GRATEFUL FOR A PEACEFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life as a single woman.

Everyday is peaceful.

Yesterday was the Sabbath.  I attended services and friends commented that I was eating at kiddish as they were.  I felt very relaxed.  I came home to walk because I wanted to not because I needed to get away from anyone.  I cleaned the house and sat on the deck drinking wine and watching wild life and the sky.  I have never done that.  It was beyond peaceful.  I am so grateful fr the calmness, peace and quiet.

Today I will practice yoga,  walk and head to the pool.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace in my life.

I can breathe deeply!!!

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A DETERMINED WILL

I am grateful to the Almighty because He have me a strong will to get through adversity.

I was able to overcome my abusers because I am a strong and determined woman will a great deal of will.  I have a great idea of potential.

Yesterday was a lovely day.  I meditated.  I practiced yoga.  I walked.  I read.  I got my hair blown out and I got a manicure with new colors.

Today I will attend services and breathe.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful to you for saving me.

GRATEFUL FOR PRACTICING YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practice yoga and it enhances my mind body and spirit.

It keeps me centered.  It keeps me balanced.  It begins my day with joy.

Yesterday was a wonderful day.

I had  really good eye checkup with Dr. LoPinto.

I walked to the doctor and home from the doctor.

I practiced yoga.

I went food shopping.

I went to the pool.

I picked up my butterfly necklace from Marc Solomon.

I took myself out to dinner at Pasteria.

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am centered and grounded because of yoga.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR SEEING THE BEAUTY IN THE WORLD

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to become very calm internally and as a result I am able to see the beauty in the world.

I am calm when I practice Meditation.  I am alert and calm when I practice yoga.

I am especially alert to the beauty of this world when I walk.

It's because my life is calm.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful for the calmness in my life.

GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE POWER OVER MY MIND

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga yesterday and Hollie, the instructor, spoke of the strength that we all have.

We have power over our minds.

That made a tremendous impact upon me.  As I strive to remain in the present, I will also strive to have power over my mind and begin to have control and banish those things that aren't worth thinking about.

Today I will practice meditation at the center.  I've made it to Level 4.  Then I will practice yoga and have lunch with the yogis.  Therapy with Judith will follow.

I hope to be able to walk too.

I love my new life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING CENTERED AND BALANCED

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga in Leslie's class yesterday.  She spoke of being centered and balance in order to achieve a calm and peaceful life.

I am grateful that I have achieved this since my abusers are gone.

Yesterday was so much fun.  Dom and Maria came to take stock of my finances.  I purchased a butterfly from Marc Solomon which I won't wear until Thursday the infamous day of June 27th.  Butterflies are free and he paid for it!!  I practiced yoga.  I practiced meditation.  I walked for an hour and a half.  I texted friends.  I made baked chicken for dinner.  I read.

Life is good.

Today I will practice yoga and go to the dentist.  Hopefully all will be well.  I also spoke to Dom about sheltering more money so that I don't get hit with such high taxes.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR CALM AND QUIET

I am grateful to the Almighty because my life has become calm, quiet and beautiful.

Yesterday I practiced yoga in Doreen's class.  I walked for 1 1/2 hours at the end of the day. No longer do I have to get up at the crack of dawn to walk to be safe and secure.  I got weighed at Weight Watchers and gained weight.  My system is calming down.  I got the car washed, purchased new sneakers and went food shopping.  I was able to lay out for an hour in the sun.  I had wine on the deck.  I ate the rest of the salad/salmon from Pasteria.  I even ate cookies because I was weighed yesterday.

Today I will practice yoga and go to the Plainview Meditation Center.  Dom is coming at one.  I will walk.   I intend to buy myself a butterfly necklace because I am free.   I will watch the landscaper in our backyards work on Keith and Rene's and my lawn.  We are creating one giant lawn.  The fellow creating my Zen Garden comes next week!!!

I'm loving life thanks to the Almighty.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the calm and quiet in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR ENJOYING THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am in the moment and enjoying the moment.

