GRATEFUL FOR SUCCESSES

I am grateful to the Almighty for my successes.

Today is March 31, 2014.   It is 20 months since that horrible day,  July 31, 2012.  

This morning as I got ready for work, I realized how far I have come and how much better my life is.  I have created so many wonderful activities for myself.   I have learned to be quiet around my enemies and I am at peace.

Occasionally, something will happen to upset me.  Last night, I woke up at 4:30AM thinking about the older one's request for the second seder night.  She wanted to be picked up at the train station with her boyfriend to come to the second seder or she would rent a ZipCar and have to bring it back early and would miss half of the seder.  I imagine that this was a threat, but it didn't bother me in the least.  I did get up at 4:30AM, and did think about it, but by the time I got ready for work, I had moved on.  

It snowed this morning and he had to drive me.  We talked about this.  I knew how anti-Jewish he is.  If there was no boyfriend that he hated, he would have picked her up and fought with me.  In this respect, I'm lucky.

Today, I have to call two of my friends to remind them of the Sisterhood dinner on Wednesday, before the book club.

Tonight will be a quiet night.  I'm reading a really good book for my next evening Syosset Book Club.  It's called Fever and is the story of Typhoid Mary.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my successes and the wonderful changes that I have made in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the wonderful things that He has taught me.

Today, I will remain busy and in the moment.

I have already started this morning.  I straightened up.  I took the dog out.  I did a wash.  I cleaned out bookshelves.  I made my bed.  I texted.

I'm off to a yoga class.

I find that being productive is a valuable thing.

More later!!!!

My yoga class was wonderful!!!!   I went to Fresh Produce afterwards and then to Home Depot to walk because it is raining outside.   I purchased meat at Woodbury Kosher for the Passover holiday, put gas in my truck and went to DD for amazing coffee.

I was able to read both newspapers at breakfast.   I set the table for the seders.   Now I am again on the computer listening to Frozen.  

I will be reading my book, showering and going to ShopRite.

I hope to go out for dinner.

Thank you, Almighty for teaching me to be in the moment.


FYI-   He cooperated with me nicely today.  We returned from the butcher where I needed a shank bone.  He actually saw it missing as we set the table for the seders.  We went to ShopRite and I found muffins as well as the Horse Radish. We had time to watch a Netflix film too.
THEN..............the older one texted to ask about seders.  If you remember, she is going to the bf for the first one, for a dinner, no seder.  She wanted to be picked up at the train.  I texted back that it was Yom Tov.  She said that if her sister wouldn't/couldn't drive them she would rent a ZIpCar and would have to leave early.  I said, fine."  Doesn't she realize that I know what she is???   This is why I distance myself from her.  He too was upset.  He hates bf.  This group makes some TRIAD.

GRATITUDE FROM BONDAGE TO FREEDOM

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have gone from bondage to freedom.

This was the theme of the Rabbi's speech at services today. It rang such a bell with me.  It has been the  theme of my life.

I have gone from bondage in my parent's house to bullying in a false marriage house!!!!

Now I am free!!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for my freedom.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING CONTENT

I am grateful to the Almighty because I feel a contentment in my life.   It is a feeling that I haven't had for a long time.

As is my custom,  every Friday,  before the Sabbath,  I evaluate my week.

This has been a week of contentment.  I feel happiness in all that I do.  My Passover preparations are coming along very nicely.   Matzah went to the vet and lost weight.  My triad has been quiet or at the least, I have learned how to handle them.  I have done many errands.  I enjoyed my yoga classes this week.  I enjoyed going to both the library book club, where I took time off from work on the guise of being ill, and the yoga book club where I took 1/2 day off from work.  I enjoyed the memory workshop also.

I have put the responsibility of talking to the older one in his hands.  Now I just ask what he discusses with her.  It was an excellent idea. We went out last night to "celebrate" the day we met.   I could be an actress especially when he said that it has been some ride.

As I look back at the week, I am proud of myself for loving myself deeply enough to make changes in my life.

I am grateful to the Almighty because there is a feeling of contentment within me.

