I'm almost there.

July 7   (Sunday)-  I will focus on happiness.  I made it!  I'm back.

I don't know if I will remember all of these in this order.  But, I need to constantly remember stillness, and listening before I speak.

I will be fine.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to figure this out.

GRATEFUL FOR INTENTION #8 LET GO OF THOUGHTS THAT GIVE YOU APPREHENSION. THEY ARE ONLY THOUGHTS!

Thank you Almighty for the fact that I went to a Restorative Yoga class yesterday and heard Dawn say,  " Let go of thoughts that give you apprehension.  They are only thoughts."

Many times, I am careful, thinking of what he could say to me and how I would react.  It is time to be aware of this and give that up.

Today is Shabbos and I'm off to services.  Services are a part of my weekend that make my heart sing.

Later, I will walk and finish packing for the condo.  I am looking forward to this vacation because I know exactly what to say or not and how to act.


I am grateful to the Almighty for this!!

GRATEFUL FOR INTENTION #7 CALM AND QUIET

I am grateful to the Almighty for todays INTENTION # 7,  entitled CALM AND QUIET.

I am looking forward to a wonderful day filled with activities to make my heart soar. 

It has stopped raining and I will be able to walk for my usual 2 hours.

Then I'm going to take NOT ONE but TWO YOGA CLASSES.

More later..........................

The day was perfect and I definitely was CALM and QUIET.

Both yoga classes (RESTORATIVE AND LEVEL 1) were awesome.  I did well in both.

I came home to take Matzah with him to PETCO to be groomed.

We made a wrong turn on the way to a jewelry store where he wants to buy me a ring and found an Italian restaurant that I have been talking about.  He parked incorrectly and was hit in the bumper by a little old lady who did not want to give up her insurance.  HE CALLED 911.  I found myself texting my friends as I watched him in action.  I definitely maintained todays intention of being CALM and QUIET.

We purchased a beautiful ring.

We are now going to get the doggie.

Thank you Almighty, for helping me to set a CALM and QUIET intention.

I certainly needed it today.

GRATEFUL FOR SILENCE

I am grateful to the Almighty that I discussed silence before my vacation started.

If I didn't do that and I didn't know him for what he was,  I would be upset.  Instead, I'm upset at myself for how easy my life could have been and how easy it is now.

Today, was our anniversary, or as I think about it, "A DAY THAT WILL LIVE IN IMFAMY." I'm glad that I felt that way because after saying , "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY," and me saying, "YOU TOO," it was forgotten.

Today was also the day that my mother died on the Jewish calendar.   I went to services, alone, of course.  Then when I came home, he was watching television.  I got a "HELLO."  I went upstairs to read.

He didn't say a word.  Neither did I.

This s a new strategy.  Eventually, I'm supposed to react to silence and then he can carry on with me. 

Last summer he carried on about my friends and on July 31 I had had enough.

He's got a new strategy and he's trying.

He will fail like everything else he has done.

I am glad that the Almighty had shown me yoga and I have earned about silence.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE LEARNED!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that he has taught me.

The house is quiet.  He is doing his Thursday cleaning.

I walked for 2 hours on this beautiful day.

I went to Dunkin' Donuts for coffee.

I read both The NY Times and NY Newsday.

I will do some work on the computer, read my book and then get hi-lights in my hair.

It is so blissfully peaceful here.  It is so because I am still.

Thank you, Almighty for what I have learned.

Later Update!!!!   My hi-lights are absolutely awesome.  I love them.  And I love this day where I gave myself,  shanti, peace, calmness and serenity.  I  even finished my computer work.  I organized all my Passover lists.  

I'm proud of myself!!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for another wonderful day!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR INTENTION #6

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful day that I had yesterday.

I am also grateful for Intention #6.

Yesterday, I attended the Yoga Book Club and had a wonderful time.  I was welcomed back by many of the ladies who attend regularly as they know that I work full time.  The book discussed, The Golem and the Jinnie was excellent and lunch was delicious.

Then it was off to the annual eye doctor checkup which was a good one.

I set Intention # 6 because I observed conversation with him yesterday.  I tried talking to him about the children and about the condo.  I noted that he ran in circles.  Whatever I said, he said the opposite of.  He reversed himself many times.  I believe now that he put the money in the bank and will not buy a new condo.  I believe that he will continue to bitch about the old one.  He is trying to be frustrating to see where that will take him.  It will take him nowhere.

INTENTION # 6 is to be careful about what I say.  It tells me to think before I speak.  It reminds me to observe and absorb before I say anything.  It tells me to re-phrase what he has said and repeat it.

Thank you Almighty for yesterday.  Thank you also for the insight for INTENTION #6.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR INTENTION #5

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me INTENTION #5.

Each day, I set an intention.   That certainly helps me to structure the day with him and be safe.  Yesterday's intention was wonderful.  I did exercise caution  (intention #4) in everything that I said to him.

However, I began to feel that the condo and it's people will be the new control area this summer. I don't want it to turn into the daily discussion.  That will eventually make me loose patience and that is what he wants.

INTENTION #5 is taken directly from yoga.   I intend to LET GO everything that he has said with a smile and then BE SILENT.  

INTENTION #5 is to LET GO...........and BE QUIET in conversations with him.



Last night, I took an incredible RESTORATIVE YOGA CLASS.  Today, I'm walking early because I am going to the YOGA BOOK CLUB and then to the eye doctor.

Thank you, Almighty for INTENTION #5.  It has structured my day.

Namaste!!!!