GRATEFUL FOR NEW ADVENTURES

I am grateful to the Almighty for the new adventures in my life.

Yesterday we went to Baiting Hollow.  We started out at a wonderful winery where I had a simple Japanese salad for lunch which I ate with chopsticks!!  The band was wonderful!!!

Then we went to look at two condo developments.  They were beautiful.  They faced Long Island Sound and it was a pleasure to see them.  Baiting Hollow is a Hamlet of Riverhead.  I don't think that he wants to live there.  I didn't care!!  It was an adventure.

We went to Tanger Outlets.  I went to Empire Wines and did a wine tasting.  That was fun too!! For all the times he wanted to go to Tanger, he didn't make any purchases.  That was  to be expected!!!

We had dinner at Tweed's.  I had a Buffalo Burger.  It was delicious.

This morning I walked early for two hours.   I'm now on the computer.  I'm having him check my Dental Insurance.   

Later I will take a yoga class.

We are having lunch with the parents of my older daughters fiancee.  

I am so grateful to the Almighty for my new adventures!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW JOYS AND FEELINGS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for all the new joys and feelings in my life.

I see the world differently because I retired.   

I walked this morning without listening to music and experienced the world waking up.

I went to yoga and listened carefully to all the directions without thoughts of Monday and work entering my mind.

I am seeing the world differently and I am so happy.

Last night we went to see a foreign film and had dinner out.  I enjoyed this and of course was careful of my conversation.   

This afternoon we will take a ride out to Baiting Hollow to see what's there.

No thought of work in my mind.

Sheer joy in my thoughts.

A smile on my face.

Thank you Almighty for the new joys and the new feelings in my life.

GRATEFUL FOR ADVENTURES

I am grateful to the Almighty because my retirement will lead me into a world filled with many adventures.

I am walking this morning for an hour BEFORE SERVICES.  I will finish the last hour in two halves, BEFORE and AFTER REIKI at my workshop this afternoon.

This is the first Sabbath that I am going to services as a retiree!!!  I am excited!!!!

Yesterday was our anniversary and I received a beautiful diamond ring that he chose.  The pool was awesome.  I loved reading my book there.

Tonight we will go to see a film and THEN out to dinner.  It is a film that he chose.  

I definitely know how to be silent and reflective in dealing with him.  It won't work all the time however I live in the present.   Namaste!!

Thank you Almighty for getting me to this pout of retirement so that I can have new adventures!!!

GRATEFUL FOR ADVENTURES

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have changed and my life is now filled with adventures.

We did straighten up the condo.  Interestingly enough I have built a beautiful life at home so that I'm not really interested in the condo.  I went.  I cleaned.  I was non-emotional about it. We even went out for a lovely dinner.  In the past I would be building "dreams" but now I am "reality based."

I walked for two hours this morning and then took 2 yoga classes which I love.  I came home with DD coffee and read the newspapers.

My last check was lost at work and then found and now it will be mailed to me.  Another adventure!!!

I'm on my way to the pool!!!

Tonight is the Sabbath and I thank the Almighty for my new adventures.

GRATEFUL FOR AN ADVENTURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because today (even though it's a WORK DAY) I will have an adventure.

We are going to Westhampton to clean the condo.   It's not the same person that is going.  I am so different and I am so grateful to the Almighty that this is so.

However, before that happens, I'm going to walk, drink DD coffee and read the newspapers and take my wonderful new Thursday Pranayama and Meditation Yoga class.

The day was beyond wonderful!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for the "new me" and "new adventures."

GRATEFUL FOR NEW BEGINNINGS

I am grateful to the Almighty because my life is beginning again with my retirement.

I went to the pool yesterday.  I can't begin to describe how delighted that I was to be there.  Because of the children I had,  I was ostracized from the town.  I stopped going to the pool years ago as a result of this.  Now, I'm back without them!!!!   It is a beautiful pool.  I met one of my friends from Sisterhood and had a really good time.

I came home to a very nice necklace as a retirement gift.

I made dinner and we ate outside.  It was pleasant.  I made sure that the conversation was light.

I went to my Restorative Yoga Class very happily.  The younger one did not come over, nor did I expect her.  I read my book and smiled as I went to sleep.

This morning, even though the weather looked like rain, I walked for two hours. Work is over!!!   I will be going to take a computer lesson at the Apple Store a bit later.