GRATEFUL THAT MY HEART WILL SOAR AGAIN

I am grateful to the Almighty because my heart will soar again today!!!

Yesterday was wonderful.  I was able to walk after a good day's work.  I went to my Level 1 class.  We had Mel as the instructor instead of Leslie who was on jury duty and I did well.  I came home to continue to read my book.  One of my friend's called about the Sisterhood Book Discussion/Dinner next week and a plan was born.

Today, I'm taking 1/2 day at work so that I can attend the Yoga Book Club.  I'm excited.  It's so much fun doing yoga, having lunch and discussing a book.  Afterwards, I will head to the library for the Memory Workshop.   Somehow, I will squeeze in walking and of course I will read my book.

My Passover preparations are coming along very well.  Today, I cleaned out the other refrigerator.  I pack these unnecessary items up and throw them out when I pick up my coffee.

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful things in my life that make my heart soar.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE MY HEART SOARED

I am grateful to the Almighty because my heart soared yesterday and hopefully will again today.

Everything that I wanted to do yesterday happened.  It was a wonderful day.   I left work even earlier than I expected to because my office was needed for a meeting.  The Book Club discussion on John Garfield in the Syosset Library was awesome.  I took out the next book!!!!  I came home and was able to walk OUTSIDE for 1 hour and 37 minutes.  That is unheard of.  I made a delicious dinner.  I was able to attend my Restorative Yoga Class.  I came home to read yet another book for yet another book club!!!!!   What a wonderful day!!!!

It didn't snow today as was threatened!!!  I was able to drive to work.  My intention is to attend a Level 1 Yoga Class tonight and then have dinner.  I have my book to read!  Another wonderful day!!

And where is he in all of this??  He is the designated person to talk the older daughter out of that boyfriend.  It's his responsibility!!!  He is not happy about having to do this.  He doesn't want to hurt her.  That would be admirable if not for all the years that he hurt me.  However, I read last night and got a great night's sleep.  It's his responsibility, not mine.

And the older daughter???  I have lessened the nonsense texting.  And as long as he hates the boyfriend, who in many ways, is his clone, I don't have to bother with her.  Life works in strange ways.

And where is the condo??  No where because some won't take dogs, some are too big....... It's out of my happy little hands.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my life.  My heart is soaring!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR REALIZATIONS

I am grateful to the Almighty for making me very intelligent.   It is this person who is thoughtful and comes to important realizations.

It is time for me to admit that I really don't want to be anyone's mother.  I do not want to be his wife either.  It has been an absolutely horrible journey and it's over.  

In my mind,  I have divorced myself from them.  While it's true that he is being decent now,  I can't forgive him for the years that he stole from me.   The older one is with a Muslim.  The younger one married/divorced a black man.  It is time that I acknowledge who they are, divorce them and move on.  Truthfully, I have been doing this.  I just chose this opportunity to write it down.

Yesterday, I accomplished a lot.  I purchased the wine for Passover.  I went to the bank.  I also went to Harmon's to buy hair products.

Today, I am doing things to make my heart sing.  I am leaving work early to attend a book discussion.   I will walk earlier, make dinner and go to Restorative Yoga!!!!   It will be a wonderful day for me!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for these realizations!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH AND SILENCE

I am grateful to the Almighty because with His help,  I can become a strong and silent person.

There are changes happening within the group of people that I loosely call a family. Along with everything else that is wrong with the boyfriend, I believe now that his father is Muslim from Iraq and so is he.  That's why he had that name that no one can pronounce.

Her fate is in the Almighty's hands.  We really don't have much of a relationship.  As a result of this, I will have even less of a relationship with her.  I did the best that I could to bring he up.  I have no guilt about this at all.

I need to move on.  She was never a daughter and that isn't going to start now.

I had a very successful day yesterday.  My Passover preparations are going well.  I was able to read my book.  I was able to walk for 2 hours as well as take my yoga class.

Today will be a different kind of day.  It's freezing outside.  I will walk in the building and then see if the liquor store has Passover wine.  I need to get to the bank too and possibly Harmon's for hair care products.

