GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Retirement is awesome!!!!!

Tonight is the Sabbath and as is my custom, I review the week.   It has been a wonderful week filled with fun, and exciting things that made me smile.

Just as I thought it couldn't get better,  I opened my computer and noticed that as my friend would say, "there's money in the candy store."  My pension came and I didn't work a day!!!

This morning I will walk and take a yoga class and then go out for breakfast with friends.

Last night the fundraiser for my friend was awesome.  I invited him to drive and pick me up so that I could drink.  He did and as usual makes negative remarks that are ignored by me.  To cover myself, I asked him to have breakfast on Monday after yoga.  I'm sure that he will forget.
That's fine with me.

I am happy with my new life.

I am grateful to the Almighty for it.

Thank you, Almighty!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ACCEPTANCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am finally, after all these years learning how to handle acceptance.

I was delighted that yesterday, I was invited to lunch by my yoga group after Friday's yoga class.  It was wonderful to be accepted on my own after being ignored all these years because I had horrific children!!!!

I am beginning to accept that he will forever try and do things to upset me.   Although this is difficult to live with,  I am slowly becoming comfortable with it, so that when he does something decent, it does as a surprise.

I am beginning to accept and not to mention vacations because the reality is that I won't ever be going on one with him.

I finally accept that we will not be buying another condo and will just be making believe that we are doing so.  I finally accept that that is a good thing because if we did make the purchase, he would "work the crowd" until no one spoke to me.

I accept the fact that he will not do anything with me.   To be politically correct and to shut him down, I always ask him to go, knowing that he will always say, "no."

I am so relieved about this because I can enjoy my own life.

I will do three special things today.  I will be attending a Project Pace Book Discussion where I thoroughly enjoyed the book.  I will be attending a fundraiser entitled, Karen's Hope,  for my friend Laura.  I also was interviewed to volunteer at P.A.C.E. I want to work in their office.  It is good to be able to do things in the town that I live in without the threat of those girls over me like a dark cloud.

I am looking forward to these activities.

Thank you, Almighty because I have begun to understand and accept the concept of acceptance.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

It is filled with so many enjoyable things to do.

It allows me to stop and look at the moment that I'm in.

Today I will walk and I hope to take two yoga classes.

I will be attending the Rabbi's study group tonight.

I am so grateful that I retired.

Thank you, Almighty for my new life.

GRATEFUL FOR TODAY!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me today.

I am healthy.  I am happy.

We went to the Jewish Institute last night to begin our classes.  I really enjoyed my class on Israeli and Greek mythology with Rabbi Rank.  The lecture afterwards was really good.  It was like the lectures that I had in college.  And of course there were friends and cookies!!!!

I need to let go of seeing the younger one.  Now she is a transexual!!!  I guess that marrying a Black man wasn't enough.   It's time for me to move away from her and it will be done gladly.

Today will be another fun filled day.

I will walk soon because it's beautiful outside.   There are, of course, errands that need to be done.

I'm going to an afternoon book club today.

Matzah will go to the dog park.

I have yoga tonight!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty that I am healthy and happy.

Thank you for Tuesday!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MONDAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is Monday and I am retired!!!!!

It's a vacation!!!!

Last night we took the younger one and her significant other to the dog park so that Matzah had playmates.  From marrying a Black Orthodox Jew who converted to Christianity to Islam to Orthodox Judiasm to being a lesbian.   That's why yoga allows me to let go!!!!!!

I did get to watch the Boardwalk Empire finale and really enjoyed it.

This morning I went to services because today was the anniversary of the day that my father died.  I was never able to do that before because I went to work.   I will try to get to the morning minyon tomorrow and the days after.

I'm going to walk now.  It's a beautiful day!!!!   I have a yoga class later and then an Apple lesson.

Tonight begins the Jewish Adult Education classes.  I'm looking forward to my class. It deals with Greek and Jewish mythology.

Thank you Almighty for this beautiful Monday and for my retirement.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ME

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to become the new me.

I saw that yesterday in so many ways.   I had a wonderful time at services.  I enjoyed my friends.  I sat with friends at the luncheon.  He spent the entire day trying to argue about a new condo vs moving into one home.  I did not let it rattle me.  He was quiet, subdued and waiting to do something that would make me unhappy.   Unlike me, he had no joy seeing Jay and the Americans at the fundraiser for PJC.   He sat with my friends but since he had no real knowledge of them, he had to be quiet.  I was surrounded by people that I was friendly with and there was so much laughing.  He was quiet!!!!!  I had not given him information about anyone or even their last names.

