GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF FULLY

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have finally learned how to love myself fully.

When things come up, as they do in a family, before I make any suggestion, my first thought is, "how will this affect me?"  Most times, these decisions don't affect me.  In these cases, I have learned the value of stillness and I await a decision.

A case in point is the text that I received from the older one this morning.  Mothers Day has been set up by me at 6PM in a restaurant where they live. There was no reason to repeat the mistakes of last year.  The gift is a donation to your favorite charity.  There is no reason for a repeat performance of last year's hurtful gift.

Anyway, her boyfriend, although invited couldn't come.  This is as I suspected since he didn't come last year.  The excuse was different. Last year, it was his birthday.  This year it is his mother.  However, he could come Father's Day.

I told him about this text and now it is up to him to decide what to do.  This has really freed me up because I no longer am in charge of everyone's decisions.

Life has become a vacation as I begin to learn how to love myself fully and I am thankful to the Almighty for this.   I have learned that all decision making is not my responsibility.  This has made me very light-hearted.

Tonight, I am giving myself a gift that will make my heart soar.   I am going to RESTORATIVE YOGA.   Yesterday, I gave myself a gift to also make my heart soar.  I brought all my SPRING clothes back from the cleaners.

Spring and Summer are my favorite times of year.  

Thanks to the Almighty, I have am learning to love myself fully and will enjoy these seasons because I have learned the value of stillness and the love I have for myself.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABILITY TO ASSESS- SMALL STEPS FOR YOU

I am grateful to the Almighty for the ability to assess my life.

I'm making good time at work. so I decided to look back at last year to see if any improvement has ben made in me.

I am delighted to say that there has been positive movement.

Because I am practicing STILLNESS,  he knows nothing of my friends or of my life except a global overview.   This has stopped him from making comments because first of all, he has no information.  Secondly, he isn't sure of the activities as to what they are or when they are done.  Thirdly,  he doesn't know the people.   Occasionally he will go to synagogue for an event.  He will see that I know people, but doesn't know who they are.

Stillness has allowed me not to react to anything that he says.  He does try each weekend, to create an issue by making a snide remark.   BUT, IT DOESN'T GET ANSWERED!!!!  Then what does one do?????

I no longer plan anything.  I do enough where I don't have to plan anything with him. This takes away his power to say "NO."   Occasionally,we do something and it does afford him the opportunity to carry on, but then it doesn't happen for a while.


I noticed a pattern last year.   I shared my activities.   I shared stories of people.   I asked him to do things.  I spoke about his behaviors.

As I said, I no longer do these things.

It's quiet.  It's calm.  It's still.  It's wonderful!!!!!

I PROMISE TO MAKE IT CONTINUE!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ANOTHER NEW PAGE IN MY STORY

I am grateful to the Almighty for another new page in my story.

I have HEALTH.  I have HAPPINESS!!   I am CALM.  I feel STILLNESS!!

I am so grateful for this.

This was the best weekend that I have had in a long time.  I can be home, enjoying the things that I do and be comfortable with stillness.

Since I learned to do YOGA, I have looked inside myself and found such strength.  

I have opened my heart to all new possibilities for myself.

I have found stillness and calmness.

I am so grateful.

The week starts off today, by me going to the cleaning store with my winter things.  Dinner is leftovers for me from yesterday.  A really good book awaits me.

I have success because I am now comfortable in my own home.

I am grateful!!

GRATEFUL FOR PRIDE IN MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty for the pride that I feel in myself.

I saw it all day yesterday.   I'm very proud of myself.  I'm happy.  I'm calm.  I feel like I accomplished many things and am proud of myself.  I am so thankful to the Almighty for this.

I have done my morning chores already.  It's only 7:30AM.   It's a beautiful day.  I'm going to walk and then go to yoga.   I'm working on my Spring/Summer closet today.  These are my two favorite seasons.   I have set up chicken and squash for dinner.   

Off to walk........

I went to Doreen's yoga class and really enjoyed it.   I put gas in the car and got my Dunkin' Donuts.  There is nothing better than breakfast, newspapers and Dunkin' Donuts coffee.

The closet is proving to be a challenge.   I'm up to it!!!