Tomorrow they are predicting SNOW!!!!  However, not too much.  I have a book club and a yoga class that I would like to get to.

I will be strong thanks to the Almighty with this new crisis.

I will continue to enjoy my own life and it's blessings.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR MY OWN HAPPINESS

I am grateful to the Almighty because yesterday I was overcome with anger as well as sadness.  The Almighty has helped me to understand that I must be grateful for my own happiness.

I did a very good job raising the older one.  She did not have the ingredients to make a decent daughter.   It is time for me to move on.   Her fate is in the Almighty's hands, not mine.   

I need to plan less activities with her because I need to give up old dreams and live in the real world.

I attended services yesterday and was not able to hang out with my friends because I went to the yoga studio.  I missed seeing the younger one which is fine because one never knows what mood she will arrive in.

 I took a Yoga and Negative Emotions Workshop.  It really helped me to understand that I need to move on. It was beautiful outside and I was able to walk for 2 hours.   I called friends as I walked.  I was able to read my book for the Sisterhood Book Club.  

Today, I will take a Level 1 Yoga Class.  I hope to walk for two hours again although they say it will be colder.  I want to read my book.  I will continue my Passover preparations.  These are done for myself because I love the holiday.   All in all,  I have planned a nice day for myself.

I hope to go to dinner tonight.

I am thankful to the Almighty for my own happiness.   I did the best that I could do for my children and am not responsible for their adult behaviors.   They will answer to the Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR BEGINNING TO LET GO

This is going to be difficult, but I know that the Almighty will help me.

I am going to have to let go of my older daughter.  Along with everything else that is wrong with him, her live-in boyfriend has a Muslim father and that is why he has a Muslim name.

They will come for the seders.  However, I am letting go of Mother's Day and texting less frequently.

It should not have come as a shock to me considering all that she has done to me throughout her life, but it is very sad. 

In order to save myself, this is what I must do.

I am grateful for the Almighty's help.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I MADE IT THROUGH THE RAIN

I am grateful to the Almighty because I made it through the rain.

As is my custom on Friday, before the Sabbath, I look back on the week.  This has been a wonderful week.  I am thankful to the Almighty for this.   I am grateful for my dental checkup which went well.   I am grateful for my Level 1 Yoga Class.  I am grateful for the fun that I had at the PTA Governor's fund raiser last night.  I won two prizes and sat with people that I enjoy.

Today, I am going for a manicure/pedicure after Staff Development Day.  I am looking forward to that.

Tomorrow, after services, I have a Yoga Workshop to attend.

It's my turn to have a good life.  I am showing compassion to myself in everything that I do.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that he has done for me.

I have made it through the rain.  I have survived and changed and grown.


Thank you, Almighty!!!!!! 

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my my new life.

I am different.   My life is not the same.  I look forward to each day with joy.

I know what to say.   I know when to be silent.

I am so grateful for this.

I survived everything that he tried to do to me.   I became a new person as a result of all of this. I wouldn't want to go back to the old ways if you paid me.

Tonight, I am looking forward to going to Governor's Comedy Club for a school fund raiser.  I am taking him.  I used to worry how he would behave and what he would wear.  Now I don't care.  

I have compassion for myself.

I have inner peace.

I have finally let go of that which doesn't serve me.

I am grateful for my new life.

Thank you, Almighty for watching over me.

GRATEFUL FOR MY DENTAL CHECKUP

I am grateful to the Almighty for my wonderful dental checkup.  

This means that I don't have to visit the dentist until September, although I do go to the periodontist in June.

I had a wonderful evening.  I realized that I had succeeded in giving up false dreams.  He called the President of our condo to ask questions.  What joy there was in his voice as he spoke to this man.  This was a man who had put a new lock on our condo front door, so he and his friend Kevin could break in, create intimidation and force us to move.   You would have thought that they were best friends.   You had to hear him curse Merle to a man who will repeat everything  to everyone at the condo.  However, I was so proud of myself because I KNEW THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN AND IT DID!!!!  Didn't I tell you that we wouldn't move??? Didn't I tell you it was just his wish to create a false dream in me and take it away??  Didn't I tell you that I wouldn't fall for it???