Yesterday, I was exhausted after the stomach virus and the diarrhea that I had so I stayed home from services and rested and relaxed.  I sat outside quietly with a glass of wine and listened to my breathe and the peace and quiet of my new world.

Today I will practice yoga, walk and go food shopping.  I'm even going to Weight Watchers and to get the truck washed.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE LIHT INSIDE ME

I am grateful to the Almighty for the light that shines inside me.

Yesterday was the Summer Solstice.  I practiced yoga at the studio celebrating the Summer Solstice.

Leslie spoke about the light that is shining inside all of us.

I am grateful to the Almighty for that light.  Sometimes because of the difficult life that I have had, the light is hard to find but then it comes back.

I pray that there will always be a light inside me.

Today I took an R&R day from going to services.  That stomach virus knocked me for a loop and I had some triggers that I needed to get over.  I'm going to "BE" today.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE PRESENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I live in the present.

The present is all we have.

Today I'm practicing yoga in the morning at Leslie's class.  In the afternoon I'm going practice yoga at the studio because today is the Summer Solstice!!!!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE PRESENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I went to therapy and Kyra my nurse-practioner ws upset that I was reading a book on psychological abuse because she said that it brings you to the PAST and you need to be in the PRESENT.

I made myself a promise to stay in the present.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR ACCEPTANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to accept my new life.

Acceptance allows me to forge forward on a new path.

Yesterday I practiced yoga.  Kathleen finished the Ganesh Mural and it is beautiful. Ganesh stands for OVERCOMING OBSTACLES AND NEW BEGINNINGS. That is what I have done and each time I see Ganesh, thats what I feel.

 I went to Fairway and completed my purchases for tomorrows Sisterhood Book Club at my home.  I snuck in a 45 minutes walk before the next deluge of rain. Later on I snuck in an extra hour. I'm proud of me.  I attended the last Sisterhood Board Meeting of the year.

Today I will practice yoga in Margaret's class.  I'm going to the Yoga Book Club and hosting the Sisterhood Book Club.  I will be going out to both lunch and dinner.

Big Fun!!!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABUNDANCE OF JOY IN MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the abundance of joy in my new life.

Each day is filled with wonderful things to do.  Yesterday I was treated to lunch by a friend who's birthday it was.  I practiced yoga.  I spoke to friends.  Kathleen is almost finished with the mural.   I did some chores.  I finished my book for the Sisterhood Book Club and went to Trader Joe's because I am hosting the book club in my home.

Today I will practice yoga.  Kathleen is finishing up today.  I have a Sisterhood Board meeting tonight.

Dana's pregnancy is going well.  God willing Im getting a second grandchild.

Thank you Almighty for the abundance of joy in my life.  

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful new life that He has given me.

Yesterday, June 16th I took Plainview Cab to Brooklyn to celebrate Dana's 40th birthday with her....which is today!!!  I thank the Almighty for her.  It was a wonderful day.  I am so grateful that she has found Seth and I hope that they will always be happy.  I know if he were alive he would have spoiled everything and destroyed me.  It was the right time that the Almighty chose to take him and I am grateful.

Today I will practice yoga.  My artist friend Kathleen is coming to work on my mural.  I will be going out to lunch to celebrate my friend Zita's birthday.

Thank you Almighty for my wonderful calm, quiet and serene new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-LOVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to learn how strong and resilient I am and I can begin to love myself.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE PRESENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I chose to live in the present.

That's all we have.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR "LET IT GO"

I am grateful to the Almighty because through practicing yoga I have learned to understand the concept of "LET IT GO."

I practiced yoga yesterday and the instructor explained how when we LET GO THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE US we have more space in our mind an body for joy and happiness.

This is what I have been feeling.  

