GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO REPLY AND NOT REACT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have finally learned to reply and not to react.

I opened my garbage can to him yesterday and let him know what I thought of this so-called marriage.  It all happened because he dared to tell me that he feels bad for his sister-in-law who is alone.  No one he tells me should be alone.

I let him know that I have been alone all these years and have developed a life.  I need to say less about people so he has less cannon fodder.

I was very glad that I was able to do this.

I am grateful to the Almighty for what I have learned.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to create a new life filled with wonderful experiences and adventures.

It is quiet in my new life.  No one tries to bother me.  I have let go of that which doesn't serve me.

I do exactly what I want to do in the moment.

I am happy and content in the moment.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR "TO BE"

I am grateful to the Almighty because it is through yoga that I learned how to be content in the moment.

I learned to be grateful for the breathe.

I learned how to be grateful for "being."

It was through yoga that I learned how to let go of that which doesn't serve me.

It has made my life richer and fuller.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABUNDANCE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to create a wonderful new life for myself filled with joy and bliss.

Each day I awake to a new adventure.  I can do ANYTHING and I am overjoyed to be able to say this.  I'm having fun for the first time in my life.  I'm only planning for myself.  I am #1!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LISTENING

I am grateful to the Almighty because by sending me to yoga I have learned to listen to myself.

I have learned to listen so that I can be healthy in mind, body and soul.

I have learned to be kind to myself.

I am no longer stuck.  

I have space.

I have choices.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

Good Shabbos to me!!

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE A KID AGAIN!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I feel like a kid again!!!!!

This morning I was up and walking at 6:30-8:30. It was going to be 91 degrees.    Then I took a quick shower and I was off to yoga with my friend Jay.

Chores were done and soon it's off to a manicure.

Dinner will be by the water because it's hot.

I'm actually getting him to go to Jones Beach.

No cares!!  No worries!!!

Playtime!!!

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my wonderful new life.  I really do appreciate it.  Each day is filled with interesting activities and adventures.

The staple of course is walking and practicing yoga.  Now that the weather is getting warmer I am up early to walk even before I practice yoga.  Reading also is a big part of my life.  Yesterday I attended a book discussion.

Tonight I will have dinner with Sisterhood friends and attend a book discussion.

I am so grateful for my new life.  I am also grateful that the Almighty has given me strategies to deal with adversity in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joy in my life.

I know how to put misery in perspective.

I chase away the "If Only's..........................

I know how to let go of that which doesn't serve me so that I can heal.  I no longer try to fix what is broken.

I let a sleeping person sleep.  I am not there to teach, explain or adapt anything.

I am proud of myself.   As a result of all this, I have more time to appreciate life's joys.  I can just be.  I can breathe.

I can experience joy and bliss.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR SEEING MISERY IN PERSPECTIVE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga where I learned to see misery in perspective.

My husband is pure evil.  However my very own life is exceptional and I have learned to place the evil that I know is in him in perspective.  I have learned not to dwell on anything that he does or says. I am careful to make sure that he doesn't know the names of my friends anymore. He can't harm anyone.  His life is getting smaller while mine keeps getting larger.

Today I will walk outside on an early morning.  It is a beautiful day.  I will practice yoga and do some chores too.  I am reading a murder mystery for the yoga book club.  Matzah has to go to the vet too.

My life is a good one.  The Almighty has taught me to see misery in perspective and to let it go as a cloud.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PHILOSOPHY OF YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to internalize the philosophy of yoga.

This has helped me so much in my daily life.  For example, every time he starts an issue with me (lately it's whether to sell the condo or not.............the usual summer carry on by him) I revert back to yoga philosophy and "let it go like a cloud."  I do not try to make "the impossible......possible."   I do not suffer from the "if only" either.  I am a strong and capable woman who lets go that which doesn't serve me and moves on.

Today is a very dreary day.  I will practice yoga and walk at The Home Depot.

I will try to just "be" today and enjoy the moment.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am slowly healing and learning to be in the moment.

Yesterday I sat outside with Matzah and read my book.  It was so peaceful.  I was conscious of my breathe and a quiet state of being.   I was conscious of the clouds and of the animals running by. He wasn't home.  There was just beautiful silence.  I was grateful to the Almighty for this.

Today I will attend services to again thank the Almighty for the good in my life.  My eye checkup went well as did his cardiologist checkup.  

I will walk.  I will read.

I will be in the moment.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR "I CAN"

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have finally after all these years begun to understand and to work on the concept, "I CAN."

Yesterday while practicing yoga I tried to do more and realized that "I CAN."