My plan is to take a Level 1 yoga class this evening.

Later-  I enjoyed the Apple Lesson very much.  I was able to go to The Walking Store to purchase 2 pairs of sandals.  Then we walked around the mall and went to Fairway. I'm making branzini for dinner which I will serve after I return from yoga.  I'm also planning on reading my book.   I love retirement!!!!   

Later Later!!!!   The day was wonderful!!!  I am thankful to the Almighty for new beginnings. I'm even going to watch ALL QUIET ON THE WESTERN FRONT which I rented through NETFLIX.

Later Later Later!!!!!   The film was amazing.  It didn't matter what time I went to sleep because WORK IS OVER FOREVER!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new beginning!!!

GRATEFUL FOR SMILING

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have accomplished my mission and I am smiling!!!!

I went to work today to hand in my keys and my badge.  I am finished!!!!  This did not sit very well with the Principal who actually called me while I was in CVS buying items for the condo. He had more work for me to do.   He had not been a very nice person.  Actually he was very controlling.  I always said that things would happen and I would know when to leave.  TODAY WAS THAT DAY!!!

I am proud of myself.  I made it through the rain.  I used to be afraid to be home and now I'm not.  I came home and walked for my usual two hours and even now I smile.

I'm going to buy DD coffee and read the papers.  I would also like to go to the pool with my book.

Tonight we will have dinner outside and then I will take my yoga class.

The younger one is coming tonight to discuss mapping.

Thank you, Almighty for my smile.

I'M NERVOUS!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am so nervous!!!

It's a good nervous.  Tomorrow is my LAST DAY OF WORK FOREVER!!!!  I will hand in my keys and my badge and leave.

Thank you, Almighty for getting me to this day!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for this wonderful new life that He has given me.

This is the last week of school.  I no longer work on Mondays.  I walked for two hours early in the morning.  This neighborhood is like living in the country.  While the TRIAD were carrying on, I never got to appreciate it.  

I took my yoga class joyfully.   Then it was off to Fresh Produce, and the town library to sign up  for the Adult Summer Reading Club.  I read both newspapers with DD coffee.

I have to organize my insurance.......health, dental, life, drugs.  It's keeping me busy.

He was quite decent today.  He actually took me to the jewelry store and chose a ring for me.
I'm still not getting emotional.  Each day is a new adventure with him.

Tonight I will serve dinner outside.  It's a beautiful night.

Thank you Almighty for my new life.

GRATEFUL FOR FEELING OVERJOYED!!!!

I am so grateful to the Almighty because I am not just feeling joy, but I am feeling overjoyed to the point of crying.  There are tears of joy in my eyes.

I awoke early because I wanted to walk for my two hours before my yoga class.  It was beautiful outside.  The world is incredibly still.

I attended my yoga class and did a few errands.

THEN I JOINED THE POOL!!!!!  I HAVE A POOL PASS WHICH WILL CONTINUE TO ENRICH MY SUMMER!!!!!!   I covered my bases yesterday and asked if he wanted to join.  He sarcastically told me that he is "marinating on it."  This was an expression that one of my supervisors used.  Today, after yoga, I joined, I have my pass and I'm good to go!!!!

I'm home now with DD coffee and the newspapers.  I will  love the silence as he isn't here.

I will have breakfast outside with Mr. Matzah.

The younger daughter will be here after her class.  I hope that she would like to see the dog park. However I do know that we will have dinner out somewhere.

I have tears in my eyes as my retirement sets itself up.  

Thank you, Almighty for this feeling of overjoy that I feel.

Later-  The younger daughter isn't coming.   He is in a decent mood and I'm going to a nice restaurant!!!!

Even Later-  We went to a really nice seafood restaurant in Seaford and afterwards we watched Frozen.  Dinner was quite good and so was the film.

GRATITUDE , JOY and QUIET

I am grateful to the Almighty because my retirement is just around the corner.  My last day is June 27, 2014.   I am so joyful that I made it through the rain.

I must remember to be quiet when I am around him as he is waiting to strike.  I am so glad that I took off these last few days because I was able to observe him.  I observed that he is waiting to attack.  He is trying so hard to start little fires and is hopeful that I will pick up on one of these topics and a full fledged argument will begin.   THAT ISN'T GOING TO HAPPEN!!!  I also observed what his retirement is like.  He does chores around the house and that is it.  He is filled with rage and he thinks he has an outlet.  His only outlet is to implode.

