GRATEFUL THAT THE ALMIGHTY IS IN MY LIFE

I am so grateful that the Almighty is in my life.

Who else would I share my deepest thoughts with??????

I did not get a good nights sleep last night because of his "JEFF COMMENTS".  He is waiting for me to answer him back so he can start something.   I have learned to be silent but he will never give up.  He is a very emotionally disturbed individual.   Sometimes, it's tough for me because I am a talker, but I know that answering him back serves no purpose except to give him joy and pleasure as he seeks to make me as miserable as he is.

I'm going to LET IT GO this morning!!!!

I love my new hair.  Nick and Louis worked their magic again.

My NYS Teacher and Lincoln Hall pensions  arrived.

I'm going to walk and then take, NOT ONE BUT TWO YOGA CLASSES.

I will  have DD coffee as I read the newspapers.

I will read my new book.

Today, we are leaving for the condo.   My intention is TO BE.

I am happy to be going.  I know that with the Almighty's guidance, I will have a wonderful time.

Thank you, Almighty for always being there for me.

I am grateful!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ACCEPTING THAT PEOPLE DON'T CHANGE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have finally learned that people don't change.

I came home from having my hair colored and hi- lights added.

We were going out to dinner and he saw Jeff in his driveway. He tried many times to make nasty comments about him, but I have grown up and I continued to do as my father did before me, CHANGE THE SUBJECT.   He brought the same comment up many times and FAILED!!!!

I knew that he was the same person and that there would be NO CHANGES.  

I am grateful to the Almighty because he has allowed me to grow up, not speak, change subjects and know what I am dealing with.  I imagine that he hoped that with wine I would mellow.

I am so beyond that!!!!!

Thank you Almighty for helping me to  see that people don't change.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joy that I have in my new life.

Each day brings me wonderful things to do.

I am very happy and content.

Thank you, Almighty for my new life.

GRATEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING THE NATURE OF WAVES

I am grateful to the Almighty because I attended Leslie's yoga class where she talked about being able to ride the waves of life.

You have made this possible for me and for that I am grateful.

I am having an amazing summer.  I am doing everything that I have ever wanted to do. Most of these things I do with friends, or meet up with friends or do alone.  I am loving it all.

Last night, I again served dinner outside on the deck.  I loved it.  Then I went to my Restorative Yoga class where Dawn spoke of understanding that life is always in transition and one must learn to cope.  That's what I needed to hear BECAUSE while sitting on the deck he let it be known that he was none too happy to go to the condo in the Fall.   I regrouped and I realized that he thought that he held something over me.  HE DIDN'T because I began to think of Fall activities at home and I made the transition myself.

I am learning to ride the waves of life happily and contentedly.

I started another book for yet another book club.   Did I tell you that today is my Yoga Book Club for lunch and then my Sisterhood Book Club for dinner?  

This morning I will walk and get DD coffee with the newspapers.

After the Yoga Book Club, I will go to Fresh Market and buy some items for the condo.  We are leaving Friday and won't be back until next Thursday.   I am celebrating my retirement in Westhampton.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to become the person that I now am.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy in my new life.

I am doing so many wonderful things and enjoying them all.  Soon it will be the day after Labor Day.   I WON'T BE GOING TO WORK!!!!!

Today my plan, as usual is to walk, purchase DD coffee and to read the newspapers.

I am going to an AFTERNOON BOOK CLUB!!!  When was I ever able to do that???

I'm going to go to the pool too.

Tonight, I have my Restorative Yoga Class.

Life is good.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful for the joys in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR THE DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty that I woke up healthy and happy on a beautiful day.

The vacation was a huge success.  Since yoga came in to my life, thanks to the Almighty, I have been very happy.  We will leave again on Thursday for another week at the condo.  My dream is to be there AFTER LABOR DAY because I DO NOT HAVE TO WORK EVER AGAIN!!!!!

This morning, I will walk.

I need to call Social Security to see when my direct deposit is coming.

I will take a yoga class.

I will have DD coffee with the newspapers and read my book.

I'm thinking of going to the pool.

I need to make a mani/pedi appointment too!!!!

I think that we will eat on the deck tonight.

Such are the simple dreams of mine on a beautiful Monday.

Thank you, Almighty for my life.

I am grateful!!!!!

I AM GRATEFUL

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am back from Westhampton and it was a success!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am in love with each new day!!!

We haven't left for the condo yet.

However, this morning I was able to walk over 2 1/2 hours listening to Billy Joel.  I met up with him and was able to walk Matzah who was delighted to see me.

I went to DD to buy coffee and the paper and I took the doggie with me.

I'm doing laundry and have started my new book.

We will leave later.  I'm all packed.

Thank you, Almighty for this day.