I have even given up dreams.  Each song that the grip sang reminded me of a dream, but I let the dream go, lived in the now and loved the music.

Today, I will walk and take a yoga class.

As usual I have errands to do.  I hope to finish my book.  Tonight is the finale of Boardwalk Empire.  

The younger one said that she might come a bring a "girlfriend."  He is not happy at all. And me??   It's my time!!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for creating the new me.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL TO THE ALMIGHTY

I am grateful to the Almighty for leading me and encouraging me to retire so that I could have a wonderful new life!!!!!

I love it!!!

Today is Shabbos and I will be at services thanking the Almighty for my new life.

I will come home to walk, to read, to relax and just to be.

I am so grateful for all of this.

Tonight we are going to a PJC fundraiser.  Jay and the Americans will be singing at the middle school.  I love their music.

Thank you, Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful!!!!

MENTAL STRENGTH

I am thankful to the Almighty because He has blessed me with mental strength.

I was reading a book called Lone Survivor by Marcus Luttrell which is the eyewitness account of Operation Redwing and the lost heroes of Seal Team 10.   He was describing what it took to become a SEAL and said that it took mental health and not having a pity party for yourself.

Suddenly a light bulb went off in my head.  I realized that this is what he tries and I might add fails to do to me.  First he's decent.  Then he makes a plan.  Then he cancels the plan.  Then he ignores me.  It's done to start a fight.  I'm supposed to ask what is wrong.  I foil the plan by creating a counter plan and move on.

Last night was a case in point.  He created a plan to go to dinner and a film.  He played the game and expected me to react.  I didn't.   I read my book, watched television about the Ebola virus in NY and then watched Parenthood.

It should be pointed out that the book speaks of mental strength as something you need to become a SEAL.  It speaks of a pity party too.  It was amazing that I read this last night. I believe that the Almighty was leading me to this section.

He does the same thing with vacations and that's why there are none.

It should be pointed out that he fails each time.

Today I will finally walk outside as it is not raining.  I will attend my yoga class and do some errands.  I went to Fairway,  B. Well Naturally for oils and vitamins and Eyeglass House because my glasses are gone!!!!  I also went to FV Cleaners and brought in the last of my summer clothes to store.

Tonight is Shabbos.

I am grateful to you, Almighty for being there for me.

Thank you for my mental health.

I am grateful!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has finally taught me to love myself and do what is right for me.

I had a wonderful day yesterday.  I did all the activities that I enjoyed.

Today it is still raining and again I will walk at Home Depot and then take my yoga class.

I wil do some errands and drink DD coffee while I read the newspapers and my book.

This afternoon I have my Memory Workshop.

He is supposed to plan a film and dinner out.  Let's see what happens.

I love retirement.

Thank you Almighty for helping me to achieve this.

I am grateful!!

Later-   I came home and he was in his usual miserable mood.  It worked for me!!!  After the Memory Workshop I will be able to read and watch PARENTHOOD!!  Last night I went out to dinner and had a wonderful dinner with my friends.  I ate brownies, and cookies at my friend's house after the book discussion.  Because of his attitude I will be able to loose the weight!!!!  This was done without me saying a word and his credit card paid for my dinner.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

I am grateful for the way that each day unfolds and for all the adventures that I am having.

This morning it is raining.

The plan is to walk at Home Depot and then take a yoga class.

Tonight I will have dinner with friends and attend the Sisterhood Book Club.

I am grateful that the Almighty has been there for me and helped me to create a wonderful new life.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL TO THE ALMIGHTY

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me make the decision to retire.

I am having a wonderful time.

Today I will do the usual, walk, read, drink DD coffee.................

I will begin yet another new book for a book club.  It's called LONE SURVIVOR by Marcus Luttrell.

To make my heart soar, I am going for a manicure/pedicure.  Halloween will be the theme of my new manicure/pedicure.    I am also going to Restorative Yoga tonight.

I'm loving retirement.

Thank you, Almighty for helping me to make this major decision.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL TO THE ALMIGHTY BECAUSE IT'S MONDAY!!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is Monday.