Today is the Sabbath.   I am off to attend services and hang out with some friends.  Then I will walk, read the papers, look at the mail and relax.

He is in charge of what we do tonight.  This should be interesting!!!!

More later.......................Initially he told me that we were going out to dinner and then to see a film.  Neither thing happened.  We went to the dog park and had tuna salad for dinner.  That is fine with me.   I told him that I was not in charge of plans because I was tired of hearing "NO" at everything that I suggested.   Last night he told me that tomorrow we would not be going out east which is fine with me also.  He got into a fight with the younger one when she wanted to come tomorrow and he told her that we had a condo meeting.   We didn't. She called him a lier. She is coming after her course and we will have dinner with her.

All of this is fine with me.  I'm not involved in any of it.   I am grateful that I can experience my own joy and that I have quiet.

I am grateful to the Almighty for this Sabbath.

GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW ROAD

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am continuing on my new road of adventure.

I know how to handle the triad.  The wedding???  Whatever you want.  I won't be inviting anyone.  My life is mine.  I'm not paying for it.  Did she ever give me joy???

Him???  We went to the dinner yesterday and I told him in a very quiet voice that I am aware of his antics and it doesn't bother me.   I have my own life and if he wants to be part of it then that is his decision.  I don't think that will happen.

Meanwhile, my life has become fun.   I met more young neighbors, one of which has an aunt who works with me.  All the children came to play with the dog in our backyard.  He was delighted!!!

I texted at dinner and have 2 dinner plans for next week.  One is on Monday and one Thursday.  I will be going to work Tuesday and Thursday.

Soon I will be walking for my two hours.  The day looks to be beautiful.   I have two yoga classes to take and my doggie is going for a grooming.  I have errands to do and hope to get some sun this afternoon.

Tonight is the Sabbath and I am so grateful for my new road of adventure.

Thank you Almighty!!!!

THE YELLOW BRICK ROAD OF ADVENTURE

I am grateful to the Almighty because today I am again following the yellow brick road of adventure.

I took another day off.  School ends next week and I consider this period as my pre-retirement!!!!!  It is to quote US History....The Age of Exploration.

I am enjoying it so much.  This morning, I'm going to walk even though there is a slight drizzle.  It is summer after all!!!!

I am taking a yoga class that I took only once before, but really enjoyed.  It is called, Meditation/Gentle Restorative.

I also have a periodontal appointment.  I pray that my bonding doesn't get broken.  I'm planning on only working Tuesday and Thursday next week and I want to be able to do that.

More later.....................

There was no rain when I walked.   The yoga class was wonderful!!!  I will take it again.  Next stop is the periodontist!!!!!!    With the help of the Almighty, the bonding won't be broken!!!!!

I did figure him out.  It came to me while walking as all good thoughts do.  I have taken away all his weapons.  He can't bully me.  He doesn't know my friends so he can't insult them. If he makes a nasty comment about my friend who lives down the block (the family he sent Italian food and Roto Rooter to)  I don't answer.   I always invite him to activities even though he always says, "NO!!!" I expect him to do this.   I don't describe what I do. I'm quiet, agreeable and don't plan anything with him.    He is at a loss as to what to do to upset me.   He uses his remarks as a way to start an issue. (YOU made the dog cry!!!!   WE are not at all alike!!!) I'm supposed to respond.  I DON'T.   HE HAS FAILED MISERABLY and I'm going to love watching this while I enjoy my new adventures. 

The periodontal checkup was a huge success!!!   The bonding DID NOT BREAK!!! Thank you, Almighty!!!!  I do not have to go back until December.   We went to the dinner and had diner.  I celebrated by eating cookies for dessert!!!!

I KNOW JUST WHAT TO DO!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful day that I had yesterday!!!!!!

I did so many wonderful things that made my heart soar.  It was absolutely amazing.  I walked for two hours on a beautiful day without worrying that I had school work to do.  I sat in a lawn chair and got some color.   I took a yoga class.   I went on all of my errands.  I even had time to have a sun dress shortened and purchase a small pair of hoops for my new life.

I attended the Yoga Book Club and had a lot of fun doing yoga and eating lunch with new friends while we discussed the book.

