GRATEFUL FOR A NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life in this new decade.  It's going to be 2020!!!

I am grateful that I survived, with the Almighty's help, all of the abuse that I was subjected to.

I am going to try the best that I can to understand and to love myself and to keep myself healthy.

Thank you Almighty for this new beginning.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty for the strength that He has given to me.

Today I go back to the doctor to discuss my blood work.

I hope that everything is fine.

More later.........................

My checkup was wonderful.  Dr. Vezza advised me yo knock down some of the desserts that I've been eating which is fine and to go back to walking which is also fine.  This was the first tie that I went to the doctor by myself and I was proud of me!!!!!

I also got to finish my chores......

Matzah went to the vet and he has to return on January 27th for a re-check.

I am grateful to the Almighty for always walking by my side.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day.

I did not practice yoga this morning.  I slept late.

I'm learning how to just "BE."

I don't have to race out of the house all the time.

It's a new feeing.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LETTING GO

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am happy.

Life is peaceful.

Life is calm.

Life is fun!!!

A new decade is almost here.

I am ready with the Almighty's help.

Thank you!!!

GRATEFUL FOR LETTING GO OF THIS DECADE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga in Leslie's class yesterday and she spoke about LETTING GO OF THE DECADE!!

That so resonated with me and I'm going to do it!!

I look forward to my future.

Today I received beautiful birthday notes from Doris, Rose and a lovely card from Karen and a visit and card from Rhonnie.  Chocolates came from Dana and Seth.  A FaceTime call came from Remi!!

It's a new life for me.

Thank you Almighty for always walking by my side.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE STRENGTH IN MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to find the strength that is in me.

I am learning who I am and becoming a very peaceful and calm person.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO TRUST MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because even though I was tired, I practiced yoga in Leslies Christmas Class yesterday.

She spoke of trusting yourself and suddenly a light bulb went off in my head.  I was constantly criticized growing up.  I was never complimented but compared to Ellen when I was married to the creature and came up short.  This NEVER happened at work.

It is time to bring the two parts of me together and to learn to trust myself and believe in my decisions.

Today I'm getting my hair colored and blown out.

I'm going to take myself out for dinner.

I'm proud of me.

Thank you, Almighty, for always walking by my side.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I AM HOME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga in Elyse's class yesterday and she used the term I AM HOME.

OMG!!  How that resonated with me!!!  I will come back to my home!  What a wonderful thought!!!!

She also spoke about the LIFE FORCE and PRANA in each of us.  It was an OMG! moment.

This morning I'm up early because there is only one yoga class at my studio today.  It's the Christmas class and it starts at 9AM.

I will be picking up DD coffee to finish breakfast with and then read The NY Times, the only paper that arrived.

I hope to finish my book today after I clean the house.

I am grateful to the Almighty that I AM HOME.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING BALANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga yesterday in Leslie's class and she talked about balance.

I was especially interested when she said that there are always times in life when you are out of balance.  It is at those times that we need to recognize it and move forward knowing that a person can't be balanced every day.

Today I will practice yoga in Elyse's class.

I will have lunch with my friend Doris.

Thank you Almighty for always walking by my side.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace, calm and happiness in my life.

I am especially grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga in Doreen's class yesterday and she said something very profound and memorable.

HAPPINESS RELIES ON WHAT YOU ARE THINKING!!!!

Mornings can be difficult for me because of negative memories.  However I now have a wonderful mantra.

Today I will practice yoga and do some chores.

Matzah has to be at the vet for a recheck of his rash.

I am using my mantra diligently.

Thank you Almighty for this.

I am grateful.


Later:   Matzah's appointment was re-scheduled to Monday December 30th at 3:00 as the veterinarian was ill.

              I also received a phone call from Dr. Vezza letting me know that the blood work is in and he would like to discuss it on Monday December 30th at 12:00.  I looked back at the old paperwork and nothing seems to have changed.  I hope that remains so.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful new day.

Yesterday I had many side effects from the Shingles Shot but today I am feeling much better.

There is yoga to practice in Doreen's class.