Truthfully, I like the condo.  I enjoy my life in Westhampton.  He hates the condo because there is no one to sit with at the pool and curse out their wives like he used to do with David and Tony. I love it because I can walk, enjoy nature, read, go to my little beach and do yoga. 

I can make a life wherever I am.  I am grateful.

Tonight, I will go to my LEVEL 1 YOGA CLASS.   I will find out what day the YOGA BOOK CLUB is and try to attend.

Later:  My yoga class was awesome!!!!!!!  It made my heart soar!!!!    It looks like the Yoga Book Club will meet next Thursday. I will be looking for an e-mail.

Thank you, Almighty for a wonderful checkup.

GRATEFUL FOR THE ABILITY TO BE SILENT

I am grateful to the Almighty for the ability to be silent.

This morning he came with me as I drove to work.  He had an appointment to get the oil changed on the truck.   What a ride!!!!  Whatever subject I brought up, he needled about.  I am grateful to the Almighty that I didn't answer him.   We could have been off and running.

 That explains why I feel tired.  It is hard being with someone who spends his days looking for topics to needle about.   I think that I have managed very well, but it certainly is emotionally draining.   It is not pleasant.

I went to a retirement meeting yesterday.  I would retire if I felt comfortable in the home.  I don't.   He goes from one topic to the next.  For the moment, he has given up discussing the condo and Izzy, but he has many other topics.    He tried on Sunday with the Folgers coffee. He will fail.  However, he won't give up.

My guess is that with the weather getting better and once Passover is organized, I will be less available at home to listen to him.

I have dentist appointment today.   I hope that all goes well.

Later-   Thank you, Almighty!!!!!  All went well with the dental checkup.  The bonding didn't break!!!  I'm good to go until September!!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ALL MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS

I am grateful to the Almighty for everything that I accomplished this weekend.

I took him to the supermarket and began the Passover shopping. I always start this on the Sunday after Purim.   I am very proud to say that I made quite a dent in it.   He did try to cause a confrontation, but was shut down.   I did this quietly, and I knew that I could because I was in public.  I was in the Passover aisle and I asked him to get FOLGERS DECAF COFFEE.  He came back to announce that he couldn't find it.  Picture this!!!  I'm in the middle of an aisle trying to navigate so that I could get everything that I set out to do.  I asked him to go back because I knew it was there.  He said that he didn't like my tone of voice and with that was ready to begin.  I calmly said look.  I know the way this goes. You try to get me to raise my voice.  I do.  You then say that you have congestive heart failure and cancer and then you dial 911.  Then I SMILED.  THAT ISN'T GOING TO HAPPEN.  PLEASE GO find the coffee.  He went.

I think that he was shocked at how quietly and quickly it was said.

I went out to dinner with him and moved on.  I HAVE LET GO OF THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME.  At dinner, he announced that maybe the condo was too big.  I smiled inwardly because I knew that I couldn't care less.  I am still smiling.  I didn't have to say anything.  He did try a few days ago to create an issue about maintenance fees, assessments, bills and furniture, all of which I should buy or pay.  I agreed.  I know how to lie.  That didn't sit well  with him and now he doesn't like it and won't buy it because it's too big and away from everything.  I had to smile because I didn't want it and I didn't have to say a word.

By the way, the boyfriend screwed her by taking her to a play that was 200 years old.  It wasn't in the place that she said it was and the chairs were tight.  She must have been really pissed to text me this especially since Friday's episode.  I SMILED BECAUSE I COULDN'T CARE LESS.

Today, it's back to work.  I have a retirement meeting to attend after work.  I'm going to make dinner and relax.  SLOWLY, WITHOUT HIS KNOWLEDGE, I'VE BEEN THROWING OUT GROCERIES!!!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for my bravery and fortitude and all my accomplishments.

GRATEFUL FOR MY BLESSINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the wonderful blessings that HE has given me.

He has given me strength and fortitude.  This has allowed me to create a new life which is filled with so many wonderful things.   I no longer fear weekends because I know exactly what to do and what not to do.