I thanked Leslie for helping me to move forward.  I was able to retire because of the yoga philosophy as well as my faith in the Almighty.  I have combined prayer and mantras that I have memorized in order to make it through the rain.

I attended a second yoga class.  I then attended Meditation With The Bells which was absolutely awesome.  I took myself out to dinner in the diner.

Where was he in all of the????  He was trying very hard to start not one, but four arguments!!!! I used techniques that I created in order to move forward.  I excused myself to go to the bathroom for the first one.  I remained where I was for the next three, but never answered him. One of them took place while I was in the backyard getting some sun in the late afternoon.

His goal was to ruin my day.  After all, as he has said, "I'm not happy.  You are always happy.  I want you to be as miserable as I am."

I knew just what to do.  He was foiled again!!!!!

I am grateful to you Almighty for always being there for me so that I could reach the point of retirement and know just what to do.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

I took off from work today.  I will NOT return until next Tuesday.  Work is over as far as I am concerned and I'm ready to embrace my new life.

At home I embrace it with calmness.  My new mantra, learned last night at Restorative Yoga is that PEACE BEGINS WITH ME.  I know what to say and when to say it.  This has freed me to enjoy my own life and I am grateful for this.  

My Restorative class was wonderful and then I went to the final Sisterhood meeting of the year. Many friends congratulated me upon retirement and upon the older ones engagement.  I was delighted to be accepted after all that I had suffered through the years.

I will be walking for two hours in a short time.   I have errands to run.  Then there is DD coffee to drink with my newspapers.

Today is my Yoga Book Club which I love. I will be able to relax in the backyard with the dog.  I hope to continue reading my new book for the Syosset Book Club.   I also will have a late day yoga class PLUS a wonderful workshop later tonight with MEDITATION and SINGING BELLS.   

I am thrilled to be doing all this.

Retirement has almost begun.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

GRATEFUL FOR A WONDERFUL NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for the wonderful new life that I will have.

I will be doing the same activities that I so love:   YOGA,  MEDITATION,  WALKING,  ACTIVITIES AT PJC, BOOK CLUBS..................   I will doing these things calmly and enjoying them in the moment.

I have my health. I have friends.  I have activities. I have a nice pension that I can enjoy.  I have a lovely condo.  I know how to handle the TRIAD. I have faith in the Almighty. Life is good.

I came to work today on the one day that I will work.

Today I will walk when I get home.  I will read.   I will attend my Restorative Yoga class.

Thank you, Almighty for helping me to reach this milestone.

I am grateful!!!!


Later-  I did really work and I'm not going to miss this!!!  I wrote goals for 5 students.  I collected books and proctored  The Living Environment Regents.   I'm not going to miss this at all!!!! I'm not coming back until next Tuesday!!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for getting me to this point in my life!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH

I am grateful to the Almighty because He has made me a strong person.

There are times when I wonder if I made the right decision in retiring.   I guess that is normal considering that I have worked all of my life.   However, honestly, I feel as if I can't work another day!!!!

I will go in tomorrow.  I get annoyed when I go in because they dump work on me.  However, I can do as little as possible and that is what I intend to do!!!!!

Today, I am home.  It's beautiful outside.  I will finish writing, do some chores and walk for 2 hours.  Yoga is also on the agenda.

I will get through this.  June 27th is just around the corner and that is the last day.

Thank you, Almighty for making me a strong woman!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOYS IN MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty for creating joy in my life.

I am in charge of my mind.  My mind is NOT in charge of me.  As such I have brought myself from DARKNESS into the LIGHT because I am celebrating my blessings.

The film RED DAWN was really interesting.  I awoke early and was able to walk for 2 hours on a beautiful Sunday morning before my Level 1 yoga class.   I was awed by the day!!!!

I purchased gas for the truck and DD for me.  I read both newspapers.

I will be getting a manicure/pedicure today.  I will start my new book,  ALL QUIET ON THE WESTERN FRONT while my toes are being done.   I'm excited!!!!

Today is Father's Day.   Dana has picked a restaurant in Sunnyside.  We will be having dinner there.   

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me joys and blessings, goodness and gladness.


Namaste!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR BELIEVING IN MYSELF

I am grateful to the Almighty because I believe in myself and then ask Him for help.

