I MADE IT THROUGH THE RAIN!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I made it through the rain.

I am proud of my accomplishments.  I have let go of my disappointments.  I have learned that it is not always necessary to speak.  I am so proud of me.

I am grateful to the Almighty because He made this happen for me.  He has always been there for me.

Today I went to services with a sense of pride and joy.  Everyone was delighted that my older one is engaged.  I'm glad that she knows who her father is.

I came home to text, talk to friends, walk and read, not necessarily in that order.

I home to take the dog to the park.

I have joy!!!  I have energy!!  I will have a good day.

Thank you, Almighty for always being there for me.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new life that I have just begun to live.

It is amazing.

I walked for two hours early early in the morning because I could!!!!    Then I attended not 1 but 2 yoga classes, Restorative and a wonderful Level 1 class. I bought my challah for Shabbos and did assorted other errands.   I just finished breakfast with DD coffee.  I really read both newspapers.

Now I'm on my way to get a manicure/pedicure.  I'm very excited.  This is a vacation.

The situation between him and his daughter is not good.   The boyfriend was upset at how rude he was.  Although he apologized I'm sure that my daughter now understands what a father he is.  The beautiful thing is that it isn't my problem and he is left having to apologize to someone he dislikes.   All I can do is smile and enjoy my life.

More later...................................

I missed a surprise retirement breakfast thrown by the curriculum supervisor because I took today off.  I was sad about that but I really need to burn out some days.

I called friends to tell them of my daughter's engagement.

He is trying so hard to have a confrontation with me and is failing because I am usin my cute little voice.  I'm proud of me.

It will be Shabbos soon.  I have made a delicious dinner.

Tonight I will read my book.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.  It is amazing.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH AND JOY

I am grateful to the Almighty because he has made me a strong woman.   I am grateful because I am experiencing such joy in my life.

It is going to be difficult being around him as I saw yesterday.   The thought even crossed my mind that I had made a mistake in retiring.  Then I quickly perished the thought.   He is what he is.  I did not discuss his temper tantrum in Apple because that would have given him much more fuel.  I just concentrated on my joys.

That's the way it will be.

I joyfully took home a new laptop that was paid for by me!!!!  I signed up for lessons!!!   I'm proud of me!!!!!

I did get to read my book and now I'm busy reading, for Great Books, for the Yoga Book Club and for Sisterhood.

The day is beautiful and I will walk when I get home.

The older daughter did get engaged.  I get an "A" for acting.  He told me that he feels like dying.  His life didn't work out.   I can't tell you how happy I am because now he can't bully and his little princess has escaped!!!!

Life is good and I am embracing it.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR ANOTHER "VACATION DAY"

I am grateful to the Almighty because I took anther "vacation day" off.  

It is getting so that the supervisors clap when they see me at work.

This is my accomplishment.  I have had a wonderful career.  I will get a nice pension, Social Security and then I will enjoy my own life.

I had a brief thought when I heard of the tragedy that perhaps I should not have retired. However, I always used a school, even as a child to hide in.  It's time to move on and change.  I will take baby steps and learn to do this.  It's time to enjoy my own life!!!  It's time to give up the false dreams that I created!!!!!

Today I will walk even though its dreary outside and looks like rain.  I will attend my Yoga Book Club.  My intention today is to purchase a new computer.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this "vacation day."  

I will succeed.  I will move on and have my own joyful life.

Thank you, Almighty.

Later-  The boyfriend called to ask if he received the e-mail to marry her.  He says that the was nasty to bf.  He certainly was in a miserable mood today.  He even yelled at me and I smile as I write this, because do you think that I care???   
              
             My Yoga Book Club was wonderful.   AND I BOUGHT A NEW LAPTOP for over $2000.  I didn't bat an eyelash.  My first lesson is Sunday at 5PM.  I'm proud of me.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this wonderful day!!!

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO LET IT GO IN YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty for learning to LET IT GO in yoga.

The news of a wedding shocked me.  I couldn't help thinking of all the rotten memories that I have of her.  Now this!!!!  I was up a lot saying my mantras.

I realized that this does not concern me at all.  I let go of her years ago after she decided that other families, other mothers, other religions were more suitable for her.  She was only good at having me pay for things that the others had.  The man she will mary has no real job.  It is my job to make sure that I am not the money man.

Since I never had her it will be simpler to let go.  I will not create a dream like I did with him.  There is no basis of reality to this.  It is only in my mind.

I have decided to detach and not discuss it at all.

I am grateful to the Almighty for bringing me to a place where I learned how to let go.

GRATEFUL THAT SHE GOT HERS

I am grateful to the Almighty because what goes around comes around.

It looks like the boyfriend wants to marry her.  He sent him an e-mail asking permission.  What a joke!!!  They live together.  It's putting the cart before the horse.  He is upset.  I don't give a damn for many reasons.  She was a rotten child and an even worse rotten teenager.  All she did was break my heart and now she will get hers.

Thank you Almighty.

What goes around comes around.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL TO THE ALMIGHTY

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of my blessings.

I had a wonderful four, yes four day weekend.  I did so many wonderful things.  I have a sense of accomplishment, joy and inner peace.   I made it through the rain.  I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

He doesn't say anything joyful or positive and I realized the reasons for this.  His victim has escaped.  I no longer react to anything negative that he says.  He tries to create fear (I could wind up on dialysis if I eat that), negativity (Lets's do this except, lets not....) sadness ( No good morning).   All of these are facts but I go about my business with a smile.  We have no pleasant memories to talk about.  There is none of the, "remember when we did that"?  For me the memories are all negative.  Remember when you made me cry, you cursed my family, you insulted me..............?

I am celebrating myself.  I survived. I'm proud of me.  I made it through the rain.  

As far as the condo goes, he has a problem.  He is paying all the bills and needs to find another one.   The people screwing him are just like him.  He has met his match. This is not my problem.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life, my blessings, my joys, my goodness and gladness. The Almighty has been there for me.

Today, I went to work. Tomorrow I will take off.  They know that I am burning out days.  I will read the last book for Great Books.  I will walk.  I will go to my Restorative Yoga Class.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.