I went to the dentist after yoga yesterday so that Dr. Kurtz could check my new night guard.  I took myself to to lunch with a wonderful glass of Pino Grigio.  I bought a case of wine and went to buy SUN FLOWERS and groceries at Fairway.  The significance of sun flowers that I love was that my abuser knew this and never wanted to plant them.  They are now in my kitchen in the vase that Dana and Seth gave me with flowers for Mother's Day.

I went out to dinner with friends.

Today was a lovely day also.  I practiced yoga, got my hair blown out and did a variety of chores.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you!

GRATEFUL FOR ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES

I am grateful to the Almighty for the endless possibilities that life has in store for me.

Yesterday Kathleen came and worked on the mural in the Yoga Room.  It's going to be awesome!!!!!

I'm creating a Zen Garden.

I went to practice Meditation and Yoga.  I walked.  I read.  I got my nails done.

I have friends and activities.  Friends are entertained in my home.  Tonight I am going out to dinner with 3 other friends.  I'm looking forward to it.

Life is wonderful.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you!!

GRATEFUL FOR SELF-CARE IN MIND, BODY AND SPIRIT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am learning how to take care of my mind, body and spirit.

Yesterday I practiced yoga.  I had lunch with my Sisterhood friends and we all went to a book discussion at the library.  My friend Karen and I had made dinner plans for the evening. We went to Pasteria. 

I also had an appointment with a landscaper from Hicks to create a Zen Garden.  I'm extremely excited about this because it will be my Meditation Center at home.

Today is a busy day.  Kathleen is coming to paint the mural of Ganesh in my new Yoga Room.  My furniture will be coming in July!!!!  I will practice meditation and yoga.  I'm getting my nails done and I have a Ritual Committee in the evening.

I love my new life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MOVING FORWARD

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to move forward in my life.

Yesterday was a rainy day so I decided to walk at The Home Depot.  I haven't done that in months and I could see how different I was.  Walking at The Home Depot was a part of my life. It was an escape from my abuser.  It was a sorry little life that I led and I pushed that to the back of my mind always so that I couldn't find it.    I am not that person anymore.  I just saw walking there as exercise before I went to meditation.

Today is a busy day.  Karen is coming and we are going to have dinner together.  A landscaper from Hicks is coming at 4 because I am planning to put a Zen garden in the backyard.  I'm going to practice yoga as well as have lunch with my Sisterhood friends before our library book discussion.  I'm busy with Kathleen too.  Tomorrow she works on my Ganesh mural.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to move on.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PEACE AND QUIET IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace and quiet in my life.

I can breathe.  I can be.

Yesterday I did not attend services.  I woke up at 6AM but because I had gone to the study session until 11PM the night before, I was really tired and I went back to sleep until 8AM.
I was NEVER able to do that while my abusers walked the Earth.  The mother would force me to get up and I was so afraid of the creature that I devised a strategy to leave the house early to walk.

Now the house has become my home.  I ate a leisurely breakfast.  I read the papers and my book and I walked for 2 hours.

Today I will be attending services for the second day of the Shovout holiday.  I will come home to enjoy the peace and quiet in my life.  I don't think that I will be able to walk so I can just "be."

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A CALM DAY

I am so grateful to the Almighty because yesterday, the Sabbath, I experienced a really calm day.

Services were wonderful and when I came home I read the newspaper.  I walked and came home to play with Matzah on the deck and drink a glass of wine.   I HAVE NEVER DONE ANY OF THIS ON A SABBATH!!!!  I am so grateful to the Almighty for giving me this feeling of calmness and serenity.

I went to the service in the evening because it was the beginning of the Shavouth holiday.  There was a speaker, a dinner and a service.  It was absolutely wonderful.

Today I didn't go to services.  I slept late because I was tired.  I realized that I had never allowed myself the luxury of sleeping late.  As a child, the abusive mother would be furious if I slept late and I trained myself not to ever.  The abusive husband would love to carry on with me so I walked early to avoid him.

It's going to be hard because I'm older but I'm going to have to re-train myself.