I am happy and healthy and I don't have to go to work.  Monday is my new favorite day of the week!!!!!!

Today I will walk.  I will finish my reading BREWSTER.  It is excellent!!!!!

I will take a yoga class wearing my new shirt from LuLu Lemon.

I will do some errands.

I will begin to fill out the questions for Thursday's Memory Writing Workshop.

It's my life.

I'm healthy and happy.

I am grateful to the Almighty for that which He has given me!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR NEW ADVENTURES

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new adventures in my life.

I have left my old life behind, thanks to the Almighty and I am embarking on new adventures.

Yesterday was an example.  Services and kiddush were wonderful.  I loved being with my synagogue friends. We made plans for dinner and book club on Wednesday.   After synagogue I walked only for an hour and then went to my Reiki and Restorative Yoga Workshop which was very spiritual.  I came home and politically asked him if he wanted to go to the dog park.  Knowing that the answer would be, "No," I continued the second hour of my walk.  I texted both daughters, again politically. I also spoke to friends.   At night, I watched Lone Survivor on HBO which is another book that I have to read for a club.   The day was amazing.

Today I will walk and then go to yoga and Weight Watchers.   Again I let him plan the remainder of the day.  I do this quietly and it works.  I'm proud of me.   I'm also thankful that the Almighty is in my life to help me to make all this happen.

The plan is to walk in the mall and go to dinner.

It's fine with me.

It's all good.

We walked the mall and I bought yoga items with a gift card that was my Mother's Day gift. I treated him to dinner.  I paid cash.   When we returned home I saw the ending of Boardwalk Empire. Next week is the finale.

Thank you, Almighty for my new adventures.

GRATEFUL FOR TODAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because he has given me this beautiful day.

I am grateful today because I am healthy, both physically and emotionally.  

He has tried to take me down roads that I choose not to go and has failed. For this too, I am grateful.

Today I will attend services on the first Sabbath of this New Year.  I prayed my heart out and hope that I have a good year.

I will attend a Reiki/Restorative workshop.  I am very excited about this too.

Thank you, Almighty for giving me today!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful day.

I am health and happy and living in this day which is my entire life.

I will go to services to celebrate Simchat Torah.

I will appreciate this day by enjoying all the sounds, colors and moments.

I will walk on a beautiful day.  I will read!!!

Tonight is the Sabbath.   Awesome!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for today!!

I am grateful!!!

GRATEFUL FOR TODAY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am alive and happy today.

I went to a yoga class yesterday.  The teacher said that TODAY is your life.  YESTERDAY is gone.  TOMORROW hasn't come.  TODAY IS YOUR LIFE.  I am grateful to the Almighty because I have today!!!

Today it is raining.  This is fine because I'm going to PJC for services and yizkor.  My neck feels really good after all that yoga yesterday.  I felt a real strain in it...........but two classes later, I'm fine.

Today is a TO BE day.  I'm going to have to decide what I'm doing.

More Later-

Services were wonderful!!!  It was nice hanging out with friends.  The weather is clearing and so I probably will be able to walk!!!!!  

I was able to walk.  It was wonderful.  

Tonight I will be lighting candles for Simchat Torah.

I am grateful to the Almighty for today. 

TONIGHT IS YOM TOV!!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because tonight is the beginning of a three day holiday culminating in Simchat Torah and Shabbos.

It's a holiday I couldn't take off for in many years.

Retirement has made it possible for me to attend services.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of my accomplishments.

What occurred yesterday was an example of my gratitude.   He was in an aggressive mood and was looking for things to say that would bring me down the wrong road every time that I saw him.   However, his strategy did not work at all.  I just continued on my way doing the things that gave me joy.

I did not even question why he was in my life.  I just continued my life in a positive way.  Looking back to yesterday, I am very pleased with the way that I handled the day.  I did not even have moments where I asked myself, "why me?"  That is a major accomplishment for me.

 Today I will walk.  I've decided to attend Mel's yoga class before the Yoga Book Club.  Both of those activities will be fun.

 My plan is to read yet another new book for the Plainview Book Club, BREWSTER.

Tonight begins the last of the Jewish holidays.  There is a yizkor service tomorrow and Simchat Torah services on Friday.  Saturday is Shabbos and I have a yoga workshop.

I love having activities to look forward to.

