It ha been difficult. Due to the snow, I am around him a lot as I have not given up my activities. He drives me where I have to go. For this, I am grateful. The flip side is that he doesn't miss a beat to banter and I know that one answer will take me down a road that I don't want to go.
I'm not a machine and sometimes there are cracks in the armor. But, after I make one comment in answer to a banter, I quickly draw myself back.
For example, I happened to say that I hope my bonding doesn't break when I go to the dentist next week. That gave him the opportunity to banter about the dentist. It's a worn road, so I answered to explain about the structure of the bonding. As I was explaining, I saw myself go down that road, and I pulled back.
He is reading a book, where my older daughter is quoted by the author because she had a brain injury. He thinks that she is a wonderful therapist and because we are stuck so close, it takes all my willpower, not to say anything. I remember what she pulled on July 31. I succeeded but it takes a lot of strength to do this.
I mentioned that I gained weight. He didn't miss a beat and told me that it was the wine that I drink. The fact is that through yoga, I have a mantra, (I HAVE JOY, I HAVE ENERGY, I WILL HAVE A GOOD DAY) and an intention to have a good day and because I am in control of me, the weight has gone back to normal. It takes a lot of will power not to answer.
In the long run, I am grateful to the Almighty for my calm, cool, collected nature. I'm sure that he would have loved to have an issue, but alas, he failed.
I would like the snow to melt because some things never change and this is a good example of it.I could see that he felt he wasn't winning, because he hoped that he wouldn't have to drive me tomorrow.
ME TOO!!!!!!
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