Today I went to services as I do every Shabbos.  The part of the Torah that I read talked about the 12 spies that went in to Israel and how they didn't believe in themselves to be able to conquer the Holy Land.  The point was made that one has to believe in ones abilities and then believe in the Almighty.

I was amazed because this is the way I made it through the rain.  I believed in my ability to succeed and I prayed to the Almighty for His help.

I am so grateful to Him for this.

I had a wonderful time at Kiddush with friends.   I came home to walk, read newspapers, set up my next book and then to take Matzah to the dog park.

Tonight I hope to watch a Netflix film.

I am grateful to the Almighty for giving me the ability to believe in myself.

GRATEFUL FOR THE JOY OF LIVING

I am grateful to the Almighty because I am experiencing the joy of living my new life.

I do a lot of work at work when I go, but I know that I don't belong there and I am so happy to burn out some of my days.

Today I took off from work.   I walked for almost two hours.  Then I took a Restorative Yoga class and a Level 1 class.  I experienced such great joy doing this.  I love yoga.

My new life feels like a vacation.  It is wonderful!!!!!!

I have scheduled a One to One appointment at the Apple Store later.

I have read the newspapers and had DD coffee.

Tonight is the Sabbath.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to reach the stage where I can experience the joy of my new life.

I am grateful!!!!

I MADE IT!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I made it and He made it happen.

I'm at work today.   I'm so happy because I feel that I don't belong here.  I have a new life.  I have adventures to experience.  I have new things to do and see.   My life can begin anew.  I no longer have to hide.  I no longer have to create strategies.   I am safe!!!!!

This afternoon I am getting my hair colored and cut.

I am going out to dinner with him.

Thank you, Almighty for being there for me always.

I made it!!!!!

GRATEFUL FOR BURNING OUT ANOTHER DAY!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because He allowed me to burn out another day.

It's amazing, but, I really can't wait until "work" is over and I can begin my new life.  Yesterday I was given 17 packets to write goals for.   I sat in my office, all alone, to do this.  This is isolation, not work!  I'm glad that I am leaving.

I went to the Syosset Book Club and told other friends about my retirement.  They are retired and were happy for me.  One wasn't but wished that she could be.  The book discussion was good and I came home to read my book for the Yoga Book Club.

Today, I took off.  It's raining and I will walk, whether inside or out, I don't know.  

I also decided to attend the Rabbi's Lunch and Learn.  They are discussing The Ukraine situation.  Tonight, I'm going out to dinner with the Sisterhood Book Club and then to another book discussion.

I am enjoying my new life.  It is quiet and intellectual and fun!!!

Thank you, Almighty for allowing me to burn yet another day.

I am grateful!!!! 

Later............I just returned from Lunch and Learn.  It was wonderful.  The Rabbi and the group accepted me.  I am free of the bonds of the triad.  I could cry!!!!  Now I'm doing some computer work and other chores.  I'm meeting the girls at 6PM for dinner before the book club.

Later Even..................Dinner was wonderful!!!!  Book discussion was great!!!!   My new life will be a delight!!!!!

GRATEFUL THAT I MADE IT!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I have made it through the rain.

I had a wonderful day yesterday.  I came to work today knowing that I would take off tomorrow.   I really don't belong here any longer.  I'm really happy about that.  (Just as an aside......I was given 15 packets to do!!!!)

I made a home for myself at home which is amazing.  I know that is amazing but it is true.  I know how to deal with him.  I know not to say anything important or to share feelings.  I've gotten very used to this which is great.

Yesterday, I had a wonderful day filled with fun activities.  I was even able to complete my walk because it didn't rain in the afternoon.  I was able to begin my book for the Yoga Book Club too!!!!!

After work, I will walk.  I will have to walk at school because the weather is miserable.  I have a book discussion at the library tonight.

I am excited!!!  My life has quieted down.  I am aware that anything can happen. However, I'm prepared with quiet!!!

Thank you, Almighty because I've made it through the rain.

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because I enjoyed taking today off.  

I am so ready for retirement that it is absolutely amazing.

I know exactly how to deal with him without saying anything of significance or upsetting myself.

I walked at Home Depot this morning because it rained.  I am going to try to walk another hour outside.

I took my yoga class with Leslie and I am making lots of new friends which is wonderful for me.