GRATEFUL FOR A VACATION

I am grateful to the Almighty because we will be going on a "mini vacation" to Westhampton from Tuesday through Sunday.

I am looking forward to this.

I will write when I return.

I know how to let go of that which doesn't serve me.

I am looking forward to a lovely vacation.

Thank you, Almighty for this gift.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

I am trying very hard to focus ONLY on the day in front of me.

The past will bring me anger, sadness, and depression.   The future will give me anxiety.

I am grateful to the Almighty for allowing me to see my retirement and to enjoy it.

Thank you Almighty!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

I am calm, content and happy.   I am trying very hard to be in charge of my own mind so that I can let go of that which doesn't serve me.

I am grateful to the Almighty for making this happen for me.

Thank you, Almighty!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SHABBOS

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is the Sabbath.

It is a time for me to thank the Almighty for all the good in my life.

Thank you Almighty for this Sabbath.

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

Last night we went to see Jeff Dunham and his puppets at Westbury.  They were all wonderful and we couldn't stop laughing.

Today, I will walk early because I have not one, but two yoga classes.

My intention is to go to the pool today.

As usual, I will read, and drink DD coffee as I read the newspapers.

I also need to catch up with my book.

Tonight is the Sabbath.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

GRATEFUL TO BE HOME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am home.

We had two major fights in Westhampton.  I know that it solved absolutely nothing, but it allowed me to express myself.   I finally had to explain, as if he didn't know, why Linda and Rhonnie are in my life.  He refuses to accept any responsibility for what he did and he never will.  I needed to say this to get the "trash" out of my box.  The second fight had to do with Hilary and Dana and the way that they messed up our lives. These fights changed nothing I'm sure.  But, they did clear trash out of a box that I have been carrying around for over two years.

I chose not to run around this time at the condo.  Payback for the circus or A Midsummer's Nights Dream????   Probably.   I read, swam and walked at the condo.

I am glad to be home.

I have a life here with activities and friends to do them with.

Today, I will walk.  I will attend a yoga class.  I will drink DD coffee with the newspapers. I will read my new book.  I have a memory workshop to attend.  We are going to see Jeff Dunham tonight at Westbury.

I am glad to be home.

GRATEFUL

I am grateful to the Almighty because tonight is the Sabbath and tomorrow I will be going to services.

I will be taking a mini-vacation to our condo.

I am grateful to the Almighty that I can do this and will blog when I return.

HAPPINESS

I am grateful to the Almighty because there is happiness in my new life.

Yesterday, he came to the film, "Goodbye Mr. Chips," with me.  We also went out to dinner.  He came to my end of summer, "Title Swap" also.  In the past, I would have decided that means that he is changing and sees the light.  I was happy that I have become realistic and just decided that he wanted something to do.

Today, I will walk.  Then I will attend not one, but two yoga classes.  I will go to the pool also.  I will read too.

I am also packing to get away to the condo from Saturday night until Wednesday.  I have no expectations of him, but I could use the vacation.

Tonight is the Sabbath.  Tomorrow I will go to services.

The Almighty has helped me to create happiness in my life and for this I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING CALM

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am feeling very calm.

My new life is amazing.

Yesterday, after going to the pool,  I came home, showered, set up dinner and went to a yoga class.  After dinner, there was time to watch a Netflix film. This was happening because I was calm, quiet and did not respond to bantering or idiotic comments if they should arrive.

This morning, I am up early to walk.  There will be DD with the newspapers.  I have a yoga class at eleven.

I'm coming home for lunch and going to see the film, "Goodbye, Mr. Chips" and a discussion of that film under the title, "The British Influence," with film historian Philip Harwood,  at the Syosset Library.

Dinner is at La Piazza.  

Then The Adult Summer Reading Club of Plainview is hosting its end of summer "Title Swap," and I am a participant.

I am grateful to the Almighty because he has made me understand what I deal with and taught me to be calm and enjoy my new life.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PEACE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace in my life.

It is already August!   Where did the time fly??  I guess that this is what happens when you feel peaceful. and I do.

I look forward to each day and I smile.  I have friends to do things with.  I enjoy what I do.  I know how to handle myself with him.  What more can I ask?

I did go to the pool yesterday and I met up with a friend.  He came later and sat in the shade reading the paper.  He knew who my friend was but nothing else.  I did not encourage more. I did it by silence.

Last nights book discussion was wonderful.  I got to talk to book club friends who are happy that I am happy in retirement.

Today, I will walk.  I will drink DD coffee with the newspapers.  I will read. Depending on the weather, I might go to the pool.

Tonight,  I have a yoga class.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace in my life.

GRATEFUL TO BE HAPPY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am happy.

There were so many days that I awoke nervous and fearful, not because of myself, but because of what others were doing to me.