Yesterday, I attended services.  I hung out with friends.   I walked for 2 hours which in itself was a blessing.  I'm reading a wonderful book. I DID NOT ALLOW THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME TO CONSUME MY LIFE.  I moved on from the older one's behavior on Friday.  Even his comments on the weekend have lessened because there is just silence after he makes one.  I read my newspapers, texted, went on the computer.  

I had the conversation about purchasing a condo again.  I had the patience to discuss it. I know that I'm not buying another one.  He feels that he would buy it from the money he received from suing and I would pay all the bills, assessments and maintenances and buy all the furniture. I can't believe that I can have this conversation with a straight face.  His contribution would be to work the crowd.

After dinner, we both went to PJC for the reading of the Purim Megillah. I spoke to friends and had a wonderful time.  My friend Rose was there and announced that we need to discuss PARENTHOOD.  Doris was there and we had a great laugh over my confusion about her illness.   Some knew his story, others knew parts of it.  It didn't mater because I was accepted!!!!!

Today, I'm on my way to a LEVEL 1 Yoga class.  I will hit Fresh Produce, buy gas and coffee and walk.  My aim this afternoon is to begin the Passover shopping.  This year, I will purchase less as I have buried my old dreams.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my many blessings.  I am grateful for the strength and fortitude to begin again and to succeed.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY IN MY LIFE AND FOR LETTING GO

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the joys in my life.  I am also grateful for HIS help in learning to let go of that which doesn't serve me.

The younger one as taken herself off FACEBOOK.  When I called the older one to ask if she knew about this, she was very rude.   Initially I was upset.  Then it came to me that I need to LET GO. That was exactly what I did.  Everyone's life is not my concern.  I need to treat myself with compassion.

This morning I attended services.   I hooked up with my friends.   I will see them tonight because tonight is the Jewish holiday of Purim.  I love this holiday.   It is a lot of fun.  I am bringing him too.

I will be able to walk today which is exciting.  It is windy, but it can be done.

Thank you, Almighty for the joy in my life and for helping me to let go that which doesn't serve me.

GRATEFUL FOR TODAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for today.   I am grateful that I woke up.  I am grateful that I woke up healthy.  I am grateful that I will be able to enjoy the day.  I am grateful that tonight is Sabbath.

I attended an awesome Memory Workshop yesterday.  I made a delicious dinner.  I was able to read my book.  Best of all, I was able to watch the entire show, PARENTHOOD.

As is my custom, on Friday, I review my week.  This was a very good week.   I passed my examination on Sunday with that birthday dinner.   I was able to relax and read on Monday.  Tuesday, I attended my book club at the library and took myself out for dinner.  On Wednesday, I attended my LEVEL 1 Yoga Class.  Yesterday, I went to my Memory Workshop. I was able to see the finale of TRUE DETECTIVE and was able to watch the entire PARENTHOOD without falling asleep.   I talked to and texted friends.    I was able to read my new book on John Garfield.  I finished the book for next week's YOGA BOOK CLUB. 

It didn't snow!!!!  There was no black ice.  I was able to drive myself to work. 

It was a wonderful week.

As usual,  I listened to his chatter.  This week was no different.  It was a discussion of the older one's boyfriend,  the condo we will purchase and who he doesn't like.   I responded with quiet.  This has become natural for me.

I am grateful to the Almighty for today.

GRATEFUL FOR TODAY

I am grateful to the Almighty for today!!!!

The weather people had predicted black ice and I thought that he would have to drive me to work.  There was no black ice and I TOOK MYSELF TO WORK.   I am thrilled!!!!!

Last night I went to a wonderful LEVEL 1 Yoga class.  I enjoyed it a great deal. I learned to look towards the light.  This to me meant that I had to live in the present and be positive about the future.

Today, I will attend my MEMORY WORKSHOP.   I really enjoy the group and what each member says.   We are discussing WARM WEATHER EXPERIENCES AS A CHILD.

Later:   The workshop went on for 2 hours.  It was so enjoyable!!!!  I am so grateful for today.

I hope that the book that I want to read is in the library.  I will find out today.   Meanwhile, the book that I'm reading about JOHN GARFIELD is quite good.