I will take this concept off the mat with me today.

Today I'm going to walk early because it is beautiful outside.  I will take one Level 1 yoga class and then, as is my custom on Friday, I will get my hair blown out.

I hope to order new glasses today too!!!

Thank you Almighty for my new confidence in "I CAN."

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.  It is filled with wonderful and amazing activities each day.  

I picked up the new necklace that I designed yesterday.  It is lovely.  It says BREATHE as a reminder to me to live in the moment.

Today I will walk and practice yoga. We will also go to a restaurant that we know that is on the water for dinner.

I have my annual checkup at the eye doctor today.  I hope that all goes well and I have faith in the Almighty.  (Later:  The checkup was fine.  Thank God nothing changed.  However I'm still getting new frames.)

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE BREATHE

I am grateful to the Almighty that I am here now.  I am happy. I am healthy.  I can hear birds singing.  I am off to begin another adventure.

There are times that my life will be twisted.   However, I will breathe.  I will be in the moment.  I will remember that I am also open and free.

I went to Restorative Yoga last night and thoroughly enjoyed it.  I am not stuck in this house.   I have created space for myself because I have choices.

I have an amazing day planned today.  There will be early walking. I will practice yoga.  This afternoon I will attend my yoga book club too.

I signed up for an event in my studio this afternoon.

I will be using Essential Oils to make household items such as bug spray, suntan lotion and after suntan lotion.

What a wonderful day.

Thank you Almighty for the ability to breathe, to be and to enjoy the day.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ZEAL IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has given me this wonderful new life.

Yesterday I again had lunch with yogi friends.  We went to the Sage Bistro and had a wonderful time.  I came home and was able to walk outside too!!!  After that horrible brunch on Sunday I got a wonderful nights sleep.

Today I will walk, practice yoga and just enjoy my new life.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am slowly evolving into the new me.

I have realized that The Triad is the past.  Every now and then they arise but then they leave.   I must always remember to let them go.  Let them go because it doesn't serve me to remember them.

Today will be filled with joy for the new me.  I will practice yoga, have lunch with yogi friends and walk.  I will read too!!  Chores need to be done.  

My happy life returns.

I have joy.  I have energy.  I will have a good day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT I AM BEING THE YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because not only am I doing yoga BUT I also am the yoga.

I accept myself.  I know who I am and there is no one that is going to destroy me ever again.  I am grateful to the Almighty that I am not doing the IF ONLYS.........because that wouldn't change anything.  I am me.  I am a strong and capable woman.

He so failed yesterday in his attempts to bully.  However I could see where in the past he succeeded as did my mother because I had no knowledge of myself.  I am grateful to the Almighty because I have evolved.

Today I will practice yoga and walk.

Brunch with the rest of THE TRIAD today.  It should be interesting!!  More later.................

It's over!!!  It's done!!!!  Let go that which doesn't serve you so that you can heal.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A VISION

I am grateful to the Almighty for the vision that He gave me when I practiced yoga yesterday.

I saw myself as a vision.  I was looking down at myself and ACCEPTING MYSELF for who I am rather than trying to fit in with everyone's philosophy.  I have always had my social self-esteem destroyed by my parents,  husband and children.  I saw this as a revelation an I will work on it.

Lunch yesterday with yogi friends was wonderful.  Walking at The Home Depot was good too.   I'm almost finished with my book.

Today I will be at PJC for services.  I will see my synagogue friends.  Then it's off to read and relax and be grateful for the amazing week that I had.

Even though they predicted storms, I was able to walk outside for two hours!!!!!  I accepted myself today.  He did not speak the entire day and then asked me if something was wrong.  I parroted what he said.  I accepted myself and wasn't wasting my time with him at all.  I did however let him know that whatever he did was gone like a passing cloud.  He was clueless as to what that meant.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new life that He has given me.

I try each day to be content.  It's O.K.  I try to live in the moment and enjoy each and every moment.

Yesterday was amazing.  I practiced yoga with my yogi friend Jay.  I walked outside for two hours.  I went to ID and my hair is purple again.  We did not add the blue but Nick will do this when I get fresh hi-lites.  I went to dinner at Rachel's and thoroughly enjoyed it.

He tried the "silent treatment" all day.  I was supposed to ask what was wrong.  I never did. I lived in my moment and appreciated life.  I am so grateful for the new perspectives that I have learned in yoga.

Today I will practice yoga and walk.  Rain is threatened so walking might be at The Home Depot.  I am having lunch with yogi friends.  