Today will be a day of peace and calm.  Tomorrow I will attend services.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING FREE LIKE A BIRD

I am grateful to the Almighty because yesterday after I practiced meditation I went to Absolute Yoga and practiced yoga in Leslie's class.

She spoke of birds and all the freedoms that they have.  The poses that we did dealt with birds.  I was amazed because both my therapists had spoken of the fact that I was now free.  I had no concept of freedom.  It's as though I was a slave after the Civil War and during Reconstruction I was told that I was free.  Many slaves stayed in the South becoming tenant farmers when the Carpetbaggers and Scalewagers came South because they had no concept of freedom.  That was me.

It's no longer February 12, 2018.  My abusers are dead and I am free.  It is an amazing feeling as I awaken to a new day and don't have to ever again plan strategies to keep me safe.  I can just be and plan what I will do.

When I wake up, as I am now, I smile because I make the decisions and they are always good ones.  In my mind, I can hear what my abusers would say and then I smile because I'm free.

Tonight is our Shavout dinner.  I always went alone and never knew if I was married, divorced or a widow.  

Now I'm me and free and single.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR SEEING THE BEAUTY IN THE WORLD

I am grateful to the Almighty because each day that I wake up I see the beauty in the world.

I thought about this as I walked yesterday.  I happened because my mind is clear, calm and serene.

I can see the world in all its beauty.  I can hear the sounds of the world.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A CLEAR MIND

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to clear my mind of worthless information that I have stored there.

This is helping me to have new experiences.

It is for this that I am grateful.

Last night I had dinner in a new place with two newish friends.  Tonight I'm having dinner with Margie.

My artist friend Kathleen is coming to begin the mural in the Yoga Room.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE MIRACLES IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the miracles in my life.

Each day I wake up healthy and happy and breathe.

Yesterday I went back to babysitting Remi.  I had a wonderful time playing ball with him and seeing his smile and looking at him laugh.

I attended the final Sisterhood meeting of the year.  The band was wonderful.

I was able to walk and practice yoga.

Each of these things is a true miracle to me as I come back to my house which has a wonderful doggie named Matzah and peace, quiet and serenity.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new life that He has given me.

It is a balanced life filled with WORK, PLAY and lots of JOY.

Chores get done quietly.  Then comes playtime.

Yesterday I went to Old Westbury Gardens with my girlfriend Karen.  It was beautiful.  Then we went to Hicks Nursery because I want to create a ZEN GARDEN.  Landscapers will call me.
Today I'm going to visit and play with my grandson Remi.  Tonight is a Sisterhood meeting where two new friends and I will create a dinner plan for tomorrow.

I am truly free now and blessed.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY BREATHE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my breathe.

It keeps me centered and balanced.

It keeps me calm.

I just came back from a wonderful walk.  The air is crisp and clean and I was able to take long deep breathes.  What a joy to come back to a quiet house and have breakfast and read the papers.

I will be practicing yoga later.

My plan today is to go to Westbury Gardens with my friend Karen.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MOVIN' ON

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am movin' on with my life.

I saw that yesterday which was the Sabbath.  I have a routine now for PJC and Kiddush that I love.

I went over to my friend Zita's house and she gave me a Yoga Coffee Cup for no reason at all.

I walked,  I meditated, I read and I sat on the deck drinking my first glass of wine.

My abuser is becoming nothing more than a distant memory......

Today I will practice yoga.   I hope to meditate too.

I will be going to a Restorative Yoga and Meditation Workshop later in the day.

I invited Dana to come with me too.  However she is pregnant, wasn't feeling well and we made a plan for me to come to Brooklyn on June 16 which is Father's Day....a day that was very traumatic as I gave birth with my mother and brother because he was taking his mother upstate.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR "LET IT BE"

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga yesterday in Leslie's class and she spoke of LET IT BE.

What she said which really resonated with me is that if its hard to LET IT GO then just LET IT BE and move on.

I thought that was wonderful, spiritual and meaningful.

I will begin today to use that in my daily life.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.