Later:   The book has not come in to the library yet.  I will be called.

Tonight, I will watch PARENTHOOD.  I need to call one of my friends to discuss it.

Later:   I did call my friend to discuss the last two episodes.  I'm excited to watch tonight's.  We will talk later.

Thank you, Almighty for today!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ALL MY BLESSINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the strength and the blessings that He has bestowed upon me.  I had to re-make my entire life.   I had to re-think what I thought was the truth.  I went through a long period of mourning where I had to bury dreams that I had created.   With the help of the Almighty, I made it.  I'm a new person now.   I am strong.  I have fortitude.  I enjoy my life.  I am so grateful for my blessings.

I have learned through these past years, through yoga and meditation that life is about me first.  I have compassion for myself and that gives me a sense of inner peace.  It feels like a vacation, but in reality, everything is getting done.  It's just that I focus FIRST, on MYSELF.  This is something that I have never done before.  I applaud the fact that I am ME, instead of trying to put round objects through square holes.

Last night, I took myself out to dinner before my library book club.  I enjoyed both the dinner and book discussion and I am looking forward to doing the same thing next month.

Today, after work, I need to do some errands.  I need to go to the library to pick up another book and then purchase gel for my hair.  I also need to go to the bank.   Later-  I did go to the bank.  I decided to wait until tomorrow to pick up the book as I didn't get a call.  The store no longer sells the hair products that I need.

In late afternoon,  I have a LEVEL 1 YOGA class that I am looking forward to and a book to read.   Later-  The Level 1 class was awesome.  Leslie spoke about the light as in Daylight Savings Time and the light within all of us.  She was thrilled that I did dolphin pose and told the class.

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the blessings in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR THE GOODNESS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the goodness in my life.

Last night, I completed the book for next week's YOGA BOOK CLUB.   I was able to watch the TRUE DETECTIVE finale.   I was even able to watch a new television show called, BELIEF.  I allowed him to watch with me.  Does it matter anymore????   He did my checkbook and I made sole for dinner.  It was delicious.

This morning, he made some comments that I chose not to answer.   I have come such a long way.  I am proud of myself.

I am going out to dinner tonight before my book club.   I'm excited!!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for the goodness in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR PASSING MY EXAMINATION

I am grateful to the Almighty because I believe that I passed my examination with flying colors.

I had a wonderful day yesterday.   I was able to walk for two hours.   I took a wonderful yoga class.  I did all of my errands.  And then we went to meet up with all of them.

I must say that I am a great actress.  I pulled the entire late afternoon/early evening meet-up with dinner off without a hitch.   I came home to watch TRUE DETECTIVE and I got a good night's sleep.

Today, my goal is to have a quiet day at work.   At home, I would like to finish my book for the Yoga Book Club next week.

I am grateful to the Almighty for passing my examination.

GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT I HAVE LEARNED

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that I have learned.

Last night, we paid a shiva call for a dear friend who died this week.  I brought him with me.  He could see how many people I knew and I was proud of myself for not going into details about anyone.   He could also see how comfortable I was.

Today is the older one's birthday.  I invited the boyfriend's parents and created an activity at THE MUSEUM OF MOVING IMAGES just to be able to go somewhere and do something.  I'm looking forward to seeing all these people and watching their interactions.   I'm amazed that I'm thinking of this as just another activity in my life.  I truly have LET GO OF THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME!!!!   However, I will be watching myself for any slip ups.  It will be like a MIDTERM EXAMINATION for me.

The day is beautiful.   I am going to yoga.   I will also be able to walk later.   My intention is to read the papers with DD coffee.   I intend to read my book also.

I HAVE JOY!!!!  I HAVE ENERGY!!!  I WILL HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!

I WLL GIVE MYSELF SOMETHING TO SOAR ABOUT BY SEEING MYSELF AS A CHANGED WOMAN BY THE END OF THE DAY!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for all that I have learned.

GRATEFUL FOR THE BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of the blessings that He has bestowed upon me.

