I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made my life a balanced one.
When I grew up and while I was married my life was definitely not balanced. I had a wonderful life both times outside of the house.
I was emotionally abused in both houses. I had to create strategies to keep myself safe. I did a lot of crying until I learned to hide my emotions because it gave my abusers joy to make me upset. My mother said that any comment was "for my own good." The man I married said "I am always miserable. You are always happy. I want you to be as miserable as me." He created nonsense arguments to satiate himself as he was a psychopath and I cried. I went to work with red and swollen eyes never knowing what I was arguing about.
When I left the house I became a totally different person and I had joy and fun outside both houses.
Now my abusers are dead.
The two parts of myself are integrated and I have joy both inside and outside the house. I balance chores and fun.
The Almighty has given me a balanced life.
I am grateful.
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