There are chores to be done.

There is a book and newspapers to read.

I made a lunch date with Doris for Tuesday.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace and quiet in my life.

May it always be so.

I sat and read in The Yoga Room this evening.  It was wonderful!!!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I AM HERE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am here enjoying my life in the moment.

I try very hard to pull myself out of the past and into the present.  Sometimes like yesterday, that can be very tough but I keep plugging along.  I am proud of me!!!

I did not go to services today.  There are more side effects to the Shingles shot than I thought possible.

Today will be an R&R day.

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful that I am here and free to rest in my own home.

GRATEFUL FOR LIVING IN THE PRESENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me to live in the present.

When I catch myself in the past.......I come right back.

Yesterday I had a wonderful meeting with Dom and then went out to eat with Gail, Rhonnie and Linda.

Today I will practice yoga because my arm feels a lot better and have my hair blown out for the Sabbath.

Thank you Almighty for always walking by my side.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because He is teaching me to believe in myself.  Because of the way I was brought up (the mother that I had) and the creature that I had the misfortune to marry, that doesn't always happen......

Today I slept late and did not go to practice yoga.  I took the Shingles Shot yesterday and my poor little arm is in serious pain!!!!!  We didn't get to play MahJongg yesterday.  We went to dinner in the squall and we having such a good time we didn't want to leave.

Today I'm meeting with Dom and have an appointment with Kyra.  Tonight I will have dinner with Linda, Gail and Rhonda.

I will read and relax too.

I believe in my.

Thanks to the Almighty I'm very proud of me.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR THE SPACE INSIDE ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has allowed me to practice yoga.

In yesterday's class the instructor mentioned that we can adapt poses so that we don't sacrifice our own bodies.  She also made reference to the fact that we should not sacrifice ourselves in any relationship.  That so resonated in me.  I am so trying NEVER to do that again.

She spoke of life being difficult and how we must cultivate space within ourselves.  To do this we must BREATHE, BE CALM and PEACEFUL whenever we can.  Yoga is a wonderful place to practice this.

Today I will practice yoga in Margaret's class. 

I will speak with Judith.

I have to go to The Home Depot to make keys.  Strangely my kitchen door key has disappeared.

I'm also going to get the Shingles shot.

Tonight I'm having dinner with Barbara, Gail and Debbie.  Then we are going to play Mah Jong at my house.

I do my chores and try very hard to find space for me.

I am grateful to the Almighty for learning this.

Thank you!!

GRATEFUL FOR HAVING THE WORDS TO SEE REALITY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga in Leslie's class and she spoke of being based in the present.....to view things in the present.......to have vision in the present and to be able to see reality and not dreams.

It put into words what I had been doing but am trying not to do anymore!!

Last night's last class at The Jewish Institute was awesome.  There was a violin concert afterwards which was beautiful. 

I ate cookies too!!!!

Today I will practice yoga in Elyse's class.

I have a dental appointment today.

I also have a Sisterhood Executive Board Meeting tonight.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY OF LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I smile at the sunrise and see the joy of living.

I'm going for my blood/urine test this morning.  I know that the Almighty will walk beside me as I do this.

I hope to practice yoga in Leslie's class.

I shall come home to clean the house.

Hopefully, it won't snow so I can attend the last class in The Adult Institute.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING ABOUT THE POWER IN ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I understand that I have the power inside me to be calm and quiet.  I live in the Present......not in the Past or Future.

I had a wonderful quiet day in my home yesterday.  After services there was no need to run out of the house to go anywhere.  I was quiet and content.  I read my Lisa See book and finished it.  I organized my yoga books.  I was content.

Today I will practice yoga in Doreen's class.

I will also be doing  variety of errands.......Fairway, Citibank, Plainview Library, Harmon's and gassing up the truck.

I came home to read the newspapers with Dunkin' Donuts coffee. I need to complete the stories for tomorrow's Adult Institute.  It's the last class!!!   I will also fill out Christmas cards for Nick and Louis and start my next book.

I have learned that I am in charge of me.  I don't have to be difficult with myself or judge myself.  I can just be.