Today he has decided to be pleasant and talkative.  Does it really matter at this point???

I am making chicken and squash for dinner.

I'm very proud of myself.

Thank you Almighty for this wonderful day!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for this wonderful Shabbos.

I pulled it off.  I know exactly what is going on, what to say, when to say it and when to be still.

The stillness is absolutely beautiful.  You can't banter when someone doesn't respond.  For example, when I came back from walking, he didn't say "HELLO" and then neither did I.  His next comment was, THIS IS NOT WORKING OUT.   I never answered.  He was waiting for any reply so he could carry on.  IT DIDN'T HAPPEN!!!!

I de-frosted chicken for me for tomorrow and brought up a pot for the spaghetti squash.  I never said that we aren't going out, but I don't need to go out with him.  Last week we did go out and it was terrible.  He didn't stop complaining even though I threw him a bone.  I decided not to do it for a while.  Good for me!!!  And no one knows, but me!!!   BEAUTIFUL!!!!

I am so in control of this!!!  It's because I learned about stillness from yoga.

I am so grateful to the Almighty for this day!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SHABBOS

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful Shabbos.

I went to a celebration of my butcher Jerry, who is moving to Florida.  Services were spiritual and the celebration was lovely.

I'm going to read The NY TIMES with lunch and then start my new book.

I'm going to walk today because there isn't a cloud in the sky.

Thank you, Almighty for this restful day!!!!

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR HIS FAILURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because he cannot help but fail.   

After yesterday, he is looking for an issue, even going so far as to say, WHAT'S WRONG??

But, the response he gets is singing.

I have done some cool chores.  

The truck has been washed.  Winter jackets are now inside the truck.  Papers have been filed. Shabbos dinner has been set up.   I am on the computer, getting ready to read an make dinner.

I decided to cancel membership in the PECONIC WINE CLUB.  We get rid of that which doesn't serve us.

Interesting to see if he fails all weekend.  My guess is that he will because I am wise to him.

Good Shabbos!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ANOTHER PAGE OF MY NEW STORY

I am grateful to the Almighty that I am a healthy and happy person who is capable of writing a new page to my new story on a daily basis.

Yesterday, after work I got a manicure and changed the color on my pedicure to match.  I got the new color for Spring and it's making me very happy.

I met a girlfriend for dinner and really enjoyed myself.  As I told you in prior entries, my weight is going up because I'm happy.

I came home to show him my new toes.   Men generally like toes and I asked him to lick mine.  He became very angry about not doing this and worked himself into "chest pains."  I walked out. He really is non-sexual and has been for years.  No "good night or anything........."

This morning he wanted to start an issue.  I very proudly said that I have to get ready for work and would talk later.  I said this in my cute little voice having no intention of discussing this or anything later.  

I was very proud that I have learned to do this.  I'm happy and have accomplished a lot this week and I had fun, from Reiki on Monday through Yoga on Tuesday and Wednesday, ending with a delightful manicure and pedicure and dinner with my girlfriend yesterday.

I know what he is and this little interlude convinced me that it will be  good summer after all.

The weather is getting warmer.  It is time to tackle the closets this weekend.

Thank you Almighty for the next page of my story. 

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW STORY

I am grateful to the Almighty for for each page of my new story.

It is so uplifting when I think of my life as a story and each day as a new page filled with interesting and exciting things.

Yesterday, I had a wonderful private yoga lesson with Leslie.  I did things that I never thought that I could do.

I went to dinner with him in one of my favorite restaurants near the studio.  I expected him not to like it and I wasn't disappointed, but I had a wonderful time.

I'm enjoying the book that I am reading.  It's a take-off on CATCH 22. It's a fictionalized account of the War in Iraq.

Today, to make my heart sing, I am going for a manicure and having dinner with a friend. My weight has gone up to its pre-catastrophie weight and I'm happy about that.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this page of my new story!!!

GRATEFUL FOR "A NEW STORY"

I am grateful to the Almighty for allowing me to see that I have " a new story."

Imagine finding this out in Restorative Yoga of all places.  Dawn spoke about, "LETING GO OF THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE YOU," and creating a new story for yourself and all of a sudden I had the words for what I have been doing all my life and I was amazed. 