I read my newspapers with breakfast.  My project today was to add my shopping list and my mantras to the desktop which I did.

I hope to finish my book tonight.

Tomorrow my plan is to go to work.  I'm hoping to work on Tuesday and Thursday this week.

I am grateful to the Almighty for my new life.

GRATEFUL FOR LIFES JOYS

I am grateful to the Almighty for the joys that I feel in my life.

I had a wonderful time at the dog park yesterday.  I'm getting to know all the people as well as their dogs. I feel comfortable there.  Matzah loves chasing balls and smelling asses.  My job is to retrieve the balls.  His job is to sit.

After dinner, we were going to watch a film.  However, I pretended to be exhausted so that I could read.  It worked!!!!

This morning I walked at 6:30AM for an hour.  I am going to a Great Books conference in Garden City. Two novels were assigned and they will be discussed.  I'm excited.

I will walk when I get home because I owe myself an hour.

More later.......................................

The Great Books conference was very enjoyable.  The discussion was very intellectual and interesting.   He picked me up and later in the day we went to Rachel's in Freeport to have dinner.  I kept my part of the conversation very light and the day ended on a high note.

If I can remember who and what I'm dealing with then I should be fine in retirement.

Thank you Almighty for allowing me to see the joys in my life.

GRATEFUL BECAUSE I MADE IT!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because with His help I made it!!!!

I still can't believe that I am going to retire.  I can't believe that I will be able to play.  All my life, I saved myself by working, fist through school to save myself from my parents comments and then at work to save myself from the triad.

Now is my time.   I will be able to play.  I can't believe it!!!

Services were wonderful.  Kiddush with friends was enjoyable.  I mailed my application for the Heart and Sole Race on the way home.   I plan to read the newspapers, work on the computer, read my book and take Matzah to the dog park.

In the evening, I would like to watch a film.

I know when to be silent and I do not cease to be amazed at myself.

My plan is to take Monday off and go to work on Tuesday.  I have a Great Books conference in Garden City tomorrow.

Thank you, Almighty.

I made it because of you.

GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I am grateful to the Almighty because he has given me a new lease on life.

I knew how to handle him yesterday.  I went about my business, accomplishing EVERYTHING that I wanted to do.

My RETIREMENT PARTY was awesome.  I had an amazing time.  It is time for me to play and hopefully this is what the Almighty has in store for me.  I wore a beautiful black dress and looked beautiful.  I did not invite the girls knowing what they had done to me and the fact that I couldn't play pretend.  He had to put on his usual, I'm with people act and it passed.

However, I'm so beyond that.  I celebrated my accomplishments and let go of my disappointments.

Chris, the Principal, was funny when he announced me because he said, "and here is Arlene, who now works one day a week."

I took today off to walk, do yoga and celebrate my accomplishments.  

I'm going to relax later and get some color.  I will read.  I will learn how to PLAY!!!!

Thank you, Almighty for my new lease on life.

GRATEFUL THAT I MADE IT!!!!

I am grateful to the Almighty because I made it!!!!  Tonight is my retirement party.  I am beyond excited.  I am tearful as well as joyful.

He is trying everything in his power to make me upset.   He is miserable.  I am happy.  He wants me to be as miserable as he is.  That isn't going to happen!!!!  Yesterday, even though his PET SCAN was good he tried so hard to start a major confrontation and was met by my tiny little voice.   This morning, I am going to services and he wanted the bathroom just when I was going to get ready.  Again he was met by the tiny voice.  He is going to keep this up, I'm sure. I know that he will fail.

This morning it is raining.  It is said that it will clear in the afternoon.  I hope so as I would love to walk.  Yesterday I cleaned out the cabinet in the small bathroom and in the evening I was able to read my book.

Today I will again attend services for Shavouth.  It is also YIZKOR.

Later....................

Services were wonderful as usual.  YIZKOR was especially spiritual.

The weatherman said that would clear.  I would like to walk.

He is silent, probably waiting for me to react and I'm not going to.  We will see what happens.

GRATEFUL FOR BEING HEARD BY THE ALMIGHTY

I am grateful that the Almighty has heard my prayers.

The study session at PJC was absolutely wonderful.  It ended after ten last night.  This morning I was in services at nine.   

