He is a very difficult man to be with and the title says it all. He knows what to say but it is all a pack of lies. Let's take the subject of vacations. Casinos in Atlantic City, Foxwoods, Mohican Sun, Cape Cod, Montauk Manor...these are possible vacation sites. He will go if I want to. But, honestly, I've lost all the enthusiasm to get excited about going anyplace with him. And he tells you that he is a homebody. Do I need the work of getting excited about my own vacation? Nope! So we aren't going.
Condo in the Hamptons? He hates it. We need to find a new one. Or, he says, should we just have one place? At this point, I said if we do that, it ends vacations. OK..two places says he. Should I get excited? Nope!
Condo in lieu of living in our house? He needs more people! Why? So he can set them up to fight with each other? And not realize why they are doing this? This weekend's reason was demeaning! If he's gone, I won't know how to handle a house. When I couldn't take it any more, I said that I was a capable worker and would find out what to do.
It's tough. You need to be IN CONTROL at all times and for this, I am grateful. Yoga has taught me to live in the moment. Mystical Psychology ha taught me to change channels, and for this I am grateful because he didn't interfere with this weekend's activities at all.
Honestly, though, it's hard to be around him both for the lies, the unsaid things and the things that he says. I am grateful to the Almighty that I am strong and have surrounded myself with activities and friends.
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