Remember, this week, I spoke of the changes that I had made to MOTHERS DAY?  I also spoke of not looking for another condo out East.   I spoke of letting him handle KEVIN MULLIGAN, a man who is just like him.  Remember all that???

I was creating a new story for myself!!!!!!!

I will continue to do this with the condo.  I will not mourn the past.  I will not think about prior summers.  That's over!  I will not feed that wolf!!!   

I will not ask for cable in the condo.  Nor will I join the beach. If he wants these things, he can ask me. 

I will plan a summer for me that makes my heart sing!!! 

One new thing that I want to do is join the pool!  I will take some interesting yoga classes.  There will be other ideas that I will come up with as I create, A NEW STORY.

I am grateful to the Almighty for putting this into beautiful yoga words!

GRATEFUL FOR MY INTELLIGENCE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my intelligence.

No one figured out what I was up to yesterday.  I'm still smiling because I am so brilliant.

I did another thing yesterday and it had to do with the condo.  I thought it up after the incident with Mothers Day. 

Why should I begin to look for another condo?  Why should I sell the one I have?

Did I have a wonderful time with him in this condo for all the years that I owned it?  The answer to that is, "NO."  Why was I looking for another one?

The town that I live in is like a vacation.  There are so many things that I enjoy here.  I do them in a group without him. Yesterday, I went to Reiki and tonight, I have Restorative Yoga.  Out east, I don't have these things.  Last year, I didn't have cable television or a beach.  In years gone by, I didn't have decent restaurants, activities or a beach.  I did read a lot and I got to go to the library.

I decided to talk to him about not looking and keeping what we had.   He agreed. I recognized that his only pleasure was opening bank accounts.   I asked to send him all the e-mails from the blockbuster. He can deal with him.  He agreed.  If there is an issue, I can always sell.

I certainly, after all these years and memories, do not need a vacation with him.

My life is like a vacation without him.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to create a life that I value and for showing me how to use my intelligence to do this.

I am still smiling.  I never realized how effective lying can be.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABILITY TO LIE

Sometimes one has to lie in order to move forward for one's own dignity.  I am proud to say that this was one of those times.

I was very angry when he decided to go out Mothers Day with them.  I really didn't think anyone deserved that.  I was angry because he had promised to create a "Parent Day".  Instead when the older one said, "see you on Mothers Day," he said nothing.  When I asked him why he did that, he told me that I could handle it if I wanted to make a change.

Like hell I was going to handle it, not with this group.  Needless to say, I remember that infamous day in July of 2012.

However, I came up with a plan and it amazed even me because it was so filled with lies.  There would be no "girls day".  She has forfeited that when she chose his mother over me. If his mother wanted to have dinner, I could get an hour here or there.   She has always done that going back to when she chose the neighbor over me.  But, I wasn't going to play second fiddle.   I chose to go to The Brick, where she lives.

It was a perfect choice.  We would have dinner with them in a place I loved. Here is the first lie. I think that the area she lives in is horrible and the restaurant is even worse.  I knew that he hated the restaurant and hated driving there.  We would have dinner at 6:00 which is early.  Here is the second lie because I would get the entire day to myself.  I did not want a gift.  Here is the third lie.  I asked her to make a donation to a charity because I have everything I need.  What's the lie??   It was insulting to get yoga mat cleaner last year and I don't want anything this year.    Here's the fourth lie.   I told her to invite the boyfriend.  I knew that would upset him and that is just what I owe him.

All in all, I did very well.  I'm not a lier.  However, necessity is the mother of invention and I handled this very well.

I am grateful to the Almighty for allowing me to do this!!!

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING HOW TO PRETEND

I am grateful to the Almighty for learning how to pretend..

I must pick and choose my battles. I will never forget how I was treated on July 31st.   I chose not to sleep over at the older one's apartment Mothers Day Weekend.  I chose not to go to Great Books with her.  I will not go to Kripala.  I will not invite her to workshops at my studio. These things, I have control over as they are about ONLY me.