I had fallen asleep on Thursday night and didn't get to finish watching Parenthood.  Thanks to technology, I was able to finish watching the show on the computer.  I then read my book for the Yoga Book Club.  It was wonderful.   

I lit candles, made Shabbos dinner and got a great night's sleep.

It is a beautiful day.  It is going to be 51 degrees this afternoon.  My intention is to walk for 2 hours.  I am so excited!!!!!   (Later-   I did get to walk for 2 hours.  It was like Spring outside!!!!!)

I am grateful because I went to services today and was able to hang out with my friends.

Tonight, sadly, I will be paying a shiva visit.  One of my friends has passed away.  I am grateful to the Almighty because I am healthy.

Thank you, Almighty, for all the blessings in my life.

I am grateful.

GRATEFUL FOR MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of my accomplishments.

Tonight it will be the beginning of Sabbath.  As is my custom,  I look back on the week to see my accomplishments.  I participated in a variety of activities that made my heart soar.  I attended yoga classes.  I signed up for a yoga workshop later in the month.  I spoke to friends.  I started my new book for the Yoga Book Club.  I went to a wonderful Sisterhood meeting where we discussed the book,  HUSH.  I facilitated Open School Night at work.   I went to dinner with a friend.    This afternoon, I will go for a manicure.   I did have fun gaining some weight because I got weighed on Sunday and now I will loose it.

This morning, he was going to start an issue about the dog.  The dog isn't to get challah because he might be allergic to it.  What was his solution??  He wanted to buy small challahs and was ready to create an issue about this.   I had to get to work so I didn't answer him.  In the car, I was upset, but then I thought of all my positive accomplishment and I just let the confrontation go.  It didn't serve me to get upset.

At that point, I was amazed.   I realized what a yogi I had become.   I was grateful to the Almighty for all of my accomplishments.   I was most grateful for HIS bringing me to yoga.

Good Shabbos!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty for making me a strong woman.

I received an e-mail from a friend that I met in high school.  I know from FACEBOOK that she has a very successful life.  She is a CPA and has lovely, married children that she gets together with frequently even though they live in another state.  She is happily married. I see all her pictures on FACEBOOK.   She wanted to get together since she will be in my area.  I started to think of my memories.  What could we discuss that wouldn't be a story to tell friends???   I was upset as I relived my past.  

However, this morning, I moved on.  I sent an e-mail saying that I wouldn't be in town that weekend and how sorry that I was that I wouldn't see her.   I then moved on.  YOGA TAUGHT ME TO LET GO OF THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME SO I CAN HEAL!!!!!

This weekend is the older one's birthday.  We are getting together on Sunday.  I invited his parents which will give me someone else to talk to.   I will have to listen to him complain all weekend about the boyfriend and his parents.   That's the key.   I will have to listen, not respond.  YOGA HAS TAUGHT ME TO LET GO THAT WHICH DOESN'T SERVE ME SO I CAN HEAL!!!!!

I took a wonderful Level 1 Yoga Class last night with Leslie.   I am spending the week gaining weight to celebrate my good Weight Watchers weigh-in last Sunday.

Tonight is Open School Night.  I am having dinner with a friend before.  Then I will come back to announce the periods.  Big fun!!!

Tonight I hope to watch Parenthood, my favorite show!!!  I also hope to read.  I did not have time last night.

Thank you, Almighty for making me a strong woman.  Thank you also for sending me yoga.

GRATEFUL FOR ALL MY BLESSINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty for all of my blessings.

I went to my Restorative Yoga Class last night after I made a delicious dinner of sole and vegetables.   It was awesome.   I signed up for a March workshop dealing with how to rid yourself of negative thoughts.  It will be taught by a social worker and then Leslie will do yoga with us.   I'm very excited.

After that, I went to a Sisterhood Meeting where the novel, Hush was discussed.  It was a very moving discussion and I felt so comfortable around friends.

I came home to read the next book for the Yoga Book Club.

Tonight I will attend my Level 1 yoga class.  I will read my book.  I did ask him if he wanted to go for dinner and he declined it.  That's fine with me.  I have enough in my life.  It's not like years ago when I would beg to do something.........anything and the answer was always, "NO!!!!!"