It has been a wonderful week.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO "REPLY AND NOT REACT"

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have internalized the concept of replying and not reacting.

I have also incorporated silence as a technique.

This has been an interesting week as I go about my new life doing very enjoyable things.  In the parallel life, the Triad has lifted it's ugly head again.  First there was the nasty text from the younger one on Mother's Day.  Yesterday he tried to engage my in a conversation about Jeff. He kept repeating the same comment over and over as if I would answer.  I never did and answered with another topic.  

It is amazing to me that I am having a wonderful week despite this.  The truth is that I am healing and have no desire to fix what is broken.

I have learned the power of silence and that I have the ability to choose what I will speak about.  I have space.  I'm not stuck.  I have choices.

When I wonder what kind of a family this is, I choose to love and not pity myself.

Today I will practice yoga. I will practice what I learned in Reiki II.  I will meditate.   I will walk.  I'm getting my hair colored and blown out.  Yesterday was the manicure/pedicure in purple and today it's the hair in purple.  The biggest question is should I put in a touch of blue??

We will go out for dinner since I will look wonderful.

Thank you Almighty for helping me always.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR NOT CREATING BINDS

I am grateful to the Almighty because while He has taught me through yoga, to release myself from the binds, I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL NOT TO CREATE NEGATIVE BINDS FOR MYSELF.

I almost did that yesterday.  I am very angry at the younger one for the text that she sent me on Mother's Day.  There was no card or call. There was just this horrible text.  We are going out to brunch on Sunday.  I had to do something not to break away completely.  I mentioned to him that I would not drive the younger one home from the restaurant and he decided that we would. Immediately bile rose up in my mouth. The Triad was still in operation.

However, I practiced yoga and the class was all about binds.  I realized that I was creating one for myself. I decided then and there to let go of that which doesn't serve me and have joy in the rest of the day.

I did just that.  I walked.  I did some chores and I went to a wonderful book discussion in the evening.

Today, I will practice yoga and walk outside.  In the afternoon I have a manicure/pedicure scheduled.

I am grateful for acceptance, acknowledging the facts and letting go of that which doesn't serve me.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING O.K.

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am content with my new life.  

I am definitely O.K. with each moment.  

I am enjoying each moment of my new life's adventure.  I am learning to let go of that which doesn't serve me.  I am loving myself rather than pitying myself.  I am healing slowly and not trying to fix what is broken.  Things that are broken will stay broken as I heal.

Today I will walk outside.  It's a beautiful day.  I will practice yoga.  I'm getting the truck washed too.  Tonight I have a book club discussion to attend.

I am O.K. with my new life.

I am content.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY ( IT'S NOT RAINING!!!)

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day.

I am healthy.  I am happy.  Mother's Day was a wonderful day.  It went off without a hitch.  I received a LuLuLemon Gift card and small earrings.  I received beautiful cards and  he made a reservation at a wonderful restaurant in Bayville called, Walls Wharf.  There was some drama from the the younger one BUT I accepted it and left it go. She didn't send a card or call but send me a nasty text message.  She will be history shortly.  This is the reason I didn't share the day with them.

Today I will walk outside.  I will practice yoga.  There are chores to do.

I am happy with my life and grateful for this new day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFES CHOICES

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new life that He has given me and for the choices that He has helped me to make.

Yesterday was a wonderful day as I completed my certification to become a Reiki Healer.  I am so happy that I chose to do this.

Today I chose to cancel Mother's Day!!!!!  What was the point of driving, entertaining, paying for people who really don't care about you??  Yes,  I became a mother because that is what I wanted to do.  However that did not mean that I had to have myself abused for the rest of my life. I am no longer stuck.  I have created space.  I am making appropriate choices to keep myself healthy.

Today I will practice yoga.  As usual it is raining and so I will walk at The Home Depot. We will have dinner in a lovely restaurant.  It will be the day that I chose.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new choices in life and for His being beside me every step of the way.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR CHOICES

I am grateful to the Almighty because through Him I have learned that there are choices in life.

I am no longer stuck.  I have made some space for myself and as a result of this, I have choices.

So it is that I choose to love myself.  My path may not be the same as others, but it is my very own path and on the way, I have made choices that have served me.  I do not pity myself, but rather I love myself and I am proud of my successes and accomplishments.

I choose to heal.  I will not remain broken.  Slowly I am letting go of that which didn't serve me. Did I not let go of having Seders?  The Seders at PJC were wonderful and I really enjoyed them!!  

I am letting go of Mother's Day with them.  There were many Mother's Days that I was disappointed and I cried.  I choose joy and bliss now.  I deserve it.  I love myself.