However, I will do Mothers Day dinner because I won't make my dislike that obvious. This dinner involves other people.   I really do not want them in my home.  I pretended to love The Brick, just to get away from my house.  I told him that perhaps we don't want the boyfriend in our home.   I might change my mind and have them come to my home as this involves a group.

I will not purchase another condo, although I will pretend to look.  After the way he treated me, I don't have to get myself involved in another transaction.

I am grateful to the Almighty for teaching me to pretend.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL WEEKEND

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful weekend that I had.

I am using the principles of yoga to guide me and as a result, the weekend was a huge success.  The most important concept that I have learned is that of STILLNESS.  I can think what I want, but I have put a filter on my mouth so that much of what I think doesn't come out.  I have also learned how not to tell the truth about what I don't want to do.

As a result, my weekend was perfect.  I did everything that I wanted to do.  Many of the things that I did, I did joyfully.  I walked.  I went to my yoga class.  I went to Weight Watchers.  I read both the newspapers, but also magazines and my book.  I had time to watch a movie as well as do chores.  All of this was done with stillness, joy and pleasure.    I am very grateful for this.

I have also internalized the concept of MAKNG YOUR HEART SING.   Tonight, I will go to REIKI and my heart will sing.

I have also, GOTTEN RID OF THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME  so that my heart can heal.  With this in mind, I have kept up not texting daily.  I am very proud of myself.

Thank you Almighty, for this wonderful, still and quiet weekend!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SUNDAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for my relaxing Sunday!!!!

It was cold outside, but I did get to walk for 2 hours.  The sky was a beautiful blue.  The trees were waking up in all their colors.  There was white, pink and green.  It was absolutely beautiful!!

Then it was off to a wonderful yoga class.

This was followed by gassing up the car for the week.  I headed down to Weight Watchers to get weighed and then to Dunkin' Donuts for coffee.

I read the NY Times and Newsday and now I'm on the computer.

After this, I will pack up the truck for work tomorrow.  I still have my book to read.


I love Sunday!!!

Thank you Almighty!!!  

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SHABBOS!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for Shabbos!!!!

Services were very spiritual.   I enjoyed being with my friends.

I will walk later as the weather clears.

My life is very peaceful.


I am grateful to the Almighty for Shabbos!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE GOOD IN MY LIFE

I am thankful to the Almighty for all the good that is in my life.   

As I look back on entries from last year, I realize how far I have come. Stillness has played a big part in my "new life."  I no longer try to teach him what he should or should not do.  I no longer try to tell him, even in a quiet voice, how he has upset me.  I no longer say anything of consequence to him.  This has made my life beautiful!!!

I have learned to text them.  As a pretense, I say that it is because I wanted  to learn to text, but that isn't it.  I want a non-emotional relationship that is calm and quiet. I have reached the age where  texting will make that happen for me.  It has.

As a result of this, there is beautiful stillness where I am able to do so many things quietly and calmly.  I am able to try new things happily.  I am able to laugh.  I am able to enjoy life.

I am very proud of myself.  It has been a very big change for me.  It is a change that is a very good one.

I am happy!!!!

Good Shabbos!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE SPIRITUALITY OF YOGA

I am so grateful to the Almighty for sending me yoga.

Yoga has been extremely helpful by teaching me to quiet my mind and to be comfortable with stillness.

So much of what I used to think, I would say and always found myself disappointed, stressed out and miserable.  He would be thrilled at the control that he had over me.

Now, I might think these thoughts, but I don't say them.  I breathe deeply and look at the richness of my life and move forward.

For example, this morning he thanked me for chatting with him yesterday.  I never answered. There was no point.  I haven't dreamt a dream with him or about him in, I don't know when.

It's gotten so that I don't want to interrupt my life to make any plans with them. Sometimes I have to.  There are things that can't be changed.  I accept that.  But, for the most part, I lead a pleasant, and quiet life for me.  He told me that the younger one was coming on Saturday, to take the car to the dealer.  I usually walk after services.  Nothing will interrupt that.   He wants to go out east this coming Sunday.  Hopefully, the weather will be too cold for that.