He had the yearly PET SCAN and it came back fine.  I had prayed so hard to the Almighty for this and I am grateful.  I wanted a life.  I wanted to be able to retire and play and now I will be able to do this.

I now know that I can have a summer.  I doesn't mean that I don't have to be careful around him.  Nothing has changed.  I still need to "zip it."  However, my retirement and all of my fun ideas for different activities can move forward.  He will still be the same person but I am brighter.  I will not be had.

Thank you, Almighty for hearing my prayers!!!!

Later-   A prophet coud have written my words.  I knew that as soon as he was fine he would try a confrontation and he did.  I never raised m voice but I told him in my quiet little voice that I was not intimidated by him and would never allow myself to go down that road.  I told him that I would not have retired if I didn't feel safe in my own home.  He definitely was screwed!!!!  I never discussed any of his issues calling it, "a waste of time on the timeline."

GRATEFUL TO THE ALMIGHTY!!!!

How can I begin to write about how grateful I am to the Almighty for all that He has done for me??

As I drove in to work today, I realized again that I was retiring on June 27th.  That date will take on new meaning for me because it will be forever know as the day that I retired.

I thought about my entire life and how the Almighty was there for me through the abuse of my parents, spouse and children.  

I made it!!!  I have friends.  I have activities.  I am happy.  I achieved a remarkable career with a wonderful pension.   I am awed by this and grateful to the Almighty because He was there for me.

Tonight I will attend a study session at PJC for the holiday of Shavouth. I will then be taking off Wednesday and Thursday in honor of the holiday.    I hope to walk for my 2 hours.  I finished the books for GREAT BOOKS  and will start the book for the Sisterhood Book Club.

He is not a decent person.  The Almighty knows all this.  I am asking Him to give this man a decent PET/CAT scan today so that my life can begin.

I am grateful to the Almighty because I made it!!!

GRATEFUL FOR MY NEW MANTRA

I am grateful to the Almighty for brining me to yoga.

I have a new mantra.  There are mantras that I say daily, but last week in Restorative Yoga, Dawn spoke of a short mantra to take you threw the day.  Mine is, "Inhale PEACE, exhale FEAR."  This is going to help me make the transition from WORK to RETIREMENT.

Today, I went to work.  My goal is to work on Monday and Tuesday.  Wednesday and Thursday are my personal days. It will be the holiday of Shavoth. Thursday night is my retirement party.  Wow!! I smile as I write this.  It took a long time for me to decide to retire.  I had to be safe in my own home. I had to have strategies to be safe and I do.  

I am thankful to the Almighty for this.

Today, I will go to the bank.  I will walk and continue to read my book for GREAT BOOKS.

I am making pasta for dinner.

I am experiencing joy in myself.  I am looking at the world differently.  I am seeing the world for the first time.

Thank you, Almighty.

GRATEFUL FOR STRENGTH AND THE ABILITY TO ACHIEVE!!!!

I am so grateful to the Almighty because He made me a strong woman with the ability to achieve.

Yesterday, I had a wonderful day!!!!  It ended with going to the Dog Park where Matzah actually brought back the ball that I threw many times.  It was amazing!!  I was able to read my book for GREAT BOOKS which is an all-day conference in Garden City next Sunday!!!

He was in a decent mood.  He thinks that if he is in these different moods, I will become frustrated, but that is not me. I understand him now.  I never say anything.  I just do the things that I love.

It is almost 6:30AM on a beautiful Sunday morning.  It is very still outside.  My aim is to walk by 7:00AM and then go to yoga.  As I walk or do yoga, I think about how grateful I am to the Almighty.  I think about all that I have gone through and all that I have achieved.  I am so grateful for my successes.  I am trying to let go of my disappointments.

 It's a busy day because I also want to get to Weight Watchers for the June weigh-in among other errands.  I hope to get some color today and to read also.  I have my first Apple One-to-One lesson later.  I am excited.

I'm thinking about going out to dinner.  We will see!!  

Thank you, Almighty for making me a strong woman with the motivation to achieve at all costs.

I am grateful!!!

Later-  I am at the Apple Store for my first Introduction to Your Mac Group Training.  The weather has been beautiful.  I have accomplished everything that I set out to do.  I have decided to make dinner on the deck.  It's a beautiful night.  I showered Matzah while I got color for an hour. I will read my book later.

He has been reasonable.

I am grateful!!!!