Today I will become a Reiki Master.

I am very proud to do this.  (Later:  It was an amazing day as I became a Reiki Master.  I am truly taking myself down a new road.)

I am grateful to the Almighty for letting this happen.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR PRACTICING YOGA TODAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga today.........another day where it rained.

I learned two very important mantras. First one must replace PITY with LOVE.  Rather than PITY yourself because of the situation you are in or the life you have had, you must LOVE yourself.

Secondly one must choose NOT TO BE BROKEN in order to be HEALED.

I am on that road right now thanks to the Almighty.  I have chosen a new path and slowly I am moving forward.

I am grateful to the Almighty for practicing yoga this morning.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR NOT FEELING STUCK

I am grateful to the Almighty because I no longer feel stuck.  I have space.  I have choices.  I have the ability to enjoy my new life without feeling binds around me.

Yesterday I did so many wonderful things.  I finally ordered my newest of necklaces which will say simply, "BREATHE." The day culminated with my financial representative arriving to discuss my portfolio.  Then it was off to Rabbi Jay for another Holocaust Memorial Service and dinner out.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING THE DEFINITION OF YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have learned the true definition of yoga and it has changed my life.

Yoga means to quiet the mind so that the mind, body and spirit can work together.  I have been trying to do this these last four years and I believe that it is working.  I am taking myself up a new path slowly and enjoying each step.

Last night I attended a Yom Hashoah program at PJC and I found it to be very moving.  I was very comfortable sitting with synagogue friends.  I brought him with me but did not go around introducing him.

Today I will practice yoga.  I will walk at The Home Depot.  There is a piece of jewelry that I am going to create today.  I have been thinking about it for a while.  "If not now when" is my new motto. My financial advisor is coming over today. We will also be going to Rabbi Jay's for a Yom Hashoah Program and then out to eat.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR HAVING THE ALMIGHTY IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to you, Almighty because you are continuing to watch over me.

Yesterday my dental checkup went off without a hitch.  My bonding didn't break and my next appointment is in six months.  I was able to walk, practice yoga and purchase new yoga clothes. We went to Fortunoff's Jewelry Store and I purchased a new pair of earrings.  I'm enjoying my new book.  Life is good.

Today the weather is still terrible and I will walk at The Home Depot after I practice yoga.  Tonight there is a Holocaust Program at PJC and we will go.

I am grateful to you, Almighty for guiding me and protecting me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR GETTING RID OF CLUTTER

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is helping me to get rid of the clutter so that I have clarity and insight into my life.

I am doing this.  I am doing it well.  However sometimes, mostly in the middle of the night I feel a tremendous sadness that I must take myself on a new path. 

I would have liked to be on the path that I planned but life doesn't work out that way.

In addition to getting rid of the clutter, I must also work on accepting my new life by acknowledging the facts.  It is what it is.  It cannot be changed.  I must accept it.

Thank you Almighty for this insight.

I am grateful.

PS  I am grateful to the Almighty because I went to the dentist today and all is fine.  The bonding didn't break.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING ACCEPTED

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has helped me to become accepted in the community as myself.

The girls are history in this town.  No one knows them or cares.  He too has been forgotten.  However, I have made myself a friendly part of this community and feel acceptance wherever I go.

Yesterday we paid a shiva call to the Rabbi who was happy to see me and again reminded me that we are going to write a book about Matzah together.  Friends as well as acquaintances were there and I felt very comfortable.  He on the other hand knew no one.  Ever since the incident I chose not to present us as a couple as that could bring harm to me!!!!  It was an excellent choice.

Today I will practice yoga and attend a book discussion.  I will walk later at The Home Depot as the weather is terrible.  

I am reading 2 books for 2 book clubs!  Wow!!

Thank you Almighty for helping me to be accepted.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a wonderful holiday.

I participated in the Seders.  I went to services on holidays and the Sabbath.  I laughed with friends.  I walked.  I went to yoga.  I attended book clubs.  I had my hair blown out.  It was an amazing week.

I have changed so.  I have truly embraced the yoga concept of "REPLY....DON'T REACT" and "LET IT GO."  He tried during the week to start, but I am a true yogi and let it go like a passing cloud.

Today I will practice yoga.  It is raining and I will walk at The Home Depot.  Weight Watchers and chores will follow. I will get DD coffee too!!!

We need to pay a shiva call to the Rabbi's father too.  We will be eating out.

I thank you Almighty for a wonderful holiday.

I am grateful.