I am grateful to the Almighty for helping me to discover the spirituality of yoga.  Yoga has helped me to develop my life and for this I am also grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR KNOWING EXACTLY WHO I AM

I am grateful to the Almighty for finally knowing who and what I am.

Nothing is going to upset me because I expect anything. 

Therefore I can move on with my own life quietly.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABILITY TO REALLY LISTEN

I am grateful to the Almighty for the ability to really listen and apply what I hear to benefit my own life.

One can hear someone speak to you, but until you really listen, nothing changes.

Yesterday, because of yoga, so many things became clear to me. Working on "the core," the other day really helped me understand how this relates to self esteem.  Raising your core helps to raise your self-esteem.  Last night, I attended a Restorative Yoga Workshop and Dawn, the new instructor, spoke of an Indian story of two wolves.   It had to do with how we  feed them.  It seems that we have a choice.  We can choose to feed the wolf of happiness or the wolf of unhappiness.  That made so much sense to me. I really listened to the story and intend to apply it to my own life.  I hope to continue to feed the wolf of happiness in order to make my heart sing.

Yoga is wonderful because I pick up so many spiritual ideas that help me in my life.  I listen and I remember them.  I apply them to make my life better.

Another example of my new ability to listen and apply what I hear happened this morning.  He  chose to tell me how caring the older one is.  I listened.  I used my yoga principles.  I applied concepts that I had learned.  I was successful.  The one I used was stillness.  He spoke and I listened and didn't comment.  When he asked why I was quiet, I told him that I was listening. This was not the reaction that he wanted, but this was the one he received.

Thank you Almighty for the ability to listen, to absorb, to apply and to use stillness in a positive and healthy way for myself.

I am grateful!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR LOVING MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am in love with my life.

I am really evolving and doing special things that I enjoy and having so many new and fun experiences.

It was a brilliant idea to put him in charge of plans because there are no plans and I can go about my business quietly and joyfully.   I know that whatever I want, he won't want to do, so I move forward into stillness with joy and confidence.

I am grateful to the Almighty.  The Almighty has been watching over me for a long time and was probably very frustrated that I wasn't getting it.

Now I get it and I love my life.

Thank you, Almighty for my joy!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE YOGA CONCEPTS OF STILLNESS AND THE CORE

I am grateful to the Almighty for learning about stillness and the core yesterday during my private lesson with Leslie.

Stillness is going to help me to continue to be quiet as I go about my life.  It will help me to view the world around me in a calm way.  It will help me meditate on the good life that I have.  It will help me to relax.

Learning about the vale of the core will help me to raise my self-esteem at home.

I will be going to a RESTORATIVE YOGA CLASS tonight.

I can't wait to see what I will learn.

Thank you Almighty for helping me to learn these new concepts.

GRATEFUL FOR A PERFECT NIGHT

I am grateful to the Almighty for a perfect night.

I walked after work and then went to yoga.

Leslie and I worked on "the core."

I came home, made dinner and I'm going to read.

Thank you Almighty for this perfect night.

GRATEFUL FOR AN INTENTION

I am grateful to the Almighty for leading me to yoga so that I could learn about intentions.

To me, an intention is a goal that you set for yourself.

This week will be difficult for him and in turn, he will try to make me upset.  As he told me, "I AM ALWAYS MISERABLE.  YOU ARE ALWAYS HAPPY.  MY GOAL IS TO MAKE YOU AS MISERABLE AS ME."

That is not going to happen this week.

In RESTORATIVE YOGA, I learned about the beauty of stillness.  Stillness is a positive way to say, Silence.

I also reviewed that one must let go of that which doesn't serve you in order to heal.

I am going to use these concepts this week to create the following intention for myself:

I WILL PRACTICE STILLNESS WHEN HE TRYS TO UPSET ME.  I WILL LET GO OF THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME TO CONTINUE TO HEAL.

I WILL LIMIT THE AMOUNT OF TEXTING THAT I DO.

I HAVE JOY!!  I HAVE ENERGY!!!  I WILL HAVE A GOOD DAY!!

Thank you Almighty for teaching me the value of intentions.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me this wonderful day.

The weather is beautiful.   This allowed me to walk for two hours this morning before breakfast listening to music on my I-POD.