I am grateful to the Almighty for getting me to a place where I can appreciate my accomplishments.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day.  

My goal is to make it a good one.

I will walk this morning.  Later I am looking forward to attending Lunch and Learn in the Sukkah hosted by the Rabbi.   Tonight I have a Book Discussion.  We will be discussing The Turn of the Screw.  I hope to be able to watch Boardwalk tonight.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this wonderful new day.  I am healthy and happy and looking forward to my activities.

Thank you, Almighty for my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL COLUMBUS DAY WEEKEND

I am grateful to the Almighty because I just returned from the condo and I had a wonderful weekend.

I am grateful because I know what to say, when to say it and when to be quiet.

We did amazing things out east and I enjoyed all of them.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this weekend!!!!

Thank you!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SHABBOS

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am alive and healthy on this beautiful, but rainy Sabbath.

Today might be the Sukkah Hop if the rain stops.  If not, at least I was in the synagogue Sukkah and the Cantor's Sukkah for a wonderful luncheon.

Later in the day, I will be going to the condo for the Columbus Day Weekend.  I approach this trip with joy.   I no longer fear what he will do or say because it is expected and it doesn't matter.  How's that for moving forward???

I will not be writing until I return.

Thank you for this wonderful Sabbath.

I am truly grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Today was the second day of Sukkoth.    I walked for two hours before services and will try to walk again later.

The services were uplifting as well as spiritual.   I so enjoyed being with friends in the Sukkah, especially meeting new people.  People who didn't speak to me in years are talking to me.  The Triad has been forgotten at PJC!!!!

I will read today and prepare dinner for Shabbos.

I also need to finish packing.  It is also Columbus Day Weekend and we are going to the condo.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR SYNAGOGUE ON SUCCOTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am retired and I attended a luncheon in the Sukkoth hosted by the Rabbi and the Cantor.

I awoke so early this morning that the moon was still up.  I walked for two hours.

Then I went to services at PJC for the festival of Sukkoth.  I felt so joyful!!!  I made it!!!!  Festivals belonged to me now.  I didn't have to go to work!!!!!! They were no longer living here to destroy my peace and quiet.  I know how to handle him.  He didn't go.  Then again, he never attends services.   I sat with friends during the service and really enjoyed myself.  I felt so comfortable both with the Almighty and with my friends.

A luncheon was hosted by the Rabbi and the Cantor in the Cantor's Sukkoth.   I DID NOT DIET!!!!  I enjoyed everything.   It was wonderful!!!!   I so enjoyed sitting with friends.

I came home to go on the computer, to read and to walk again.

I must have eaten everything in sight.  This definitely was not a diet day!!!!

Thank you Almighty for the peace and serenity that I feel.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

Today will be a wonderful day.   I'm walking for my usual two hours.

I will be trying out a new yoga class.  Then I signed up for a Healthy Oils Workshop at the studio with Dawn.

Tonight is the eve of the holiday of Sukkoth.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ENJOYING MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am enjoying my life.

Retirement is awesome.

I was able to finish my book for the Yoga Book Club last night.  I downloaded the next book for the Sisterhood Book Club on to my Kindle and began to read it.   I also blogged it.   It's a good book and an easy read.

After dinner, we watched The Lego Movie.  It was terrible and we never finished it.

I will walk this morning and mail it.  Tonight I have a yoga class.  It's a quiet day so I gave him the opportunity to plan something.  Let's see what happens.

More later!!!!

We went to the Tanger Outlet in Deer Park and he went shopping.  I just like walking around which was fine.   Westbury Gardens is closed on Tuesday and so the choice was fine.  I purchased a challah because Sukkoth starts tomorrow night.   After dinner, I'm going to Restorative Yoga and then will watch Forever on television. 

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am enjoying my life.

Thank you, Almighty!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR BEING REALISTIC AND IN CONTROL

I am grateful to the Almighty that He me me a realistic person that is in control of my life.

I cannot change the damage that was inflicted upon me by the triad as well as by my parents BUT I definitely can control its impact upon me.   I choose to LET IT GO!!!!

We did go to Shula and Elian's house yesterday because one of their sons got married.  We were ignored by Hilary and Izzy who gave us the most obligatory time.    I knew this and I chose to LET IT GO making the time spent with them, not meaningful at all.   The younger one didn't even bother to show up.  That' the way this group functions as a family.