Since I decided, with the help of the Almighty, that life belongs to me, I have been very happy.

This morning, I will walk.  Then I will go to DD for coffee and read the newspapers. I will read my book.   I am going to the pool today.  It's beautiful!!!!

Tonight I have a book discussion to attend.

I am grateful for the happiness in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR THE DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy and happy and about to begin another wonderful day.

Dana came yesterday and I treated both of us to manicures and pedicures.  She also got her eyebrows done.  She did not go out to dinner with us because she had a bad stomach having used the NutraBullet too much.

He and I went to Freeport and enjoyed the sunset, dinner and ice cream.  This was my designated cheat day as I had gone to Weight Watchers yesterday.

I had a wonderful 4 days even though we didn't go out east.  In many ways, it was better as I got to do things I hadn't ever done before.  I can't say the same for him.

Today is a beautiful day.  I will walk as usual and stop at PJC to pay my synagogue dues.

DD coffee and the newspapers will come next.

I am having lunch with friends and going to a book discussion.  I might go to the pool also.

I am having dinner with another friend.

This is a wonderful day.

I am thankful to the Almighty for this day.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joy in my life.

I am having a wonderful time.

Last night, I finished the book for the Yoga Book Club.  It was an amazing read.  I was totally focused on this book and he couldn't bother me with his nonsense.  I was even able to download another book for the Sisterhood Book Club.

This morning, I walked for two hours on a cloudy, drizzly morning.  But, it was such fun.  I took a Level 1 Yoga class after that and did some errands.

I went to Weight Watchers and did my weigh-in for the month.

Now I will have DD coffee with the newspapers.

Later I have an appointment for a mani/pedi. My biggest problem is what color to do.

Dinner I'm sure will be an issue and I'm smiling as I type this.  Anything that he is involved in is an issue.  However, the power of quiet is amazing!!!!!

Thank you Almighty for the joy in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR BREAKING DOWN WALLS

I am grateful to the Almighty because with His help, I have torn down walls.

I took a Level 1 Yoga class yesterday.  The theme was how walls can help or hurt us, assist us and support us or stop us from experiencing life.  Every pose was done near or with the wall behind us.

It suddenly dawned on me that I have torn down a wall.  It was a wall that kept me safe for many years but now because I am the "new me," I no longer need that wall.  By this, I mean, work.  For years I hid be hid the wall at school, fearful of staying home because of him.  In the last two years (since July 31, 2012), I have been slowly tearing down the wall.

On June 27th 2014, I was free of work.  The amazing thing is that this date was my anniversary and now it is officially my last day of work.   I was free to experience my own life.   On July 31st 2014, I received my first direct deposit.  The amazing thing is that this date was the two year anniversary of the day the relationship died.

Isn't it amazing how the Almighty chose those two dates???

Isn't it amazing that walls have broken down and I can enjoy my life??

Thank you, Almighty for this gift.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW QUIET

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new quiet in my life.

It was never quiet before.  I answered everything that he said and he had a grand time baiting me.  Now it's quiet.  Although I hear the bait, I am non-emotional and never respond.  I am quick to change the topic and that must upset him terribly.  He can never get me.

This has allowed me to have many new experiences.  I have time to enjoy my life.  Last night after dinner, I continued to listen to my audio book.  I'm reading a wonderful book for the yoga book club.  I find time to call friends, old and new and make plans.

Today because he wouldn't go to the Hamptons, I'm going to services and will continue like that for the remainder of the summer. I will hang out with friends at kiddish.   It's not what he wanted, but he created the situation.  I'm excited to see friends.

I will walk, read and enjoy the Sabbath.

Thank you, Almighty, for the new quiet.

GRATEFUL FOR EXCITEMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new excitement in my life.

Every day I wake up like a child excited about the day and the adventures that I will have.

Yesterday Matzah came home from grooming and looked wonderful.  I made dinner and then decided to listen to the audio book that I took out of the library. Audio learning has NEVER been my strength and I've decided to work on it.

My new book for the Yoga Book Club is awesome.

I'm going to walk soon and then take both a Restorative and Level 1 Yoga Class. I'm going to the library to hear a lecture entitled:  BROOKLYN BRIDGE FOREVER: A MONUMENT OF STONE AND STEEL.   Afterwards I'm going to the pool.

Today is Shabbos and we are home.  He was very quiet yesterday.  He says that he realized that he made a mistake staying home.  I don't think so.  I believe that it was the circus or the Shakespeare play.  He didn't realize that where ever I land, I enjoy.  He does nothing except try to find things to say to upset me.  He's failing!!!!

It works for me to stay home this weekend.  I have many things that I can do.  I have sen invited the younger daughter on Sunday to go for a mani/pedi which I was doing anyway.

Thank you, Almighty for all my new adventures.

I am grateful.