Then it was off to a really good yoga class with Doreen.

Here I am, blogging on the computer.   I have read both newspapers and had delicious Dunkin' Donuts coffee.

I signed up for a Restorative Yoga Workshop this afternoon.

I have learned how valuable silence and quiet are.  They give you so much more time to enjoy life.

The funny thing was that Giselle spoke of silence at the workshop today.  She connected silence to stillness.  Because there is stillness, then one can grow.

Also important to realize is when you let go of something that no longer serves you, you begin to heal.  I found that to be very important because sometimes, it is difficult to let go, and then healing doesn't occur.

Giselle also spoke of creating an INTENTION.  One should not look back because that gives you depression.  Looking ahead may cause anxiety.  The idea is to be in the PRESENT.

I came home and read.  I'm making dinner.  I didn't see the need to go out.  I was out all day.

I also ordered VICTORIA SECRET clothing.

It is truly a wonderful day.

Thank you, Almighty for showing me the way!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SHABBOS

I am grateful to the Almighty for this beautiful Shabbos.  It was filled with the spirituality of services.  It is filled with synagogue friends who are fun to talk to.

I changed the person who did my manicure yesterday and really like the one that I have now.

After lunch, I'm going to take a walk because the weather is beautiful.

Good Shabbos to all!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE WEEK THAT WAS

I am so grateful to the Almighty for the lovely things that I did this week.

I find myself so relaxed.

Next week will be a test for me!!!!  He is going for skin cancer surgery.  

My intention is to be very quiet.

I did a good thing by re-arranging my activities to Monday and Tuesday.

I'm sure that with the Almighty's help, I will be fine.

GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE JOY IN MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joy that I have found in my new life.

I am so happy within myself.

My weight is returning to it's previous level because I am not stressed.

I know just what to do and say.

This was proven to me yesterday when I took the day off and enjoyed it.

I am so grateful to the Almighty that I could cry!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR A DAY OFF

I am grateful to the Almighty because I took a day off from work today.

I know exactly how to handle myself as well ad what to say and when to be quiet.  Nothing bad can happen to me!!!

There were times when he tried to bait me, but the attempt met with failure.  Not that I didn't think about an answer.  I just didn't say it.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the day off!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.   Out of the ashes of July 31, 2012 came a wonderful new life for me because I was ready to say, "ENOUGH."

Last night I attended a wonderful discussion at my book club at the Syosset Library.  It was so good that we stayed afterward and continued the conversation.

This morning after I arose, I said my morning prayers.  Then I said my mantra.  This too has changed my life as it focuses me and allows me to embrace the joy joyfully.

I dressed in yoga clothes for work.

Today, I'm going to my private yoga lesson where I will discuss another book.  Then it's off to dinner with friends and then the Sisterhood Book Club will meet.

I am working on limiting texting because it is, "ENOUGH."

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.  Thank you!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE BOOK, MORE OR LESS

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me Leslie who, not only my yoga teacher, but the person who thought up the YOGA BOOK CLUB.  We are reading MORE OR LESS and the book has changed my life.

The theme of the book is for the reader to understand what is enough in your life.    How much do you really need of whatever it is?    Why do you keep things, ideas, people in your life that you don't really need?  How much is enough?

I understood the concept of enough when it came to shopping.  How much do you really need?  I understood that closets had to be cleaned to rid yourself of things that you had been saving that you don't need.

BUT, HOW TO DECIDE THAT YOU HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF AN INDIVIDUAL?  HOW DOES ONE MOVE FORWARD?

I did through texting those people that didn't serve me.  There are people that I have had enough of. These are uncooperative people who only think about their own needs.  It's time to have less texting to those people.   Everyday there does not have to be a text message to those people that want to upset us.   We don't need multiple messages in one day.  That is my new plan.  

Thank you Almighty for getting me to this point in time.

A NEW INTENTION

I have moved forward into a state of calm and quiet with him.

I need to do the same thing with my older one who also likes to create grief.

I have thought about this a long time and have decided how to handle it.

We usually text daily.   My intention is to move that to every other day.  That will give me a day of peace and quiet.  I will move forward from there.