Thank you Almighty for the new stillness inside me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE PEACE AND QUIET IN MY SABBATH

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am slowly beginning to understand myself.

I will attend services this morning.

I will meditate and read in the afternoon.

I am grateful to the Almighty for always walking by my side.

Thank you.

Update:   I had a wonderful Sabbath.  Services were enjoyable and my friends and I were the last ones to leave the Kiddush.  I came home to call Karen.  I read both Newsday and The New York Times.  I re-organized my yoga books and finished read Lisa See's The Island of Sea Women.  After dinner I started a new book.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace and quiet in my Sabbath.

Thank you Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR TAKING CARE OF MY NEEDS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga and it was there that I listened to yogic philosophy and learned to take care of my needs.

This week I practiced yoga in 8 classes because I needed to feel calm.

Today I am actually going for my annual physical.  I hope and pray that the Almighty will walk by my side and my checkup will be fine.

Thank you.

Update:

I drove to the doctor and sat in the waiting room where the creature and I sat.  That was tough. I spoke with Dr. Vezza at length and he was quite gracious.  He too felt that the creature was strange and he shuddered.  Then we did my checkup.  My pressure is fine (118/74)  and on Monday I'm going for blood work.  

Thank you Almighty for taking care of me.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE CONNECTIONS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because although it snowed yesterday in the morning, it melted and I was able to practice yoga in Leslie's evening class.

It was there that I learned to be grateful for the many connections in my life.  To make this point hit home, my hot water unit went off and within 5 minutes Freddy was there fixing it!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for the connections in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I NOTICE HOW I FEEL

I am grateful to the Almighty because he sent me to practice yoga in Elyse's class yesterday and it was there that  I learned  to notice how I feel.  To me this means that I care about my self first!!!

Yesterday was a wonderful day.  I went to Trader Joe's and then met the ladies for lunch.  I bought socks in Incredible Feet and ordered a North Face jacket with my friend Rose.

I came home to read.  Then it was off to Absolute Yoga again to practice yoga in Dawn's class and eat out at Pasteria.

Today I'm not going anywhere EXCEPT to Judith!!!!   It's snowing!!!

I will practice yoga in my YOGA ROOM and make chicken balls and zucchini pasta for dinner.

I am grateful to the Almighty for learning about myself.

Thank you!!!

GRATEFUL THAT I AM IN GOOD HEALTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because the Almighty had me  practice yoga in Leslie's class yesterday and she spoke of gratitude for good health.

Thanks to the Almighty my physical health (Body)  is good thanks to diet and exercise.  I will go to Dr. Vezza on Friday for the beginning of my annual checkup.  With the help of the Almighty I will be fine.

I need to work on my emotional health (Mind).  I must continue to remember to stay in the present moment and let go of that which doesn't serve me.  I have the Power to do this and I will continue to monitor myself.

Today I'm going to practice yoga and have lunch with my girlfriends.  Last night's session at The Adult Institute was wonderful.  I enjoyed going with Gail and Rhonnie.

I'm also going to do some chores today.  Snow tomorrow!!!!!

Thank you Almighty fr keeping me in good health both physically and emotionally.  

I am grateful!

GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE POWER

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to practice  yoga yesterday.  It was in Doreen's class that I learned that I have the power to take care of my needs and wants.......the power to be calm.....the power to control my life.

I canceled going to see Remi tomorrow.  I have the power to do that and it's a awful lot of money to go there.  Unappreciated I might add.....  I have felt this way since I saw Shula's crib and the way that my daughter speaks with her as though she was the mother.  This hasn't changed.  She was always looking for a mother that she could look down on.

Today I will practice yoga.  It's a rainy day.....a good day to clean house too!!

I have The Adult Institute tonight.  The stories were quite good.

Thank you Almighty for helping me to see that I have power.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR FREEDOM

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am finally free....free to be me.....free from abuse....free to have fun!!!

Thank you Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY HOME

I am grateful to the Almighty for allowing me to make my house......my home.