I am truly blessed with a good life and I am so grateful to the Almighty for this.

GRATEFUL FOR LEARNING TO LIVE IN THE MOMENT

I am grateful to the Almighty for sending me yoga which taught me to live in the moment.

The older one is coming back from vacation today.  For him, that's a partner in all of the abuse that was dumped upon me through the years.  I started to think about that this morning and then I pulled back because I want to live in the moment and appreciate all the gladness of my life.  I succeeded!!!!!

Yesterday, after dinner, I began my new book for the March Yoga Book Club.   I went to sleep early because I was exhausted from all my fun experiences this past weekend.    I awoke after 9 hours of sleep feeling much better.

I drove myself to work.  No snow is predicted this week!!!  Tonight, this enables me to attend my Restorative Yoga Class and go to a Sisterhood Meeting where we will be discussing, HUSH as well as having a Purim activity.  I'm excited!!!!!


Life is good.   

I am grateful to the Almighty for teaching me to live in the moment.

GRATEFUL FOR A NEW DAY!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because today is a new day and I am healthy and sound.

Yesterday we watched a film called, THE BUTLER and then went out to dinner is a really nice restaurant.   I had a lovely time and he was quite appropriate.   Afterwards, he watched THE ACADEMY AWARDS.   I watched TRUE DETECTIVE and finished my book.  I then went to sleep.

He drove me to work today because it snowed.   I am hoping for a quiet day.

I am grateful to the Almighty for a new day.

Later-   The day at work was quiet, but very busy.  He picked me up.  I will make dinner and then read.

GRATEFUL FOR THE GOODNESS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the goodness in my life.

I have learned to be quiet, to not voice all my opinions and that has made my life feel like I'm on vacation.   I did not say a word when he told me he had found a condo.  Then it turned out that it was a three bedroom condo that he didn't want.  I did not voice my opinion about the coming snow and whether we should cancel tickets to Cinema Arts.  He made that decision.  Life is very quiet.  He has kept up the same disposition which truly lets me know that he did bully me all these years.  I have accomplished so much with my life in spite of him.  However, I haven't said a word.  I have gone on with my life.

Last night I did get to walk at Home Depot with him.  We did go to Fresh Produce and to DD.  I made dinner.  I had time to read.  Life is good.

Today snow is predicted.   I was able to take my Level 1 yoga class.  I walked at Home Depot.  I was able to go to my monthly Weight Watchers meeting. My weight is the same as last month, down from the same time last year.  I came home with DD to eat breakfast and read the newspapers and go on the computer.

I want to take a look at the Income Tax today.   The plan is to go out to dinner because there  no longer is a Cinema Arts plan.  For him it was all able the food served during the Oscars at Cinema Arts.    I didn't care if I went or not.  I had seen the films.


I am grateful to the Almighty for all the goodness in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR THE SABBATH

I am grateful to the Almighty for a beautiful Sabbath day.

I did not get to watch my favorite show, Parenthood on Thursday because I feel asleep after my most busy week.  Last night, after I lit candles, I was going to read about the episode on the computer.  To my surprise, I could watch it and I did.  After that we had Sabbath dinner.

It was freezing outside this morning  To be honest, it was 14 degrees.  However, I was able to go to services today and for this I am grateful.  I love the service and meeting up with my friends.  

I did not go to Kiddush today.  I wish I could have gone because we celebrated the birthday of a member who turned 90!!!!

I am going to a Restorative Yoga/Reiki Workshop in my studio.  I'm so excited.

After that I will walk in Home Depot.

Another storm is coming, but that's tomorrow.  I'm going to enjoy the day.

Thank you, Almighty for a beautiful Sabbath.


Later-   The Restorative Yoga/ Reiki Workshop was awesome.   I signed up for another one after the Passover break.   I walked Home Depot with him.  He is still in the same pleasant mood. It just shows you how abusive he was to me.  I did not want to go to Cinema Arts tomorrow and he decided NOT to go because of the snow.   How lucky can I get!!!


I am grateful to the Almighty for this amazing Sabbath.