IT STARTS TODAY!!!!   NO TEXTING UNTIL TOMORROW!!!!!  

That is my intention!!!!!!

THANK YOU FOR WATCHING OVER ME

I am grateful to the Almighty for watching over me this weekend.   I have become an entirely new person.    I have embraced yoga principles  in order to move my life forward.

I am calm, cool and collected at every moment and that allows me to make personal decisions that are good for me.    From services to minyons, to walking, to yoga, to workshops, to reading, to shopping, I am enjoying my life.

I looked back on this weekend with pleasure as I did things that I enjoyed.  I did them quietly.  I did them without explanation.

I thank you Almighty.  I finally got what you were trying to tell me for such a long time.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL DAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for a wonderful day.

My intention was to be calm, love myself deeply,  and let go of that which didn't serve me.

I did just that.

I walked for 2 hours this morning.  I went to Yoga, taught by my friend Doreen.  I went to my monthly Weight Watchers meeting and now I'm on the computer.

I know what to say and what not to say.

It has been a wonderful day.

Thank you, Almighty!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR APPRECIATING MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the amazing life he has given me.


I went from prayers at synagogue on this beautiful Saturday to a wonderful meditation workshop at my yoga studio.

I'm going to walk shortly and then I promised a friend that I would attend the evening minyon.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.

GRATEFUL FOR FITTING INTO MY COMMUNITY

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me the motivation, strength and determination to fit into my community.

My reputation had almost been destroyed by those girls and thanks to a lot of hard work and the Almighty's encouragement, I was able to fit into the community again.

I saw this yesterday when I was comfortable paying a shiva call to the Cantor and wasn't afraid of who else would be there.  Those girls are long forgotten and it hopefully will stay that way.

Thank you, Almighty for helping me to fit in.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY OF LIVING

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me the joy of living.

Every day I wake up and bless the Almighty.  I remind myself to love myself deeply and to let go of that which doesn't serve me.

Then I think about the previous day's joy.   Yesterday, I loved my private lesson with Leslie.  We did shoulders and talked about the book we were reading.   I had dinner with Doreen and celebrated by eating whatever I chose to in celebration that Passover was over.   I worked very hard to put the holiday together and really enjoyed it.   Doreen and I are planning a yoga business and I think that the idea will do very well.

I approach the new day with joy and gratitude and wonder to see what is in store for me.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joy of life.

GRATEFUL FOR LISTENING TO HOLLIE

I am so grateful to the Almighty for sending me Hollie who encouraged me to attend yoga classes.

I have learned to let go that which doesn't serve me.    I feel so light-hearted as a result of this. It is like a dream come true.

All the therapy that I have had did not affect me as the spirituality of yoga.

It is truly a blessing.

Thank you Almighty for sending Hollie.

GRATEFUL FOR SENDING ME YOGA

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me to yoga.

This morning, while getting ready for work, I was thinking about the past and the future and becoming upset.  I realized that yoga teaches us that thinking about the past may cause depression while thinking about the future may cause anxiety.  My intention is to live in the present.


Yoga also teaches us to love ourselves deeply and get rid of that which doesn't serve us. I realized the Great Books no longer served me and I'm not going to the conference.  My older one can decide what she should do.  Meeting her boyfriend's parents in the summer doesn't serve me so I'm not doing that either.  I will do that in the fall.


Yoga has taught me another way to look at things and another way to say things. Combined with calm and quiet, I am in charge of myself with no emotion at all.

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me yoga.

GRATEFUL FOR MY VACATION

I am grateful to the Almighty for making my vacation/Passover holiday the huge success for me that it was.

I planned activities for myself.  I got things done around the house.   I relaxed. I did yoga at the studio.  I went shopping.  I went to services.  I spoke with friends.   It was wonderful.

I was able to be casual, calm and collected.  I was quiet when I needed to be.  I answered when I had to but I was never direct.  I was always vague.  I didn't get emotional about anything.  I didn't revisit that which I didn't want to.  I didn't answer when I didn't have to.

I conducted the Seders beautifully and I didn't let anyone bother me.

I'm back at work and rested and relaxed.  That's how I know I succeeded.

Thank you, Almighty for showing me the way.