We took the dog to the park afterwards and went out to dinner.  I got to finish The NY Times, read my book and watch Boardwalk Empire.

Today, I will walk.  I'm going to lunch and to a library book discussion with my friends.  I need to call the dentist and go to the bank too.

I'm glad that the Almighty made me a realistic person.  It does make life easier.  Sometimes sadness does set in, but I try to be aware and move forward.

I am grateful to the Almighty for His help.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH AND FORTITUDE

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me strength and fortitude.

Last night, even though I had fasted all day, he was in rare form.  He was looking for something, anything to start arguing about.  I knew this and during services I made sure to realize that I would be exhausted and was prepared to say absolutely nothing.  I won.

I enjoyed my day at services.  The prayers and Rabbi's speech were very spiritual.  I enjoyed the healing session with the Rabbi too.  When I came home, I was pleased to have a quiet dinner and then was able to read and generally get my house back in shape.

I'm up early to walk.  I hope to take a yoga class and then go to Weight Watchers.

Today I have to go to a brunch with the older one's family.  If you remember, he hates the boyfriend and the family.  This should be interesting..........more later!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR A PEACEFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a peaceful day.

I am writing after Yom Kippur.

Thanks to the Almighty, it was a peaceful and spiritual day.  I hope that everything that I prayed for comes truth.

I really enjoyed the sermon and the Rabbi's healing class.  It will definitely help me deal with my own life.   We spoke of mental illness and how it takes over a family.  This has happened to me and I survived.

Thank you, Almighty for a peaceful day.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL THAT I MADE IT THROUGH THE RAIN

I am so grateful to the Almighty because He helped me make it through the rain this year.

Tonight is Kol Nidre and tomorrow is Yom Kippur.   I will be at services all day praying that this year my family and myself will have a healthy and happy New Year.

I always am nervous at this time of year because I want us all to be inscribed in the Book of Life.  I pray it is so.

The year has been awesome because I made it through the rain and learned how to handle all my adversaries.  For the third year in a row,  I did not invite them.  It has made the holiday so much more spiritual.   One stayed in pjs all day and never went to services.  The other went to services and then acted in a juvenile manner.  For example, she never prayed but spent time bending her father's thumb back!!!!   Gone are the break fasts where no one fasted and I only did a break fast to encourage my daughters to be observant.  You can see how that worked out!!!!

I pray that the New Year will bring us Health, Happiness, Peace and Calmness.  I hope to continue to benefit from all that yoga has taught me.

Thank you, Almighty.

I am grateful.

GRTEFUL FOR MAINTAINING MY OWN PEACE AND CALM

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has taught me, based on experiences,  how to main my well being and maintain a peaceful and calm state.

He was riding high on July 31, 2012 when the horrific incident occurred. My retirement changed all that in that the older one is with a man that he hates and neither daughter calls him. The younger one calls when she needs something.   That has put him into a state of depression and he would like nothing better than to lash out at me.

However, that is not happening as I know how to maintain a peaceful and calm existence so that I can enjoy my life.     I am quiet!!!!!!!  It works!!!!   

It took forever to update my I-Phone 5 yesterday, but now it's done.  The book that I'm reading for the Yoga Book Club is a real page turner.  In three days, I'm 70% done!!!!!

Today I will walk and then take a yoga class.

I'm excited to say that my hair will be colored and blown out today.

I will not be making dinner, but will be going out!!!!

I am thankful to the Almighty for helping me maintain a peaceful and calm existence.

I am grateful to Him!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY APPRECIATION OF LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I truly appreciate my new life.

I am so happy that I began this retirement adventure.  Everyday is filled with new experiences.  Each day is different.

Yesterday I loved going to the "candy store" and seeing my pension in direct deposit.

Today it is cloudy.  It looks like it might rain.  However, I will walk anyway!!!!

My plan today is to go to an Apple lesson where I will put more music on my IPOD.  I hope that I learn to do this.

I will read my book for the Yoga Book Club too.  It's about lesbians!!

Tonight I have a yoga class.

I hope to start cleaning yet another closet because the weather is bad.  However I may be lucky with nothing to clean!!!!!

I am so happy with my new life.

Thank you, Almighty.

UPDATE-   Nothing to clean in closet!!!!!  I updated my phone and I-POD shuffles at the Apple Store.   No time for music.