I actually slept until 9:30 this morning because I was tired and I could stay in my home unlike past years.  I will pray at home.

Today I will read, relax and probably meditate. 

Thank you Almighty because my house is now my home!!!

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR THE LIGHT INSIDE ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga yesterday and it was in Hollie's class that she spoke of each of us having a light inside ourselves to protect us from cloudy days.

This resonated with me especially when she said that THIS TOO SHALL PASS.  With all the grief that I have had with this latest trigger, old though it may be, I could feel the trigger fading.....

I had a wonderful time with Karen yesterday.  As a birthday gift, she treated me to a High Tea and tour of the Phipps House at Westbury Gardens.  How beautiful it was!!!!  I was so touched by this gift.

Today I will practice yoga and have my hair blown out.  Incredible Feet has promised that my UGG boots will be ready.  I would like to take my rings into Marc Solomon to have them changed.

Thank you Almighty for helping me to keep my light shining.  Sometimes that can be so hard.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL ABOUT THE PEACE AND CALM WITHIN ME

I am grateful to the Almighty because I practiced yoga in Margaret's class today and she spoke of the peace and quiet in each one of us that we can draw upon at any time we need it.

I really needed to hear that today because today I realized that it was Martin sending Leslie those crazy e-mails.  While I was trying to keep him alive and healthy, he was bent on destroying me.  I actually cried at the studio and have thought about this all day.  Isn't it enough that I have biological daughters that feel he walked on water and that Dana is actually naming her child after him??  Thank goodness for yoga because I will ride this out!!!

The Sisterhood Book Club was lots of fun last night.  We went to Taby's and I was very supported by my friends.

Today I will practice yoga and order books for the next two Sisterhood Book Club meetings.

My friend Karen is coming over and we are going to Westbury Gardens for tea and to see the house.  It should be fun.

I know that there is peace and calm within me.  I am grateful to the Almighty for this. Sometimes it's just hard to reach because I am feeling bombarded.

Thank you Almighty for being there for me.  You're going to have to work extra hard today!!

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO TAKE CARE OF MY NEEDS

I am grateful to the Almighty because He sent me to yoga and it was there that I learned about taking care of my needs.

Last night I practiced yoga in Dawn's class.  I didn't practice in the morning because of the snow.  I came home to finish my book.

Today I will again practice yoga.

I will have the oil changed in the car and go to Staples to spread items.

Tonight I will be having dinner at Taby's in Norwich with Sisterhood friends before the book club.

I am grateful to the Almighty for taking care of me and teaching me how to take care of what I need.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR INNER PEACE

I am so grateful to the Almighty because of the inner peace that I feel.

Yesterday was a prime example.  There is a snow storm coming and so after I practiced yoga I went to Fairway and loaded up on groceries.  I came home to clean the entire house and then have dinner.  I called friends.  In the evening I read and watched The Good Doctor.  I have never felt so peaceful and I am grateful to the Almighty for this.

Today I did not practice yoga in the studio.  We got an awful lot of snow so I went out and shoveled it.  It was fun!!!  I feel safe and comfortable in my own home and I'm grateful.  I will do some chores inside today.  I have therapy later and just maybe I'll take an evening yoga class.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the inner peace that I have.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR PEACE IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace that I have in my life.

Yesterday was a case in point.  I awoke to a day where there would be rain, sleet and snow.  I was able to practice yoga at 9AM in Doreen's class.  I had a plan.  I went Citibank and then to pick up medication.  I went to Trader Joe's and put gas in the truck.  From there I was weighed at WW and I proceeded to the butcher and to pick up a chopped salad at Pasteria.  I returned to do a wash and pay bills. The chicken dinner that I made was delicious and I watched television and had wine while I ate.  All within the calm and quiet of my home.

Today I again woke up peacefully.  I gave Matzah Reiki and brushed him too.  Today it plans to snow again in the later afternoon.  If so I won't attend The Jewish Institute.  However today I will practice yoga and do some chores too.

My home gets its weekly cleaning today too.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the peace and quiet in my life.

Thank you.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day.

I am healthy.

I am happy.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this new day!!